Been a little remiss in blogging these past few weeks. You'll have to forgive me. Germs have once again over-ridden my homestead and waged battle against my own immune system and won. The little bastards (which is what I will refer to the germs as hence forth) have invaded my body and kicked the crap out of my awesome super-hero strength immunities and sent my illness preventing white blood cells packing. Okay, okay, I may be being a little over dramatic, but at this point, the germs of a three year old are kicking my ass.
I haven't been this sick in quite sometime. Before I was overtaken by the little bastards, I was on quite the roll. I managed 5 straight days of exercise, be it my running or boot camp. I could have made it 7 straight, but am taking the advice of all and any website I have read and giving my body some days in between to rest. My points and clean eating were almost perfect to a "T". I lost 1.8 pounds! I was quite proud of myself too. I set my week goal for a pound and a half, and I managed to surpass it by 0.3. I was on fire. I was on a roll. Then as previously mentioned, I got sick.
I haven't been this beaten down by illness in a very long time. I haven't got much energy. I've missed 6 days of scheduled exercise, and will probably end up missing an entire week. Just as I was about to hit the 20 minutes of straight running mark in my training, I came down with chest congestion from hell. I obviously didn't want to attempt running with compromised lung capacity. I missed Wednesdays and Sunday's boot camps and several training runs along the way. I have been taking solace in comfort food in the form of pizza and wings, Big Macs and fries, lattes and dill pickle chips. Even though I had planned on setting another mini goal of another pound a half this week, I fully expect to see a gain at the scale this week.
This has been quite the set back. I am not normally this much of a baby when it comes to catching the little bastards. The kids have both been sick as well. I have found it extremely challenging to take care of two sick little children while feeling like utter shit myself. I've had to push away my own health and taking care of myself in order to make sure they are comfortable and feeling as best as they can given the circumstances. Of course, I realize that is all part of being a Mother and my duty to take care of the needs of them before my own. Fortunately the worst of my cold came when Brad had an entire weekend off and was able to take care of the kids....and me...while being home. I got frustrated though. I would be up at 3:00 am when the NyQuil wore off, hacking up a lung. I'd go downstairs and continue to sleep on the couch so I wouldn't wake up the rest of the household with my coughing. Last night I was up at 4:00 and couldn't get back to sleep until 6:00am. I just wanted someone to take care of me like I'd taken care of the kids. I wanted to be babied, and be told to go back to bed, or go have a bubble bath, or reminded to take some sinus meds. I guess that part of my life is over. A sad day. Being an adult sucks.
I haven't taken my "happy pills" in 4 days. I know it isn't good to just stop them cold turkey. I did that back in high school and remember almost blacking out after climbing up to the top floor. So it is a good thing I haven't felt much like exercise. I don't plan on going off of them just yet. I figure I will more than likely need their added support to get me through the transition of going back to work...which is coming up REAL soon. I just figured right now cold medication in the form of cough syrup, NyQuil and sinus medication was much more important to try and get better and fight off the little bastards invading my body than any else....and I didn't need any complications or to be flying high from the reaction of the "happy pills" along side the NyQuil. Although...that would make for one HELL of a party. RAISE THE ROOF! WHAT! WHAT!
No Weight Watchers points posting for you today...since I...er...haven't done it at all this week. Shit. GET OUT OF MY BODY YOU LITTLE BASTARDS, I WAS ON A ROLL!!!!!
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Monday, February 13, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
The Results Blog and Other Ramblings
Thursday marked the official Weight Watchers weigh in day. I gained 0.2 this week. So this means the two week total, I have lost 0.4. This is where I get so frustrated. The weight doesn't come off as fast as I would like and I feel sorry for myself and I give up and eat bad things and make bad decisions. Obviously this time around I cannot play the games like I did in the past. This time, I cannot allow for liberal points allowances. One little thing does count if it is in my mouth and portion sizes are going to play a huge part in my losses this time.
