Week 18 - Overwhelmed by Support

I had a good day after all yesterday. I had a lot to get off my chest blogging helped a lot. Friends can't know what is going on in your head unless you tell them and they may begin to think they've done something wrong. It isn't the case at all. I just need some time alone to find myself and my way again. The e-mails and facebook postings on my wall with suggestions from friends make me realize I'm not alone in this even though at times I couldn't feel more alone in the world.

Yesterday ended up shopping and buying some new clothes. Today I'm sitting here in a size 11 jean capris (yay Reitman's with a wide variety of sizes!). Sure it gives me a little bit of a muffin top in my belly area but I suppose in time that will be taken care of. Nothing a nice new longer tee shirt can't cover up! So I got 4 new summer shirts...the tank tops of summers past will be demoted to sleeping in until I can get back to work and weight training...besides my new post-pregnant skin is burning like a SOB in the sun. Not that I was a tanned goddess before. Previously I came in to shades, Caseper and Extra Cripsy. Now the theme of the summer looks like either freckled or Extra extra crispy. Nice. I HATE SUNSCREEN! So sticky and smelly. But...I digress. Also bought three new pairs of pants. Two capris and one pair of shorts. Got to be prepared for all eventualities. Couldn't find any yoga pants for baseball. The search for that continues. Maybe WalMart or Zellers will be more helpful.

Food wise I like to think I did okay. I ended up at my parents so when shopping my Mom could watch James while I tried on clothes. Dad ended up offering to watch James while we went out. We waited until after noon so I could feed the monkey and we left. Mom hadn't had lunch yet (neither had I for that matter) so she suggested McDonald's in Walmart. Moment of panic. McDonald's in Walmarts SUCK. They don't offer a full menu. No salads. I couldn't find the menu for happy meals. So I think I did the best I could. I had two Fajitas and a diet Coke. Passed on the fries. 8 points for lunch. Not too bad considering normally I'd just have a combo and say fuck the day. Minor slip up with an Iced Coffee from Tim Horton's (4 points with cream). Note to self. Next time ask for it with Milk instead. For a medium it reduces the point value to 2.

Hopefully I can keep this up all week. Monkey is awake...

POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, May 25, 2009

Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 CHicken Fajitas McDonald's - Quick-added food 8
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Med. Tim Horton's Iced Coffee (w/cream) - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 13

Evening
1/2 chicken - Quick-added food 3
White Flour Tortilla - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 7

Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0

Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.