Week 11?? Why am I not back in my old pants? Or at the very least my sweaters? Obviously my original goal of losing 50 pounds by May was unrealistic. Some people can do it. I guess I'm not one of them. I DO NOT want to take 2 years to lose it like the first time but it seems like I'm headed that way. Which is totally going to suck because by then I may want another baby.
The thought absolutely horrifies me. Why am I losing this weight just to possibly regain it again and go through this depression and self loathing and hard work just to get pregnant and gain all over again? Second time will be different. The first thing I'm going to ask the doctor is to send me to a nutrionialist (um...can't spell this one and spell checker doesn't recognize it...guess I'm not even close ;) ). The second thing would be continue to go to the gym on my lunch hours (like I planned this time and couldn't). I will not get lazy. I'll will tell you one thing for sure. It isn't going to happen unless I get back down to my pre-pregnancy weight that's for DAMN sure.
Yesterday was good. I have to be a super saint this week to ensure I don't gain due to my wondrous weekend of pizza, wings and garlic bread (my typical weekend fare before getting pregnant and it didn't bother me at the time...gee was it because I'd work my ass off at the gym?!!). I'm committed to it. Brad knows the situation and is on board, helping me out the best he can which is going to be a huge asset to me. If I can get him helping me, I'll be all the more successful. That includes not suggesting things he'll know I'll say yes to and sending me out of the kitchen when I wander in there to forge like a forest animal.
Let's see yesterday I did 15 minutes of the Jillian Michael's Wii 2009 Fitness Ultimatum game. Don't know how good of an "exercise" routine it is but at least I wasn't just sitting doing nothing for 15 minutes and the jogging in place is actually really really hard. During James' afternoon nap did 45 minutes of yoga and of course 45 minutes of high impact aerobics last night (and 15 minutes of low impact). Total of 7 activity points. Plan on going for a walk this afternoon.
Food wise, still a lot of processed food and not enough "natural" food. Still need more vegetables and less snacking. Monday's are difficult though. I'm now finding a peanut butter sandwich before aerobics gives me enough energy to keep up but not enough to sustain me for the rest of the night. Need to find something to eat after the class that is light. Last night it was a hot dog.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, March 30, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 1
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
250ml Campbell's Minestrone Soup 2
32 oz water 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
1 tbsp peanut butter 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 1
Subtotal 5
Anytime
1 item(s) regular hot dog, beef or pork 5
1/2 cup(s) canned pineapple, packed in juice 1.5
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
1 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 1
Subtotal 9.5
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
45 min aerobics, high-intensity 7
Activity POINTS values earned 7
Wow. 9.5 points for "anytime" food? Not good. Though it does include my pre-workout meal.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Week 11 - Confession is Good for the Soul
This is going to hurt. But I'm gonna do it. I'm going to be accountable for what I did this weekend. This way if I have a very small loss or a large gain next Saturday I'll know exactly why.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
16 oz water 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) Italian wedding 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1/4 cup(s) water-packed tuna fish, drained 1.5
Subtotal 5.5
Evening
1/2c LOAF Garlic Bread w/CHEESE 12
8 item(s) Honey Garlic Chicken Wings 9.5
4 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
Subtotal 33.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
Subtotal 5
Food POINTS values total used 48
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
60 min walking, leisure 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 Slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 6
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
1/2 medium cooked sweet potato 1
1 item(s) cooked chicken fillet 3
1/2 cup(s) Kraft Dinner 3.5
Subtotal 7.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
2 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
2 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 2.5
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 19.5
Food POINTS values total used 37
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Going over my food intake and my points for the weekend actually helped me. Huh. It has made me realize that maybe this week will be salvageable so long as I get my activity points in for the week. Wow. That has actually motivated me to get out and move. Unfortunately the weather forecast for the week is wet wet wet with the exception of Thursday (for now). Aerobics restarts tonight and not a week too late. That'll earn me 7 points tonight a good starting point. I promise myself to do yoga today during James's afternoon nap and my Biggest Loser dvd the rest of the week. Out for a walk Thursday (whatdoyousay buddy, I'll e-mail you!). Oh and drink the equivalent of Lake Erie in water.
