When is a loss not really a loss? When you don't lose all that you gained the week before. Arugh! This week I lost 0.8.
I know I shouldn't obsess so much about my time frame for losing weight. I just really want this done and over with. I'm not helping matters much. I need a weekend home with not eating out or having a busy day to just sit and relax and not use all my flex points in the first two days.
True confessions of a drama queen? Saturday evening the family went to a friends house for a early "summer" bbq. I made a lite macaroni salad and there was chicken and pork chops and a veggie platter. Easy enough to stay with in points right? Not when you have two chicken quarters AND a pork chop. Hey, at least I had to say no to dessert....ice cream and pop have a bad reaction in my tummy. Or no. Wait, I had three mini tarts. Whoopsie!
Sunday wasn't bad at the on-set. Got some yard work done...mowed the lawn, dug a new garden...that kind of stuff. Even had a baseball practice (YAY Softball season! After having to sit last year out I'm really looking forward to this!). I was terrified to play again mainly because of my wrist. Once I got started though turned out okay IMHO. I'm afraid to throw harder though too much force will jam it again...and as a pitcher...it'll keep my wrist straight trying not to tweak it so my pitching will be straighter (I HOPE!).
So the practice wasn't the problem. The Taco Bell *I* suggested we have for dinner after the practice was. So once again I'm in the situation where it is only Monday...5 days away from weigh in and I'm already out of flex points. Why do I knowingly keep doing this to myself? Swear I'm in the habit of self sabotage. Why? Am I that afraid of failing at this that I'm willing to screw myself over? Do I not what it bad enough? Why am I doing this week after week? That is why I need a weekend to myself to sit back, cook a real meal and stay within points all day, everyday for one whole week. At least I am journaling again.
Tonight off to aerobics. Cleaned during James' morning nap no dvd...figured tonight's 8 activity points would be more than enough.
Little man is moving...good day all!
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