Stupid rain didn't let up and the game was cancelled last night. Stupid rain. Now it is supposed to rain Saturday. Good thing I like playing in mud puddles. Hmmm...better bring extra shoes. Don't want to get my cleats all muddy.
On the baby front I won't be sitting down to play with James anymore. He has figured out walking. Not on his own yet. At only 7 1/2 months he is running around the main floor of the house! Time to baby proof, get things out of his reach and install baby gates. We spent all day yesterday exploring and examining things he'd previously only was able to see from a distance. The poor cats. They weren't too sure of him when he was just sitting there reaching for him. Now that he is practically mobile and is able to chase them...as we spend the better half of yesterday doing...they are terrified of them. Norris is getting his fair share of attention and likes being chased. Coffee...not so much. My lower back is a little sore from hunching over. My hamstrings and inner thighs however are getting the workout of their lives. Lunges all day. Woo-hoo. My little boy is growing up...and fast. I think he forgot all about crawling!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 6
Midday
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
Lean Cuisine Orange Chicken - Quick-added food 4
Diet Ginger Ale - Quick-added food 0
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 item(s) Sour Cream And Chives Potato 7
1/2 large serving(s) Chili 3
Bucket o'Diet Coke - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 10
Anytime
5 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 3.5
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 27
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Week 18 - Rain rain, go AWAY!
Stupid rain. Stupid fog. I had made a promise to myself I'd get out walking at least three days this week. I know I won't melt in the rain. I know that James has a weather guard. I just plan don't like getting wet. Have enough hair issues as it is with out the added moisture. See...I have excuses for EVERYTHING ;)
Plus it is the weekend of baseball. Starting (hopefully) with tonight. Double header tonight, a game tomorrow. Four games Saturday. Life is good. Supposed to rain for tonight and tomorrow. Stupid rain. I WANT TO PLAY DARNNIT! After a season of sitting out I'm ready to go! I'm a little disappointed my parents won't be able to come to the games. Which means James won't see Mommy and Daddy playing. Just as well. The bench gets a little rowdy and the girls dirty. No one needs to hear that. I'm so excited for the tournament otherwise. Just what the doctor ordered! Too bad none of the parks we play at have playground equipment.
Yesterday was filled with processed food unfortunately. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine. Low in points but high in sodium. Dinner I did the best I could with what we had. Didn't want to cop out and make the frozen pizza. I can really only afford to eat two slices which isn't really filling. I really must pick up fresh ingredients and make my own dough in the bread maker. Starting grocery list now as I type. So I made chicken fingers (not the low fat kind...why do we buy these things?) and periogies. Not too bad if you stick to serving sizes. Wasn't hungry after and didn't snack at night so I must be doing something right.
Tonight is an early game and I hate having a full stomach while playing. So it is Tuna sandwiches and boiled eggs for dinner...mmmmm...protien...plus I enjoy making Brad (our first baseman) stinky smelly with the farts...poor opposing bat catcher...sorry! My bad...is that underhanded of me? ;)
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
1 serving(s) Lean Cuisine Italian Cheese Ravioli 5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Subtotal 7
Evening
3 No Name Chicken Fingers - Quick-added food 6
8 No Name Potato and Cheddar Perogies - Quick-added food 9
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 15
Anytime
1 large banana(s) 2
1 slices pineapple 0.5
Subtotal 2.5
Food POINTS values total used 28
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Plus it is the weekend of baseball. Starting (hopefully) with tonight. Double header tonight, a game tomorrow. Four games Saturday. Life is good. Supposed to rain for tonight and tomorrow. Stupid rain. I WANT TO PLAY DARNNIT! After a season of sitting out I'm ready to go! I'm a little disappointed my parents won't be able to come to the games. Which means James won't see Mommy and Daddy playing. Just as well. The bench gets a little rowdy and the girls dirty. No one needs to hear that. I'm so excited for the tournament otherwise. Just what the doctor ordered! Too bad none of the parks we play at have playground equipment.