I will not let one bad weekend discourage me. See? This is why I'm keeping a blog. It is really really helping me. Normally I wouldn't have bothered with figuring out my points and would just assume the week was lost and make matters worse than I thought. Maybe that is the meaning of being accountable. I will turn this around. Wish me good luck...I'm going to need it.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
16 oz water 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) Italian wedding 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1/4 cup(s) water-packed tuna fish, drained 1.5
Subtotal 5.5
Evening
1/2c LOAF Garlic Bread w/CHEESE 12
8 item(s) Honey Garlic Chicken Wings 9.5
4 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
Subtotal 33.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
Subtotal 5
Food POINTS values total used 48
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
60 min walking, leisure 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 Slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 6
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
1/2 medium cooked sweet potato 1
1 item(s) cooked chicken fillet 3
1/2 cup(s) Kraft Dinner 3.5
Subtotal 7.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
2 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
2 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 2.5
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 19.5
Food POINTS values total used 37
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Going over my food intake and my points for the weekend actually helped me. Huh. It has made me realize that maybe this week will be salvageable so long as I get my activity points in for the week. Wow. That has actually motivated me to get out and move. Unfortunately the weather forecast for the week is wet wet wet with the exception of Thursday (for now). Aerobics restarts tonight and not a week too late. That'll earn me 7 points tonight a good starting point. I promise myself to do yoga today during James's afternoon nap and my Biggest Loser dvd the rest of the week. Out for a walk Thursday (whatdoyousay buddy, I'll e-mail you!). Oh and drink the equivalent of Lake Erie in water.
I will not let one bad weekend discourage me. See? This is why I'm keeping a blog. It is really really helping me. Normally I wouldn't have bothered with figuring out my points and would just assume the week was lost and make matters worse than I thought. Maybe that is the meaning of being accountable. I will turn this around. Wish me good luck...I'm going to need it.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Week 10 - The Results Blog
Another successful weigh in! This week I managed to lose 1.2 pounds this week. That means I've now lost a total of 6 pounds since rejoining Weight Watchers 5 weeks ago. Still having mixed emotions about it. I'm happy to obviously be losing. I've lost consistantly for five weeks in a row. Unfortuately with the exception of the first week's disappointing loss of 0.6 my progess is slowing down. However, I still am impatient and was expecting the weight loss to go much quicker than it is.
Okay. Big picture. Since having the baby I've lost a total of 49.8 pounds with only 38.2 ;eft to go. I'm more than half way there. And I've lost that 49.8 pounds in just under 6 months. That has got to be something to be proud of right? I've got the determination to do it. I've got the fight to do it. I just don't have the patience to do it.
This week has been a bad one. I counted all the points I used yesterday. I was good in that we went for a family walk on a Saturday and I earned 3 activity points. Then we had pizza, wings and garlic bread (with cheese!) and I ate like I used to (and used to be able to when I was going to the gym five days a week). I had all but 8 Flex points left (out of 35). No problem. I kept track. I was still looking good. Today I'm tired and getting a cold I do believe. I'm exhausted, sore throat and headachey. Started eating about 2 in the afternoon and I stopped at 6. I'm going to write it all down but doubt I'm going to bother to count the points I just used up. Positive side? Aerobics starts again tomorrow so I'll get out of the house and do some sort of exercise. Bad side? Probably see a gain next Saturday which'll frusturate me all to hell.
I'm just tired. Tired of the colder weather. Tired of my living room. Tired of spending all day cleaning only to have it end up in more of a mess in less than two hours. Tired of the mess in my basement which has now seeped into the one spot I tried to keep clear down there for my laundry. Tired of the mess in the garage. Tired of things falling apart in the house. Tired of having to be the nag. Tired tired tired. One day. Just one day of sleeping in until noon and not feeling guilty about leaving the husband to look after the baby. One day away from the baby and my responsibilities. Tired of being responsible. Somehow managed to forget to pay the gas bill last month. Whoops. Tired of being the one who has to take the initative to figure out our budget and make sure things are paid and one time. TIRED TIRED TIRED.
Huh. Maybe that's why I took a mini break from counting points these past two days. I have too much else to worry about in my head. Did I mention that we're also having to get a new roof? I'm the one putting out the call for quotes? But...I'm no dummy. I made 'em call his cell phone. Ha! Passed of that one!
Anyone got a bag of Dill Pickle Chips? Anyone? Anyone?
Okay. Big picture. Since having the baby I've lost a total of 49.8 pounds with only 38.2 ;eft to go. I'm more than half way there. And I've lost that 49.8 pounds in just under 6 months. That has got to be something to be proud of right? I've got the determination to do it. I've got the fight to do it. I just don't have the patience to do it.
