I'M BACK!

Trying to find time for life, let alone blogging has been quite the challenge lately. If it isn't one thing it is another. I don't know what I was expecting life would be like once I got back to work but this certainly wasn't it. I've always been a selfish person and I value my private, alone time and am protective of it. Those of you who have kids, are laughing right now. Welcome to my reality check.

I think my inability to lose weight right now is me rebelling against myself. My weight hasn't changed since July. Sure I have weeks of losses and weeks of gains. I'm holding fast and steady right between 172-174. Playing with the same 2 pounds. It is rather frusturating. Even more so because I know what I am doing wrong. I'll be perfect with Weight Watchers Monday to Friday. As soon as the weekend comes, my old mentality of I can eat what ever I want (which used to be the case) comes back and I ruin all my hard work of the past week in two quick little days. I'm really good at maintaining apparently. It has been quite the while since I've actually had to lose weight.

I'm hoping getting back into blogging and journalling daily will help. Right now I'm focusing on getting back into a gym routine. Even there I'm sabatoging myself. I keep saying my 25 minutes a day at the gym isn't worth it because really...what is 25 minutes of fat burning cardio anyway? I miss walking to work. That was an automatic 2 extra points a day right there...and kept my problem areas of butt and thighs in respectable shape.

I've got to do this for me. How though when I'm the last person on my mind?

Today's menu looks something a little like this:

Breakfast
1c Cheerios
Breakfast Pita
Black Coffee

Snack
Fiber One Bar

Lunch
Healthy Request Chicken and Rice Soup Bowl
Yogurt
Diet Coke

Dinner
Sheppard's Pie (with celery and peas and carrots)

I know, where's the fresh food? Where's the fruit and vegetable servings? You'd think because I'm so concerned with what James' is eating it would make my job at Weight Watchers easier because that's how we all should be eating right? Wrong. I don't know how to cook. I never know what to make. I start the week with the best intentions of making a meal plan for the week...I'll sit with my cook books, say "can't make that, don't have that..." get frusturated and give up.

Anyone know of a good professional organizer?