Been a little remiss in blogging these past few weeks. You'll have to forgive me. Germs have once again over-ridden my homestead and waged battle against my own immune system and won. The little bastards (which is what I will refer to the germs as hence forth) have invaded my body and kicked the crap out of my awesome super-hero strength immunities and sent my illness preventing white blood cells packing. Okay, okay, I may be being a little over dramatic, but at this point, the germs of a three year old are kicking my ass.
I haven't been this sick in quite sometime. Before I was overtaken by the little bastards, I was on quite the roll. I managed 5 straight days of exercise, be it my running or boot camp. I could have made it 7 straight, but am taking the advice of all and any website I have read and giving my body some days in between to rest. My points and clean eating were almost perfect to a "T". I lost 1.8 pounds! I was quite proud of myself too. I set my week goal for a pound and a half, and I managed to surpass it by 0.3. I was on fire. I was on a roll. Then as previously mentioned, I got sick.
I haven't been this beaten down by illness in a very long time. I haven't got much energy. I've missed 6 days of scheduled exercise, and will probably end up missing an entire week. Just as I was about to hit the 20 minutes of straight running mark in my training, I came down with chest congestion from hell. I obviously didn't want to attempt running with compromised lung capacity. I missed Wednesdays and Sunday's boot camps and several training runs along the way. I have been taking solace in comfort food in the form of pizza and wings, Big Macs and fries, lattes and dill pickle chips. Even though I had planned on setting another mini goal of another pound a half this week, I fully expect to see a gain at the scale this week.
This has been quite the set back. I am not normally this much of a baby when it comes to catching the little bastards. The kids have both been sick as well. I have found it extremely challenging to take care of two sick little children while feeling like utter shit myself. I've had to push away my own health and taking care of myself in order to make sure they are comfortable and feeling as best as they can given the circumstances. Of course, I realize that is all part of being a Mother and my duty to take care of the needs of them before my own. Fortunately the worst of my cold came when Brad had an entire weekend off and was able to take care of the kids....and me...while being home. I got frustrated though. I would be up at 3:00 am when the NyQuil wore off, hacking up a lung. I'd go downstairs and continue to sleep on the couch so I wouldn't wake up the rest of the household with my coughing. Last night I was up at 4:00 and couldn't get back to sleep until 6:00am. I just wanted someone to take care of me like I'd taken care of the kids. I wanted to be babied, and be told to go back to bed, or go have a bubble bath, or reminded to take some sinus meds. I guess that part of my life is over. A sad day. Being an adult sucks.
I haven't taken my "happy pills" in 4 days. I know it isn't good to just stop them cold turkey. I did that back in high school and remember almost blacking out after climbing up to the top floor. So it is a good thing I haven't felt much like exercise. I don't plan on going off of them just yet. I figure I will more than likely need their added support to get me through the transition of going back to work...which is coming up REAL soon. I just figured right now cold medication in the form of cough syrup, NyQuil and sinus medication was much more important to try and get better and fight off the little bastards invading my body than any else....and I didn't need any complications or to be flying high from the reaction of the "happy pills" along side the NyQuil. Although...that would make for one HELL of a party. RAISE THE ROOF! WHAT! WHAT!
No Weight Watchers points posting for you today...since I...er...haven't done it at all this week. Shit. GET OUT OF MY BODY YOU LITTLE BASTARDS, I WAS ON A ROLL!!!!!
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Monday, February 13, 2012
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Dr Seuss Knows Best
Breathe in. Breathe out. Now silently scream inside your head. Scream even though you knew what the out come would be. Scream and criticize yourself because there was probably something else you could have done. Should have done. Lied to yourself about somewhere along the way. Didn't push yourself hard enough. Took the easy way out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now...let. It. Go. Poof.
Negative thoughts. Always negative thoughts first. Today was weigh in day for both Weight Watchers and for the Biggest Loser Challenge. I got to watch my weight rise and feel like a big loser! Wooo! This week I thought I did pretty well. I made some food choices I normally wouldn't make. Tried to think outside the box and make the best of what I had on hand in the house already to make due until grocery day (and payday) Friday. I made sure that every day I had scheduled a little red "R" on my calendar, I got my ass out the door. Sure I had some slip ups along the way, but as far as Weight Watchers was concerned, I wrote down everything I ate. Everything.
So what happened? How did I manage to gain 0.6 pounds this week? I don't know. It is a mystery. “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” - Dr, Seuss. In other words. Shit happens, learn from it and move on. Sure, I"m taking it out of context, but for my purposes, it fits. Maybe it should read more like: "Don't cry, because it is over. Smile because it happened". Yeah, I gained. I was really hoping to do well my first week of this challenge. But to quote another create "creator" "You can't always get what you want"...but I may just get what I need...in this case, the kick in the ass and the extra motivation I need to make me even more determined, more stubborn and more on target than last week. Ha. That is me. Taking a negative and turning it into a positive.