This week has been a bad one. I counted all the points I used yesterday. I was good in that we went for a family walk on a Saturday and I earned 3 activity points. Then we had pizza, wings and garlic bread (with cheese!) and I ate like I used to (and used to be able to when I was going to the gym five days a week). I had all but 8 Flex points left (out of 35). No problem. I kept track. I was still looking good. Today I'm tired and getting a cold I do believe. I'm exhausted, sore throat and headachey. Started eating about 2 in the afternoon and I stopped at 6. I'm going to write it all down but doubt I'm going to bother to count the points I just used up. Positive side? Aerobics starts again tomorrow so I'll get out of the house and do some sort of exercise. Bad side? Probably see a gain next Saturday which'll frusturate me all to hell.
I'm just tired. Tired of the colder weather. Tired of my living room. Tired of spending all day cleaning only to have it end up in more of a mess in less than two hours. Tired of the mess in my basement which has now seeped into the one spot I tried to keep clear down there for my laundry. Tired of the mess in the garage. Tired of things falling apart in the house. Tired of having to be the nag. Tired tired tired. One day. Just one day of sleeping in until noon and not feeling guilty about leaving the husband to look after the baby. One day away from the baby and my responsibilities. Tired of being responsible. Somehow managed to forget to pay the gas bill last month. Whoops. Tired of being the one who has to take the initative to figure out our budget and make sure things are paid and one time. TIRED TIRED TIRED.
Huh. Maybe that's why I took a mini break from counting points these past two days. I have too much else to worry about in my head. Did I mention that we're also having to get a new roof? I'm the one putting out the call for quotes? But...I'm no dummy. I made 'em call his cell phone. Ha! Passed of that one!
Anyone got a bag of Dill Pickle Chips? Anyone? Anyone?
Friday, March 27, 2009
Week 10 - Small Victory
Yesterday James and I headed to my parents house and I managed to not go way off program at lunch. I was offered either a grilled cheese sandwich (eech!) or a fried egg sandwich. I instead had Tomato soup. I felt bad for asking for something different but I have decided I can't let anything divert me from what I want the most. Mom gave me the entire can of soup to eat and I only ate 1/2 of it.
James is awake already. Must go.
POINTS® Tracker entries
James is awake already. Must go.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 4
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) 25% less sodium tomato soup 3
1 serving(s) Crackers 2
8 fl oz Tangerine Strawberry, Prepared 0
Subtotal 5
1 cup(s) 25% less sodium tomato soup 3
1 serving(s) Crackers 2
8 fl oz Tangerine Strawberry, Prepared 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
4 serving(s) Low Fat Premium Superfries 8
3 Chicken Strips 6
Subtotal 14
4 serving(s) Low Fat Premium Superfries 8
3 Chicken Strips 6
Subtotal 14
Anytime
1 Dad's Oatmeal Cookie 1.5
1 Fiber One Bar 2
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 26.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Activity POINTS values earned
0
Check off these important items daily:
Water
Milk & Milk Products
Fruit & Vegetables
Multivitamin
Healthy Oils
1 Dad's Oatmeal Cookie 1.5
1 Fiber One Bar 2
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 26.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Activity POINTS values earned
0
Check off these important items daily:
Water
Milk & Milk Products
Fruit & Vegetables
Multivitamin
Healthy Oils
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Week 10 - Blah Blah Blah and the Such
The good news? No Zombie dreams last night. The bad news? I dreamt I was back in high school, with an old friend from elementary school (and part of high school) that I chose not to associate with . And I was TRYING to switch my schedule for a gym class. WTF is THAT about. Bah.
Taking peaks at my weight and my measurements. I've asked Brad to hide the scale on me because hiding it myself is really rather ineffective. I'm pleased with the progress on my waist considering I haven't done much in the way of exercising as of late. I seem more motivated to move when the sun is out. Then again, aren't we all? Oh and how do I say this? My back fat is going away!!! That was the breaking point for me when I was pregnant. Back fat. Ugly, ugly back fat. The kind that your bra cuts into and creates lovely rolls up and down your torso taking away the nice sleek appearance you've worked five long years at to achieve. Yep. 5 years of going to the gym faithfully on my lunch hours and 9 short months to take it away. Why oh why do I have to gain everything in my hips, butt and thighs? Why oh why do you hate me Fat Gods? Oh right. I am woman. Hear me whine.
