Reflections

We're back to being motivated and I'm pretty proud of myself today and yesterday.  Especially today.  Last night I attended a seminar for nutrition and learned a few things.  I have entered a "Biggest Loser" challenge through the trainer I have been taking my boot camp with.  I figured I could use all the motivation I can get.  Since I'm a competitive person, I need others to know what I am accomplishing and doing. 

I'm glad I went.  I think it was the kick in the ass I needed.  Today I made the best decisions food wise that I could given what we had in the house and got active.  For lunch I actually had two hard boiled eggs, roman lettuce, homemade balsamic vinaigrette and strawberries.  I didn't think I would be full, but it actually filled me up and kept me satisfied until dinner.

The problem with eating clean and healthy, to me, is that it seems like a lot of work.  It is so easy, especially when Brad is on nights, to open up a box of some premade food to feed the kids rather than cook a chicken breast.  And not eating sugar or white flour seems next to impossible.  So in that respect, when and where I can avoid these types of foods, I will.  Otherwise I will watch my portions and give it my all.  Combine that with Weight Watchers, I should be golden.  Maybe not winning golden, but maybe a nice bright amber.

I have been feeling good this week, which helps.  Piper has been cranky as all hell.  A tooth broke through tonight so that explains her surliness for the past 4 days.  Today I had a fitness high.  I made it out for a training run.  I love being able to run through the park, there is a beautiful view of the city, it is quiet and everyone you pass smiles and says hello.  After my 30 minute training session, I continued on for a walk along the trail.  At the end I was able to pause again on the park bench, with a beautiful view of the city and bay, and just meditate.  Clear my mind of all thoughts.  I didn't care if anyone walked by and saw me sitting there, lotus position, eyes closed, just breathing.  Figured, if they did see me, they'd just be jealous anyway.  I love being off on maternity leave.  There will never be another time in my life that I am able to actually raise my own kids.  To watch them grow and enjoy their childhood.  It makes me sad thinking that my time with them is half over and this will eventually have to come to an end.  I do not want it to end.  I am trying to enjoy my time to the fullest.  I am sad that I wasted my first 5 months being sad and depressed.  I am grateful that I was able to ask my doctor for help and get the help I needed when I did.  I couldn't have taken wasting another minute of my time.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Morning

1 large banana(s) 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 3
1 serving(s) Maple Oatmeal Squares 5
Subtotal 8

Midday
1 cup(s) romaine lettuce 0
3 medium strawberries 0
2 Tbsp balsamic vinegar 1
2 medium whole hard-boiled egg(s) 4
1 Tbsp olive oil 4
Subtotal 9

Evening
1 serving(s) Fettuccine Alfredo Sidekick 3
2 slice(s) cooked lean ham 4
1 cup(s) cooked corn kernels 4
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 3
Subtotal 14

Anytime
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 0
Food PointsPlus values total used 31
Food PointsPlus values remaining 0

Exercise
Run - Activity I created 5
Activity PointsPlus values earned 5


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