Trina was great though. I think she really knew how hard the gain hit me even though I (think) I maintained a brave exterior and didn't show how badly it effected me. She gave me the pep talk I needed to hear. Sometimes I get caught up trying to be the best I can be and if I don't see the results, I pretty much give up. I am hard on myself. Extremely hard on myself. I hate to fail and I hate not seeing results and giving anything less than my best. Because of which, I think I often underestimate myself. Must stop that. I will do better. I will get through this. And, more importantly I think, once I get there, I WILL be happy with myself and what I have achieved. I will quit trying to reach for perfection, because that is the one sure way to ensure a failure.
However, as much of a perfectionist as I am, I am still looking for that one thing that I can be happy with, be proud of and flaunt. And it ain't NEVER going to be my butt or thighs...sorry Trina!
“Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.”
K
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Life Cereal 3 - can't give up my cereal. Too quick and easy in the morning and I LOVE cereal. Will try to find a better kind of cereal though.
1 large banana(s) 0
Subtotal 3
Midday
1 serving(s) Tim Horton's Chicken Ranch Wrap 5 - it was a whole wheat tortilla. My parents bought it for me and I couldn't say no. They had it ready and waiting for me when I picked up James after bootcamp.
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
4 oz cooked pork loin, lean and fat 7 - will break out the food scale again for exact portion sizes.
1/2 cup(s) instant brown rice 5
1/2 zucchini 0
1 cup(s) spinach 0
1 serving(s) Sub dried tomato dressing 1 - am out of olive oil, could not make my own. Measured out actual serving size as per packaging.
Subtotal 13
Anytime
10 item(s) baby carrots 0
1 large banana(s) 0
Homemade Date Loaf - 3 - I love to bake...and I needed the date loaf to help out until I am able to get to grocery store and purchase chia and flax seeds. Don't ask. ;)
Subtotal 3
Food PointsPlus values total used 24
Food PointsPlus values remaining 6
Exercise
Bootcamp - 4
Activity PointsPlus values earned 4
Negative thoughts. Always negative thoughts first. Today was weigh in day for both Weight Watchers and for the Biggest Loser Challenge. I got to watch my weight rise and feel like a big loser! Wooo! This week I thought I did pretty well. I made some food choices I normally wouldn't make. Tried to think outside the box and make the best of what I had on hand in the house already to make due until grocery day (and payday) Friday. I made sure that every day I had scheduled a little red "R" on my calendar, I got my ass out the door. Sure I had some slip ups along the way, but as far as Weight Watchers was concerned, I wrote down everything I ate. Everything.
So what happened? How did I manage to gain 0.6 pounds this week? I don't know. It is a mystery. “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” - Dr, Seuss. In other words. Shit happens, learn from it and move on. Sure, I"m taking it out of context, but for my purposes, it fits. Maybe it should read more like: "Don't cry, because it is over. Smile because it happened". Yeah, I gained. I was really hoping to do well my first week of this challenge. But to quote another create "creator" "You can't always get what you want"...but I may just get what I need...in this case, the kick in the ass and the extra motivation I need to make me even more determined, more stubborn and more on target than last week. Ha. That is me. Taking a negative and turning it into a positive.
Trina was great though. I think she really knew how hard the gain hit me even though I (think) I maintained a brave exterior and didn't show how badly it effected me. She gave me the pep talk I needed to hear. Sometimes I get caught up trying to be the best I can be and if I don't see the results, I pretty much give up. I am hard on myself. Extremely hard on myself. I hate to fail and I hate not seeing results and giving anything less than my best. Because of which, I think I often underestimate myself. Must stop that. I will do better. I will get through this. And, more importantly I think, once I get there, I WILL be happy with myself and what I have achieved. I will quit trying to reach for perfection, because that is the one sure way to ensure a failure.
However, as much of a perfectionist as I am, I am still looking for that one thing that I can be happy with, be proud of and flaunt. And it ain't NEVER going to be my butt or thighs...sorry Trina!
“Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.”
K
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Life Cereal 3 - can't give up my cereal. Too quick and easy in the morning and I LOVE cereal. Will try to find a better kind of cereal though.
1 large banana(s) 0
Subtotal 3
Midday
1 serving(s) Tim Horton's Chicken Ranch Wrap 5 - it was a whole wheat tortilla. My parents bought it for me and I couldn't say no. They had it ready and waiting for me when I picked up James after bootcamp.
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
4 oz cooked pork loin, lean and fat 7 - will break out the food scale again for exact portion sizes.
1/2 cup(s) instant brown rice 5
1/2 zucchini 0
1 cup(s) spinach 0
1 serving(s) Sub dried tomato dressing 1 - am out of olive oil, could not make my own. Measured out actual serving size as per packaging.
Subtotal 13
Anytime
10 item(s) baby carrots 0
1 large banana(s) 0
Homemade Date Loaf - 3 - I love to bake...and I needed the date loaf to help out until I am able to get to grocery store and purchase chia and flax seeds. Don't ask. ;)
Subtotal 3
Food PointsPlus values total used 24
Food PointsPlus values remaining 6
Exercise
Bootcamp - 4
Activity PointsPlus values earned 4
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