I think James and I are both bored to tears with sitting in the living room all day. Today we venture out of the house to my parents. I'd love to go for a walk but not sure when it'll actually rain. Tomorrow is supposed to be a better day, warm with no rain. Keeping my fingers crossed. I'm dying to get down to the waterfront to walk. The fact that there is a Timothy's Coffee Pub down there is entirely coincidental!
Yesterday I again kicked butt with staying on program. Once again, only two servings of vegetables but got in two servings of milk. Give and take. Plus as an added bonus, I stayed away from the processed foods. That's what kills you in the end you know. I can eat more for less points when I put in the effort and actually make a meat, vegetable and potato than when I throw chicken strips or a frozen pizza in the oven. One is quick and easy but leaves you hungry. One is made with love!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 small banana(s) 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
100 ml Yoptimal Raspberry Cranberry Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
2c Cavatappi with Cauliflower Sauce 7
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 9
Anytime
1 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 1
1 item(s) Vanilla 1
32 oz water 0
Subtotal 2
Food POINTS values total used 22.5
Food POINTS values remaining 1.5
Taking peaks at my weight and my measurements. I've asked Brad to hide the scale on me because hiding it myself is really rather ineffective. I'm pleased with the progress on my waist considering I haven't done much in the way of exercising as of late. I seem more motivated to move when the sun is out. Then again, aren't we all? Oh and how do I say this? My back fat is going away!!! That was the breaking point for me when I was pregnant. Back fat. Ugly, ugly back fat. The kind that your bra cuts into and creates lovely rolls up and down your torso taking away the nice sleek appearance you've worked five long years at to achieve. Yep. 5 years of going to the gym faithfully on my lunch hours and 9 short months to take it away. Why oh why do I have to gain everything in my hips, butt and thighs? Why oh why do you hate me Fat Gods? Oh right. I am woman. Hear me whine.
I think James and I are both bored to tears with sitting in the living room all day. Today we venture out of the house to my parents. I'd love to go for a walk but not sure when it'll actually rain. Tomorrow is supposed to be a better day, warm with no rain. Keeping my fingers crossed. I'm dying to get down to the waterfront to walk. The fact that there is a Timothy's Coffee Pub down there is entirely coincidental!
Yesterday I again kicked butt with staying on program. Once again, only two servings of vegetables but got in two servings of milk. Give and take. Plus as an added bonus, I stayed away from the processed foods. That's what kills you in the end you know. I can eat more for less points when I put in the effort and actually make a meat, vegetable and potato than when I throw chicken strips or a frozen pizza in the oven. One is quick and easy but leaves you hungry. One is made with love!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 small banana(s) 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
100 ml Yoptimal Raspberry Cranberry Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
2c Cavatappi with Cauliflower Sauce 7
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 9
Anytime
1 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 1
1 item(s) Vanilla 1
32 oz water 0
Subtotal 2
Food POINTS values total used 22.5
Food POINTS values remaining 1.5
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Week 10 - It's the End of the World As I Know it
That's right it starts with an earthquake, birds, snakes and aeroplanes. Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Last night as I turned off my lamp I found myself smiling waiting to fall asleep. My entire life I have wanted to be in another place and space in my life. When I was 13, I wanted to be 18. When I was 18 I wanted to be 21. When I was 28, I wanted to be 25. Now at 30, there is no other place I want to be. It is an odd feeling. Not wanting to be any younger. Certainly not wanting to be any older. Just content being right where I am. I have a husband whom I love very much. I have an adorable, incredibly good baby. I own my own home and have a good job that if I were being completely honest with myself, I actually love doing. I have my health. I love my family and friends. There is no other place in the world I'd rather be right now. *GASP* I think I may just be happy. Huh. So this is what it feels like. So then since I'm feeling this way why oh WHY do I keep killing off the entire human race in my dreams at least once a week?
Bare with me as we go a little bit into my psyche. For longer than I can remember (I'd say at least the past two years) I have been having reoccurring nightmares. Some of which can probably be attributed to my husband and I passion for horror movies. Zombie infestations take over the world. I some how survive the initial outbreak only to try and make it through to the next day. I often find myself battling one on one with a Zombie in my dreams. Sometimes I will hide from them in various familiar settings, all from my current life or childhood. In each though, I do live. Often though, alone and separated from those that I love.