I am setting a short term goal for myself this week. I'm always too busy trying to see the big picture. Today I am setting a very short term goal for myself. Next week, I want to see a loss of 1.5 or more. Stay tuned to see if I can keep the promise to myself.
This week I haven't had much time to myself. I've been busy doing the "Mommy thing". James started pre-school and Piper has had three teeth break through virtually all on the same day, so needless to say she hasn't exactly been a happy camper. Brad will have worked 7 days straight as of Sunday. Five of those days will have been the day shift, so I haven't seen too much of him this week nor has he been around to help me out with preparing dinners and getting kids ready for their bedtimes. It isn't like I can't do it myself, but after a straight week of it, I'm ready to pull my hair out! Thank god for my parents being around to help. I know I've said this before but I really am grateful for all they do for us. They watched James and Piper on Wednesday for me so I could have an hour to go to my boot camp and again they watched Piper for me on Thursday so I could go to my Weight Watchers meeting. Stupid leader changing the meeting day on me, screwing everything up!!!
James has also been quite the handful as of late. Seems like every time I turn my back he's into something new. One day he had three time outs in the time span of an hour and a half. I think he's just testing me. I know I have to start laying down the law, I just don't know how. Is that odd? I'm horrible at discipline. It isn't that I don't want him to whine and cry, I just don't know where the lines are drawn as far as acceptable behaviour. I know really bad behaviour when I see it...James just really isn't that bad...in my eyes. So what do I let him get away with vs. what I shouldn't? Hmmmmmm....
Piper also has been...a handful this week. She's decided she's mobile! Piper can now get around pretty much on her own. Still not quite crawling yet, but she can move around like a ninja. She'll be in one place one minute, you take your eyes off her for a second and she's in a different place entirely. Last Tuesday I put her down in the middle of her bedroom floor and went into the next room to brush me teeth. She started fussing and crying rather angrily. I went to see what the problem was. She had gotten herself stuck. wedged actually, under her crib. It was a hard decision. Do I help her right away, or, run for the camera? Sadly, my better half got the best of me and I do not have a picture of that to show you.
Today was the first day in a week I was able to make it out for a run. It felt wonderful! I am now up to 18 minutes of running. Today I started with 8 minutes of running, 2 minutes of walking and finishing with 10 minutes of running. Close to the end of the 10 minutes I wanted to stop. I didn't. Apparently Trina joins me on my runs and yells motivation in my ears. I managed it and was so proud of myself! I'm getting there! Never thought I could make it this far. Still sceptical that I will actually be able to run a full 5k at one time. I think I'll throw an accomplishment party for myself when I do.
I've got two new recipes for you today too. Curried Butternut Squash and Apple Soup and a Taco Casserole. DELICIOUSNESS! James loved it until he discovered it had green peppers in it. Whoops.
Curried Butternut Squash and Apple Soup
It is to die for! Only 7 ingredients and 5 easy steps to make!
From The Best of Clean Eating
1 medium butternut squash
1 tbsp olive oil
1 small onion, chopped
2 tsp curry powder
1 tsp ground cinnamon
4 c water
1 apple, peeled, cored and chopped
Preheat oven to 425 F. Line baking sheet with foil
Cut squash in half lengthwise. Scrape seeds and strings out from the centre. Place squash, cut side down on baking sheet. Roast for 35-45 minutes or until the squash is softened. Remove from oven and let cool slightly.
When squash can be handled, scrape flesh into a bowl and discard the peel.
In a stockpot, heat oil over medium heat. Add onions and cook until translucent, about 5 minutes. Stir in curry powder and cinnamon; cook until fragrant. Add water, squash and apple; cook for 10 minutes. Remove from heat and let cool for 10-15 minutes.
Using a blender, puree soup until it's smooth.
2c serving
Calories 116
Total Fat 4g
Sat. Fat 0.3g
Carbs 22g
Fiber 4g
Protein 2g
Sugar 7g
Sodium 6mg
Cholesterol 0 mg
(*in typing out this recipe, I've discovered a serving is 2 cups NOT the one I've been eating...so YAY! The points are even lower than I thought!)
