Amazball

Today was a day at rest.  Not from doing things around the house, just from actual activity.  Did not get out for my run.  The days I do not get out I feel like no matter what I eat, I won't lose weight and it is a day beyond redemption.  I know that isn't the case.  I write every little thing down that I eat, and now drink.  Looking at my points today I went over only by 1...and since I have both banked activity points AND my weekly allotted points remaining I know that, realistically, it is okay to be over by one.  So then why do I feel like I failed today?

I am a little bloated feeling.  I could probably attribute this to having a diet pepsi today.  It had been a while and it was delightful.  Not a habit I want to get back into though.

Lunch was amazballs.  I made chocolate banana whole wheat pancakes topped with apple slices.  To die for.  I usually don't like pancakes, but these were pretty damn good if I do say so myself!  Dinner was Turkey Chilli. I even managed to get James to eat half of his...including the zuchinni.  I make a mean chilli.

I've been enjoying trying new recipes each day.  Nice breaking out of the rut of the same old things that I know how to make.  I've never really been a very good cook.  I tend to prefer baking.  I like to know exactly what to do with meat and what to make along with it.  Since most of the things we've been trying have been turning out, my confidence in the kitchen is getting a little better to the point where I'm creating my own dishes.  The thought of returning to work with Brad working shifts has been terrifying me.  Some days I will have to hand the kids all by myself, from dropping them off at my parents (or school eeek!) in the morning then picking them up at night, getting home and making dinner.  It has been very reassuring knowing that some of the new things I've found in the Best of Clean Eating cook book have been easy to make with things that I have on hand and have taken a fairly short amount of both prep and cooking time.  Maybe I can do this after all.  See?  There it is.  I have to stop telling myself now that I can't do it and I won't be able to do it and that it will be hell on earth.  It will be doable.  Many women do it every day.  Many of them single moms who have to do it all day, every day.  Because of this, I am eternally grateful I have a husband who is willing to help out when needed and to have my parents who would do anything for me and the kids.  Honestly, without my parents, the first three months of Piper's life...I don't think I would have made it through without them.

Tomorrow morning is boot camp and unofficial weigh in at home for my on line weight watchers and the bet I have going with Brad.  Wish me luck!




PointsPlus™ Tracker entries

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Morning
1  serving(s) Multigrain Cheerios	3
1  large banana(s)	0
3  cup(s) black coffee	0
Subtotal	3
Midday
Banana Chocolate Chip Whole Wheat pancakes - Quick-added food	7
1/2 large fresh apple(s)	0
1  cup(s) low-fat milk	3
Subtotal	10
Evening
1  cup(s) low-fat milk	3
5  slice(s) mixed-grain bread	8
1  Kim's Homemade Chili	5
Subtotal	16
Anytime
1  serving(s) 7 Saltines Salted	2
Subtotal	2
Food PointsPlus values total used	31
Food PointsPlus values remaining	0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Activity PointsPlus values earned	0
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