I fully believe dreams are our unconscious selves trying to tell us something. So then:
"End of the Word: Not predictive of the actual end of the world nor of death. Dreams that the end of the world is coming/occurring usually signify a momentous change taking place within. They are dramatic/emotional. Often dreamed of by seriously ill people and by uprooted refugees or others forced to make extensive life changes. They may indicate the end of one kind of lifestyle and the beginning of another."
Huh. After James was first born I had a mourning period of a few weeks when I realized my life as I knew it wouldn't be the same ever again. I guess I'm still coming to terms with my life as it is now. I have been working on controlling my dreams. In my dream I want to conquer the Zombies by being the person to come up with the cure to the Zombie problem and restore humankind to a new beginning. I just wish these dreams wouldn't take place in the moments just before waking, leaving me with a feeling of loneliness and depression that lasts for the entire day...especially on dreary rainy gray days like today.
Yesterday was a goodish day. Until the evening anyway when we learned the CERTIFIED ACCOUNTANT who just did our taxes somehow missed the entire provincial portion of our income tax and instead of getting back $4,500 (which would allow us to get both a desperately needed new roof for the house and new tires for me) we are instead getting $350. Oh, wait. We paid this guy$150 to do the taxes in the first place so we're only getting $200 back. Jerk.
Oh and then there's the great news that the landing at our side door isn't supported by well...anything. The previous owners did some interesting home renovations that included cutting out support beams and using 2x4's to support the landing. So er any friends of mine reading this...use the front door until further notice!
Yesterday:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
Small Banana
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
8 Perogies
1 med Sweet Potato
Snacks
2 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar (frozen oh so GOOD!)
Small Apple
1.5L Crystal Light
I know, I know. I need to get in those vegetables. UGH!
It's the end of the world as I know it. And I feel fine.
Last night as I turned off my lamp I found myself smiling waiting to fall asleep. My entire life I have wanted to be in another place and space in my life. When I was 13, I wanted to be 18. When I was 18 I wanted to be 21. When I was 28, I wanted to be 25. Now at 30, there is no other place I want to be. It is an odd feeling. Not wanting to be any younger. Certainly not wanting to be any older. Just content being right where I am. I have a husband whom I love very much. I have an adorable, incredibly good baby. I own my own home and have a good job that if I were being completely honest with myself, I actually love doing. I have my health. I love my family and friends. There is no other place in the world I'd rather be right now. *GASP* I think I may just be happy. Huh. So this is what it feels like. So then since I'm feeling this way why oh WHY do I keep killing off the entire human race in my dreams at least once a week?
Bare with me as we go a little bit into my psyche. For longer than I can remember (I'd say at least the past two years) I have been having reoccurring nightmares. Some of which can probably be attributed to my husband and I passion for horror movies. Zombie infestations take over the world. I some how survive the initial outbreak only to try and make it through to the next day. I often find myself battling one on one with a Zombie in my dreams. Sometimes I will hide from them in various familiar settings, all from my current life or childhood. In each though, I do live. Often though, alone and separated from those that I love.
I fully believe dreams are our unconscious selves trying to tell us something. So then:
"End of the Word: Not predictive of the actual end of the world nor of death. Dreams that the end of the world is coming/occurring usually signify a momentous change taking place within. They are dramatic/emotional. Often dreamed of by seriously ill people and by uprooted refugees or others forced to make extensive life changes. They may indicate the end of one kind of lifestyle and the beginning of another."
Huh. After James was first born I had a mourning period of a few weeks when I realized my life as I knew it wouldn't be the same ever again. I guess I'm still coming to terms with my life as it is now. I have been working on controlling my dreams. In my dream I want to conquer the Zombies by being the person to come up with the cure to the Zombie problem and restore humankind to a new beginning. I just wish these dreams wouldn't take place in the moments just before waking, leaving me with a feeling of loneliness and depression that lasts for the entire day...especially on dreary rainy gray days like today.
Yesterday was a goodish day. Until the evening anyway when we learned the CERTIFIED ACCOUNTANT who just did our taxes somehow missed the entire provincial portion of our income tax and instead of getting back $4,500 (which would allow us to get both a desperately needed new roof for the house and new tires for me) we are instead getting $350. Oh, wait. We paid this guy$150 to do the taxes in the first place so we're only getting $200 back. Jerk.