Taco Casserole
1 lb ground skinless chicken breast (I used extra lean ground beef, ground turkey would work too)
1/2 c onions, chopped
1/2 c bell peppers, chopped
1 clove garlic
1 pkg taco seasoning mix
8 ozs taco sauce (I didn't know what this was, so it didn't go into the casserole I made)
1 c fat-free sour cream
1 c fat-free cottage cheese
1 c low-fat tortilla chips, whole or broken up (I used Multigrain Tostidos)
1 c low-fat cheddar cheese, shredded
3/4 c salsa
Directions:
Heat oven to 400. Spray cooking spray on bottom of a 2-quart casserole dish; set aside. In a skillet,
cook chicken, onion, peppers, and garlic clove until tender. Add seasoning mix and taco sauce;
set aside. In a medium bowl, combine sour cream and cottage cheese; set aside. Place half the
broken chips in the bottom of casserole dish. Add meat mixture to cover the chips, then cover the
meat with sour cream mixture. Sprinkle with cheese and remaining crushed chips. Bake,
uncovered, for 30 minutes or until cheese has melted. Top with 3/4 cup salsa if desired.
Makes 8 (1 Cup Servings)
Nutritional Info Per Serving:
287 Calories; 4g Fat; 25g Protein; 34g Carbs; 43mg Cholesterol; 2g Fiber; Points Plus+ 7
I am setting a short term goal for myself this week. I'm always too busy trying to see the big picture. Today I am setting a very short term goal for myself. Next week, I want to see a loss of 1.5 or more. Stay tuned to see if I can keep the promise to myself.
This week I haven't had much time to myself. I've been busy doing the "Mommy thing". James started pre-school and Piper has had three teeth break through virtually all on the same day, so needless to say she hasn't exactly been a happy camper. Brad will have worked 7 days straight as of Sunday. Five of those days will have been the day shift, so I haven't seen too much of him this week nor has he been around to help me out with preparing dinners and getting kids ready for their bedtimes. It isn't like I can't do it myself, but after a straight week of it, I'm ready to pull my hair out! Thank god for my parents being around to help. I know I've said this before but I really am grateful for all they do for us. They watched James and Piper on Wednesday for me so I could have an hour to go to my boot camp and again they watched Piper for me on Thursday so I could go to my Weight Watchers meeting. Stupid leader changing the meeting day on me, screwing everything up!!!
James has also been quite the handful as of late. Seems like every time I turn my back he's into something new. One day he had three time outs in the time span of an hour and a half. I think he's just testing me. I know I have to start laying down the law, I just don't know how. Is that odd? I'm horrible at discipline. It isn't that I don't want him to whine and cry, I just don't know where the lines are drawn as far as acceptable behaviour. I know really bad behaviour when I see it...James just really isn't that bad...in my eyes. So what do I let him get away with vs. what I shouldn't? Hmmmmmm....
Piper also has been...a handful this week. She's decided she's mobile! Piper can now get around pretty much on her own. Still not quite crawling yet, but she can move around like a ninja. She'll be in one place one minute, you take your eyes off her for a second and she's in a different place entirely. Last Tuesday I put her down in the middle of her bedroom floor and went into the next room to brush me teeth. She started fussing and crying rather angrily. I went to see what the problem was. She had gotten herself stuck. wedged actually, under her crib. It was a hard decision. Do I help her right away, or, run for the camera? Sadly, my better half got the best of me and I do not have a picture of that to show you.
Today was the first day in a week I was able to make it out for a run. It felt wonderful! I am now up to 18 minutes of running. Today I started with 8 minutes of running, 2 minutes of walking and finishing with 10 minutes of running. Close to the end of the 10 minutes I wanted to stop. I didn't. Apparently Trina joins me on my runs and yells motivation in my ears. I managed it and was so proud of myself! I'm getting there! Never thought I could make it this far. Still sceptical that I will actually be able to run a full 5k at one time. I think I'll throw an accomplishment party for myself when I do.
