ARUGH!
What is wrong with me? Why can't I "get" it? I am back up again this week and am frustrated as all out hell. Frustrated. Upset with myself. Impatient. Pissed off. Depressed. Sad. Annoyed. If it a negative emotion, name it and I'm feeling it.
Sure it is only 0.4 of a gain. But that now means that I've been back at meetings for 6 weeks now and I've only lost 5.8. I'm not happy with those results. I've been at this a really long time. Since I was 21. I should be better at this. I know what the problem is. Now I just have to convince myself that by changing it and fixing it I'll lose quicker. I'm too busy comparing my progress to others and beating myself up that I SUCK AT THIS. I'm letting myself down and I'm letting my "loyal readers" down. ARUGH!
Okay. Changes I have made. 1. Didn't refuse the little paper journal they give out each week. Took it and am making my husband's life a living hell. That's right. I'm tracking his points and making him do this with me regardless if he wants to or not. You're in Spring training now baby, your ass is mine. 2. NO MORE PROCESSED FOOD (or to the best of my capability). 3. NO MORE SNACKING regardless if they are 1 point bars or not. Have more than 1 and they are no longer 1 point. 4. VEGETABLES. BLUCH. Enough said.
Saturday I did good. Friends went over to the States with us. I ordered the best I could when we had lunch. I had a turkey burger, left off the mayo, no cheese and had steamed broccoli as the side. Who the hell orders broccoli as a side? Me apparently. Bluch and bluch. I hate cooked vegetables. BLUCH. But I ate them. And I ate them all...with minimum bitching.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sure it is only 0.4 of a gain. But that now means that I've been back at meetings for 6 weeks now and I've only lost 5.8. I'm not happy with those results. I've been at this a really long time. Since I was 21. I should be better at this. I know what the problem is. Now I just have to convince myself that by changing it and fixing it I'll lose quicker. I'm too busy comparing my progress to others and beating myself up that I SUCK AT THIS. I'm letting myself down and I'm letting my "loyal readers" down. ARUGH!
Okay. Changes I have made. 1. Didn't refuse the little paper journal they give out each week. Took it and am making my husband's life a living hell. That's right. I'm tracking his points and making him do this with me regardless if he wants to or not. You're in Spring training now baby, your ass is mine. 2. NO MORE PROCESSED FOOD (or to the best of my capability). 3. NO MORE SNACKING regardless if they are 1 point bars or not. Have more than 1 and they are no longer 1 point. 4. VEGETABLES. BLUCH. Enough said.
Saturday I did good. Friends went over to the States with us. I ordered the best I could when we had lunch. I had a turkey burger, left off the mayo, no cheese and had steamed broccoli as the side. Who the hell orders broccoli as a side? Me apparently. Bluch and bluch. I hate cooked vegetables. BLUCH. But I ate them. And I ate them all...with minimum bitching.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Morning
1 small banana(s) 1.5
100 ml Source Yogurt 1
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 2.5
Midday
1 item(s) hamburger bun(s) 3
Bucket o'Diet Pepsi 0
1/2 pound(s) frozen turkey burger(s) 12.5
1 cup(s) cooked broccoli 0
Subtotal 15.5
1 item(s) hamburger bun(s) 3
Bucket o'Diet Pepsi 0
1/2 pound(s) frozen turkey burger(s) 12.5
1 cup(s) cooked broccoli 0
Subtotal 15.5
Evening
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat 'n Bran, spoon-size 1.5
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
Subtotal 3.5
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat 'n Bran, spoon-size 1.5
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
Subtotal 3.5
Anytime
100 ml Source Yogurt 1
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
Subtotal 4
100 ml Source Yogurt 1
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
Subtotal 4
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Food POINTS values remaining 0
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat 'n Bran, spoon-size 1.5
1 small banana(s) 1.5
100 ml Source Yogurt 1
Subtotal 4
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat 'n Bran, spoon-size 1.5
1 small banana(s) 1.5
100 ml Source Yogurt 1
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 cup(s) spinach 0
Subtotal 4
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 cup(s) spinach 0
Subtotal 4
Evening
5 oz cooked pork loin, lean and fat 6.5
1 medium potato, baked 2.5
1 cup(s) cooked broccoli 0
1 oz cooked carrots 0
1 oz frozen brussel sprouts 0
Subtotal 9
5 oz cooked pork loin, lean and fat 6.5
1 medium potato, baked 2.5
1 cup(s) cooked broccoli 0
1 oz cooked carrots 0
1 oz frozen brussel sprouts 0
Subtotal 9
Anytime
Med. Skinny Vanilla Bean Latte 3
1 medium baby carrots 0
Subtotal 3
Med. Skinny Vanilla Bean Latte 3
1 medium baby carrots 0
Subtotal 3
Food POINTS values total used 20
Food POINTS values remaining 4
Food POINTS values remaining 4
Exercise
20 min gardening, digging 1
Activity POINTS values earned 1
20 min gardening, digging 1
Activity POINTS values earned 1
1 comment:
That sounds tough. Go over to my blog and implement some of the things I've suggested...I think it might help. You can do this. I know you can do this. Don't look at outcome, look at moment by moment, day by day, believing you can do this.
(((HUG)))
Breeze
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