Oh and then there's the great news that the landing at our side door isn't supported by well...anything. The previous owners did some interesting home renovations that included cutting out support beams and using 2x4's to support the landing. So er any friends of mine reading this...use the front door until further notice!
Yesterday:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
Small Banana
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
8 Perogies
1 med Sweet Potato
Snacks
2 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar (frozen oh so GOOD!)
Small Apple
1.5L Crystal Light
I know, I know. I need to get in those vegetables. UGH!
It's the end of the world as I know it. And I feel fine.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Week 10 - Decide, Commit, Succeed
Why am I doing this?
1. To feel better about myself
2. To be healthy
3. To look better (in my opinion)
4. To not have to buy new clothing
5. To regain my cocky confidence
6. To regain my level of energy
My Goals:
1. To be able to wear my wedding rings again. I am able to squeeze my finger into my engagement ring again. However, don't want to wear it all day yet as I'm sure I won't be able to get it off once it is worn for more than 10 minutes. Can't wear both rings together yet.
2. To get to 182. This is the weight I was the first time I joined Weight Watchers in 2001.
3. To fit into the size 12 pants I have hanging in my closet.
4. To exercise 20 minutes a day.
Yesterday I had a busy day. I've been cleaning the heck out of the house. I've let it go for the past er..year. Time to take the bull by the horns. James was great. Slept long and when he was awake played quietly on the floor while I flitted about.
Food wise. Ugh. I have 3 flex points left until Saturday. Why I let Brad talk me into food I'll never know. We had the rest of the crappy lasagna from Sunday night. It left a lot to be desired. So we had garlic bread. At least he tried to be good and left off the cheese and didn't make half a loaf for each of us as per usual. I have got to get a note book to keep track of his points. I think he's willing to do this with me, just not go to meetings (and pay for it!).
He did really good the last time he joined with me in Toronto. He lost a lot of weight. Got below 300 and promised me he'd never be back over 300 again. We'll get him there if it kills me! Hmmm...forcing him is that like nagging? I hope not! I want to do this for his health not for his looks. I want him to be around for me and James for a long time and with his family history and his current weight, I don't like where we're headed.
Plus...if he's being good, I'm being good. Win win!
Yesterday's journal:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Small Banana
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
Meat Lasagna (pre-made)
Garlic Bread
Snack
Fiber One Bar
1.5 L Crystal Light
Activity
5hrs of house cleaning
Total Used 29
Over +5
Activity 13!
1. To feel better about myself
2. To be healthy
3. To look better (in my opinion)
4. To not have to buy new clothing
5. To regain my cocky confidence
6. To regain my level of energy
My Goals:
1. To be able to wear my wedding rings again. I am able to squeeze my finger into my engagement ring again. However, don't want to wear it all day yet as I'm sure I won't be able to get it off once it is worn for more than 10 minutes. Can't wear both rings together yet.
2. To get to 182. This is the weight I was the first time I joined Weight Watchers in 2001.
3. To fit into the size 12 pants I have hanging in my closet.
4. To exercise 20 minutes a day.
Yesterday I had a busy day. I've been cleaning the heck out of the house. I've let it go for the past er..year. Time to take the bull by the horns. James was great. Slept long and when he was awake played quietly on the floor while I flitted about.
Food wise. Ugh. I have 3 flex points left until Saturday. Why I let Brad talk me into food I'll never know. We had the rest of the crappy lasagna from Sunday night. It left a lot to be desired. So we had garlic bread. At least he tried to be good and left off the cheese and didn't make half a loaf for each of us as per usual. I have got to get a note book to keep track of his points. I think he's willing to do this with me, just not go to meetings (and pay for it!).
He did really good the last time he joined with me in Toronto. He lost a lot of weight. Got below 300 and promised me he'd never be back over 300 again. We'll get him there if it kills me! Hmmm...forcing him is that like nagging? I hope not! I want to do this for his health not for his looks. I want him to be around for me and James for a long time and with his family history and his current weight, I don't like where we're headed.
Plus...if he's being good, I'm being good. Win win!
Yesterday's journal:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Small Banana
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
Meat Lasagna (pre-made)
Garlic Bread
Snack
Fiber One Bar
1.5 L Crystal Light
Activity
5hrs of house cleaning
Total Used 29
Over +5
Activity 13!
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