I've got two new recipes for you today too. Curried Butternut Squash and Apple Soup and a Taco Casserole. DELICIOUSNESS! James loved it until he discovered it had green peppers in it. Whoops.
Curried Butternut Squash and Apple Soup
It is to die for! Only 7 ingredients and 5 easy steps to make!
From The Best of Clean Eating
1 medium butternut squash
1 tbsp olive oil
1 small onion, chopped
2 tsp curry powder
1 tsp ground cinnamon
4 c water
1 apple, peeled, cored and chopped
Preheat oven to 425 F. Line baking sheet with foil
Cut squash in half lengthwise. Scrape seeds and strings out from the centre. Place squash, cut side down on baking sheet. Roast for 35-45 minutes or until the squash is softened. Remove from oven and let cool slightly.
When squash can be handled, scrape flesh into a bowl and discard the peel.
In a stockpot, heat oil over medium heat. Add onions and cook until translucent, about 5 minutes. Stir in curry powder and cinnamon; cook until fragrant. Add water, squash and apple; cook for 10 minutes. Remove from heat and let cool for 10-15 minutes.
Using a blender, puree soup until it's smooth.
2c serving
Calories 116
Total Fat 4g
Sat. Fat 0.3g
Carbs 22g
Fiber 4g
Protein 2g
Sugar 7g
Sodium 6mg
Cholesterol 0 mg
(*in typing out this recipe, I've discovered a serving is 2 cups NOT the one I've been eating...so YAY! The points are even lower than I thought!)
Taco Casserole
1 lb ground skinless chicken breast (I used extra lean ground beef, ground turkey would work too)
1/2 c onions, chopped
1/2 c bell peppers, chopped
1 clove garlic
1 pkg taco seasoning mix
8 ozs taco sauce (I didn't know what this was, so it didn't go into the casserole I made)
1 c fat-free sour cream
1 c fat-free cottage cheese
1 c low-fat tortilla chips, whole or broken up (I used Multigrain Tostidos)
1 c low-fat cheddar cheese, shredded
3/4 c salsa
Directions:
Heat oven to 400. Spray cooking spray on bottom of a 2-quart casserole dish; set aside. In a skillet,
cook chicken, onion, peppers, and garlic clove until tender. Add seasoning mix and taco sauce;
set aside. In a medium bowl, combine sour cream and cottage cheese; set aside. Place half the
broken chips in the bottom of casserole dish. Add meat mixture to cover the chips, then cover the
meat with sour cream mixture. Sprinkle with cheese and remaining crushed chips. Bake,
uncovered, for 30 minutes or until cheese has melted. Top with 3/4 cup salsa if desired.
Makes 8 (1 Cup Servings)
Nutritional Info Per Serving:
287 Calories; 4g Fat; 25g Protein; 34g Carbs; 43mg Cholesterol; 2g Fiber; Points Plus+ 7
Thursday, January 26, 2012
The Results Blog and Other Ramblings
Let's not beat around the bush. Today was official Weight Watchers weigh in and I lost 0.6 and I hate their scale. It weighs more than the one at home....plus I don't weigh in naked at the meeting...you're welcome for that image. I don't want to tell you my weight. I really don't. I don't want anyone to know. But I'm going to tell you.
*COUGH194.4COUGH*
I know I shouldn't be ashamed or embarrassed by this. It is just a number after all. A number I am not happy with none-the-less. I grew up as the chunky, unpopular, ugly red-headed kid with the 'fro, lost the weight, was happy with the way I looked, even if I didn't want to admit it. Now, I feel like I've come back full circle to that fat lonely kid again.
0.6 for first "official" Weight Watchers weigh in or not, I'm happy I rejoined. Going to the meetings help to give that added sense of accountability...and someone to help share my successes and failures with. I have always done better going to meetings than going it alone on line. I think for the next 20 weeks I will finally break over my weight slump and finally have the losses I was hoping for and expecting all along. I have an excellent handle on the program and have been getting in as much activity as I can, and am trying to find ways to include even more in my daily routines. It is hard when Brad is working shifts and taking care of the kids by myself but if this is something I want bad enough, I will find a way.
Today I feel ... yucky ...for lack of a better descriptor. I am feeling bloated and thought I had gone drastically over my points both yesterday and today so wasn't going to bother doing them, then realized those are exactly the behaviours that set me up for failure, so I went back and recorded it all. And you know what? Wasn't at all bad. In fact, with my earned activity points from my high intensity boot camp yesterday, I still come out ahead. I even still have one point leftover today. Looking at my food journal today, I didn't do so well getting in any vegetables or fruits and had a lot of carbs, which would probably account for why I am feeling so bloated. I also didn't drink enough water today. Only one crappy bottle of Dasani with lunch. I have a problem getting started drinking water. If I go for a run, I will drink it for the rest of the day. When I don't, it is hard to get that first bottle down. Without that first bottle I just can't be bothered. Will have a better plan for tomorrow.
At the meeting today I saw someone from my past. A past I had all but forgotten about, but played a major role in leading me to my current path in life, finding myself and beginning my Weight Watchers journey. I graduated college for something entirely different than what I am doing in my current career. In fact, I don't think what I graduated from could be further from my current job...other than they both deal with the handling and spending of money I never actually see. After graduation I got a job in my "chosen profession" and moved away from home at 23 to be closer to the city where the jobs where. Though I moved in with my, then, boyfriend and another male room-mate and had a dream job, I was so desperately unhappy. I didn't want to be so far away from my family and friends, I lost all three of my living grandmothers, and my dream job was a dream, just not my dream. I was so unhappy that thought I couldn't change my career or the path my life was taking so instead, I sought out to change who I was. My weight, at that time, had reached its all time high and when I joined Weight Watchers the first time, I was 182.2. The weight was slow to come off back then too, but at that time I knew I could do it and had to do it for my own peace of mind and happiness.
Turns out losing the weight (40.2 of it to be exact!) did more for me than just made me look at feel better about myself. It helped me to become more confident in who I was and in my decisions. I made up my mind to go back to school, move back to Hamilton, and do what I wanted to do with my life. Turns out, the contacts I made at the college I attended were solid and I made quite the impression on those I worked with. I was only in my new program for 8 weeks. I didn't even make it to mid-terms, before I found a "temporary" part-time job at the college. I haven't looked back since and the rest...as they say...is history.
So maybe, just maybe, this is why I am struggling so hard to lose the remaining 44 pounds this time around. This is the third time I've joined the program and have had a significant amount of weight to lose. This time around I am happy. All my complaining and bitching aside, I am happy. I have a loving husband, who I love (most of the time....give or take a few douchey moments of his), two beautiful children who I adore, a job I love (well...we'll see if that changes when I go back), a home that is our own and I get to make the decisions as to when I rip up a floor or two. I'm running and attending the most incredible exercise class. I have loving, concerned and supporting parents. I am living the life. Maybe my therapist was right. Maybe I'm okay just the way I am.....
.........though I could always be better.
Sweet dreams.
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Thursday, January 26, 2012
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
*COUGH194.4COUGH*
I know I shouldn't be ashamed or embarrassed by this. It is just a number after all. A number I am not happy with none-the-less. I grew up as the chunky, unpopular, ugly red-headed kid with the 'fro, lost the weight, was happy with the way I looked, even if I didn't want to admit it. Now, I feel like I've come back full circle to that fat lonely kid again.
0.6 for first "official" Weight Watchers weigh in or not, I'm happy I rejoined. Going to the meetings help to give that added sense of accountability...and someone to help share my successes and failures with. I have always done better going to meetings than going it alone on line. I think for the next 20 weeks I will finally break over my weight slump and finally have the losses I was hoping for and expecting all along. I have an excellent handle on the program and have been getting in as much activity as I can, and am trying to find ways to include even more in my daily routines. It is hard when Brad is working shifts and taking care of the kids by myself but if this is something I want bad enough, I will find a way.
Today I feel ... yucky ...for lack of a better descriptor. I am feeling bloated and thought I had gone drastically over my points both yesterday and today so wasn't going to bother doing them, then realized those are exactly the behaviours that set me up for failure, so I went back and recorded it all. And you know what? Wasn't at all bad. In fact, with my earned activity points from my high intensity boot camp yesterday, I still come out ahead. I even still have one point leftover today. Looking at my food journal today, I didn't do so well getting in any vegetables or fruits and had a lot of carbs, which would probably account for why I am feeling so bloated. I also didn't drink enough water today. Only one crappy bottle of Dasani with lunch. I have a problem getting started drinking water. If I go for a run, I will drink it for the rest of the day. When I don't, it is hard to get that first bottle down. Without that first bottle I just can't be bothered. Will have a better plan for tomorrow.
At the meeting today I saw someone from my past. A past I had all but forgotten about, but played a major role in leading me to my current path in life, finding myself and beginning my Weight Watchers journey. I graduated college for something entirely different than what I am doing in my current career. In fact, I don't think what I graduated from could be further from my current job...other than they both deal with the handling and spending of money I never actually see. After graduation I got a job in my "chosen profession" and moved away from home at 23 to be closer to the city where the jobs where. Though I moved in with my, then, boyfriend and another male room-mate and had a dream job, I was so desperately unhappy. I didn't want to be so far away from my family and friends, I lost all three of my living grandmothers, and my dream job was a dream, just not my dream. I was so unhappy that thought I couldn't change my career or the path my life was taking so instead, I sought out to change who I was. My weight, at that time, had reached its all time high and when I joined Weight Watchers the first time, I was 182.2. The weight was slow to come off back then too, but at that time I knew I could do it and had to do it for my own peace of mind and happiness.
Turns out losing the weight (40.2 of it to be exact!) did more for me than just made me look at feel better about myself. It helped me to become more confident in who I was and in my decisions. I made up my mind to go back to school, move back to Hamilton, and do what I wanted to do with my life. Turns out, the contacts I made at the college I attended were solid and I made quite the impression on those I worked with. I was only in my new program for 8 weeks. I didn't even make it to mid-terms, before I found a "temporary" part-time job at the college. I haven't looked back since and the rest...as they say...is history.
So maybe, just maybe, this is why I am struggling so hard to lose the remaining 44 pounds this time around. This is the third time I've joined the program and have had a significant amount of weight to lose. This time around I am happy. All my complaining and bitching aside, I am happy. I have a loving husband, who I love (most of the time....give or take a few douchey moments of his), two beautiful children who I adore, a job I love (well...we'll see if that changes when I go back), a home that is our own and I get to make the decisions as to when I rip up a floor or two. I'm running and attending the most incredible exercise class. I have loving, concerned and supporting parents. I am living the life. Maybe my therapist was right. Maybe I'm okay just the way I am.....
.........though I could always be better.
Sweet dreams.
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Thursday, January 26, 2012
| Morning | |
| 1 large banana(s) |
0
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| 1 serving(s) Kelloggs Special K |
2
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| 2 cup(s) black coffee |
0
|
| Subtotal | 2 |
| Midday | |
| Weight Watchers Toasted Coconut Bar - Quick-added food |
2
|
| 1 serving(s) 6" Turkey Sub Subway |
7
|
| Subtotal | 9 |
| Evening | |
| 1 cup(s) cooked quinoa |
5
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| 2/3 package(s) Instant, Mix-Ins Chocolate fudge instant pudding |
2
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| 1 serving(s) Mealtyme White Bread |
4
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| 3 Tbsp 95% fat free whipped topping |
1
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| 1 Kim's Homemade Chili |
5
|
| Subtotal | 17 |
| Anytime | |
| 7 nut(s) almonds |
1
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| Subtotal | 1 |
| Food PointsPlus values total used | 29 |
| Food PointsPlus values remaining | 1 |
| Exercise | |
| No entries for exercise. | |
| Activity PointsPlus values earned | 0 |
| Check off these important items daily: | |
And yesterday
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
| Morning | ||||||
| 1 serving(s) Multigrain Cheerios |
3
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| 1 large banana(s) |
0
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| Subtotal | 3 | |||||
| Midday | ||||||
| 1 serving(s) Quaker Maple instant Oatmeal |
4
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| Hazelnut Flavour Shot Tim Hortons - Quick-added food |
0
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| 1 cup(s) black coffee |
0
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| 1 large fresh apple(s) |
0
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| 1 Kim's Homemade Chili |
5
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| Subtotal | 9 | |||||
| Evening | ||||||
| 1/3 package(s) Instant, Mix-Ins Chocolate fudge instant pudding |
1
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| 4 slice(s) mixed-grain bread |
7
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| 1 cup(s) low-fat milk |
3
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| 2 Kim's Homemade Chili |
9
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| Subtotal | 20 | |||||
| Anytime | ||||||
| No entries for this meal time. | ||||||
| Subtotal | 0 | |||||
| Food PointsPlus values total used | 32 | |||||
| Food PointsPlus values remaining | 0 | |||||
| Exercise | ||||||
| Bootcamp - Activity I created |
6
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| Activity PointsPlus values earned | 6 | |||||
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Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Dr Seuss Knows Best
Breathe in. Breathe out. Now silently scream inside your head. Scream even though you knew what the out come would be. Scream and criticize yourself because there was probably something else you could have done. Should have done. Lied to yourself about somewhere along the way. Didn't push yourself hard enough. Took the easy way out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now...let. It. Go. Poof.
Negative thoughts. Always negative thoughts first. Today was weigh in day for both Weight Watchers and for the Biggest Loser Challenge. I got to watch my weight rise and feel like a big loser! Wooo! This week I thought I did pretty well. I made some food choices I normally wouldn't make. Tried to think outside the box and make the best of what I had on hand in the house already to make due until grocery day (and payday) Friday. I made sure that every day I had scheduled a little red "R" on my calendar, I got my ass out the door. Sure I had some slip ups along the way, but as far as Weight Watchers was concerned, I wrote down everything I ate. Everything.
So what happened? How did I manage to gain 0.6 pounds this week? I don't know. It is a mystery. “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” - Dr, Seuss. In other words. Shit happens, learn from it and move on. Sure, I"m taking it out of context, but for my purposes, it fits. Maybe it should read more like: "Don't cry, because it is over. Smile because it happened". Yeah, I gained. I was really hoping to do well my first week of this challenge. But to quote another create "creator" "You can't always get what you want"...but I may just get what I need...in this case, the kick in the ass and the extra motivation I need to make me even more determined, more stubborn and more on target than last week. Ha. That is me. Taking a negative and turning it into a positive.
Trina was great though. I think she really knew how hard the gain hit me even though I (think) I maintained a brave exterior and didn't show how badly it effected me. She gave me the pep talk I needed to hear. Sometimes I get caught up trying to be the best I can be and if I don't see the results, I pretty much give up. I am hard on myself. Extremely hard on myself. I hate to fail and I hate not seeing results and giving anything less than my best. Because of which, I think I often underestimate myself. Must stop that. I will do better. I will get through this. And, more importantly I think, once I get there, I WILL be happy with myself and what I have achieved. I will quit trying to reach for perfection, because that is the one sure way to ensure a failure.
However, as much of a perfectionist as I am, I am still looking for that one thing that I can be happy with, be proud of and flaunt. And it ain't NEVER going to be my butt or thighs...sorry Trina!
“Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.”
K
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Life Cereal 3 - can't give up my cereal. Too quick and easy in the morning and I LOVE cereal. Will try to find a better kind of cereal though.
1 large banana(s) 0
Subtotal 3
Midday
1 serving(s) Tim Horton's Chicken Ranch Wrap 5 - it was a whole wheat tortilla. My parents bought it for me and I couldn't say no. They had it ready and waiting for me when I picked up James after bootcamp.
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
4 oz cooked pork loin, lean and fat 7 - will break out the food scale again for exact portion sizes.
1/2 cup(s) instant brown rice 5
1/2 zucchini 0
1 cup(s) spinach 0
1 serving(s) Sub dried tomato dressing 1 - am out of olive oil, could not make my own. Measured out actual serving size as per packaging.
Subtotal 13
Anytime
10 item(s) baby carrots 0
1 large banana(s) 0
Homemade Date Loaf - 3 - I love to bake...and I needed the date loaf to help out until I am able to get to grocery store and purchase chia and flax seeds. Don't ask. ;)
Subtotal 3
Food PointsPlus values total used 24
Food PointsPlus values remaining 6
Exercise
Bootcamp - 4
Activity PointsPlus values earned 4
Negative thoughts. Always negative thoughts first. Today was weigh in day for both Weight Watchers and for the Biggest Loser Challenge. I got to watch my weight rise and feel like a big loser! Wooo! This week I thought I did pretty well. I made some food choices I normally wouldn't make. Tried to think outside the box and make the best of what I had on hand in the house already to make due until grocery day (and payday) Friday. I made sure that every day I had scheduled a little red "R" on my calendar, I got my ass out the door. Sure I had some slip ups along the way, but as far as Weight Watchers was concerned, I wrote down everything I ate. Everything.
So what happened? How did I manage to gain 0.6 pounds this week? I don't know. It is a mystery. “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” - Dr, Seuss. In other words. Shit happens, learn from it and move on. Sure, I"m taking it out of context, but for my purposes, it fits. Maybe it should read more like: "Don't cry, because it is over. Smile because it happened". Yeah, I gained. I was really hoping to do well my first week of this challenge. But to quote another create "creator" "You can't always get what you want"...but I may just get what I need...in this case, the kick in the ass and the extra motivation I need to make me even more determined, more stubborn and more on target than last week. Ha. That is me. Taking a negative and turning it into a positive.
Trina was great though. I think she really knew how hard the gain hit me even though I (think) I maintained a brave exterior and didn't show how badly it effected me. She gave me the pep talk I needed to hear. Sometimes I get caught up trying to be the best I can be and if I don't see the results, I pretty much give up. I am hard on myself. Extremely hard on myself. I hate to fail and I hate not seeing results and giving anything less than my best. Because of which, I think I often underestimate myself. Must stop that. I will do better. I will get through this. And, more importantly I think, once I get there, I WILL be happy with myself and what I have achieved. I will quit trying to reach for perfection, because that is the one sure way to ensure a failure.
However, as much of a perfectionist as I am, I am still looking for that one thing that I can be happy with, be proud of and flaunt. And it ain't NEVER going to be my butt or thighs...sorry Trina!
“Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.”
K
PointsPlus™ Tracker entries
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Morning
1 serving(s) Life Cereal 3 - can't give up my cereal. Too quick and easy in the morning and I LOVE cereal. Will try to find a better kind of cereal though.
1 large banana(s) 0
Subtotal 3
Midday
1 serving(s) Tim Horton's Chicken Ranch Wrap 5 - it was a whole wheat tortilla. My parents bought it for me and I couldn't say no. They had it ready and waiting for me when I picked up James after bootcamp.
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
4 oz cooked pork loin, lean and fat 7 - will break out the food scale again for exact portion sizes.
1/2 cup(s) instant brown rice 5
1/2 zucchini 0
1 cup(s) spinach 0
1 serving(s) Sub dried tomato dressing 1 - am out of olive oil, could not make my own. Measured out actual serving size as per packaging.
Subtotal 13
Anytime
10 item(s) baby carrots 0
1 large banana(s) 0
Homemade Date Loaf - 3 - I love to bake...and I needed the date loaf to help out until I am able to get to grocery store and purchase chia and flax seeds. Don't ask. ;)
Subtotal 3
Food PointsPlus values total used 24
Food PointsPlus values remaining 6
Exercise
Bootcamp - 4
Activity PointsPlus values earned 4
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