Yesterday was filled with processed food unfortunately. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine. Low in points but high in sodium. Dinner I did the best I could with what we had. Didn't want to cop out and make the frozen pizza. I can really only afford to eat two slices which isn't really filling. I really must pick up fresh ingredients and make my own dough in the bread maker. Starting grocery list now as I type. So I made chicken fingers (not the low fat kind...why do we buy these things?) and periogies. Not too bad if you stick to serving sizes. Wasn't hungry after and didn't snack at night so I must be doing something right.
Tonight is an early game and I hate having a full stomach while playing. So it is Tuna sandwiches and boiled eggs for dinner...mmmmm...protien...plus I enjoy making Brad (our first baseman) stinky smelly with the farts...poor opposing bat catcher...sorry! My bad...is that underhanded of me? ;)
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
1 serving(s) Lean Cuisine Italian Cheese Ravioli 5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Subtotal 7
Evening
3 No Name Chicken Fingers - Quick-added food 6
8 No Name Potato and Cheddar Perogies - Quick-added food 9
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 15
Anytime
1 large banana(s) 2
1 slices pineapple 0.5
Subtotal 2.5
Food POINTS values total used 28
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Week 18 - Feel Good about Yourself
I'm still amazed at what small changes will do to make yourself feel better...about everything. There is a saying at the end of my Weight Watchers meeting "Nothing tastes as good as being in control feels". This week I am learning it is the truth. After James was asleep last night I was offered a fudgecicle. I was already one point over for the day and a fudgecicle is only two points. What's being only 3 points over when I've got flex points left right? I said no and it felt really good. Being only 3 points over leads to being 10 points over very very quickly and when you're only 3 points over each and every day, it adds up. So I said no and I felt good about it.
Along with my new clothes I bought new headbands for my hair. Now that I am done with losing my hair after having James, hair is growing back. The new growth is of course around my face. Since I have curly hair, these fine hairs just don't look good. So with the help of a head band I'm hiding them and once again, feeling better about myself in the process.
Feeling good about myself lead me to taking initative with the house. I cleaned the bathroom last night. I will admit I'm a little obsessive about my bathroom. It takes me an hour to clean a 10 x 8 room. I take a sponge soaked in Pine sol to the toilet. Let it sit then rinse it off. Last night I was in such a groove and the OCD set in and found myself steam cleaning my floor grout. It is a small thing. No one but me notices if my floor grout is white or not but it is important to me. So now it is done. James had a bath and I even managed to stay up until 11:00pm! See...feeling better about yourself is important. It leads to a better mood and a better life.
I'm slowly learning to do things for myself and change my way of thinking. I can't keep mourning the loss of my old life. It really wasn't all that exciting anyway. I can't keep telling myself I miss certain things. I have to refocus my thinking and focus on all the new things I have now that I didn't have before. I've said it many times before. I don't know what I did before in the morning. There is no feeling in this world than going into your baby's room in the morning to have them smile up at you. At that moment in time you are the only person in their world and their eyes are filled with such a pure love that you've never seen before. And that my friends is the BEST part of parenthood.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slices Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
1 slice(s) Singles American pasteurized prepared cheese 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
1 slices pineapple 0.5
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 cup(s) cooked brown rice 4
1/2 cup(s) Peas And Carrots 1
5 oz cooked lean boneless pork chop 5.5
3 tsp canola oil 3.5
Subtotal 14
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Along with my new clothes I bought new headbands for my hair. Now that I am done with losing my hair after having James, hair is growing back. The new growth is of course around my face. Since I have curly hair, these fine hairs just don't look good. So with the help of a head band I'm hiding them and once again, feeling better about myself in the process.
Feeling good about myself lead me to taking initative with the house. I cleaned the bathroom last night. I will admit I'm a little obsessive about my bathroom. It takes me an hour to clean a 10 x 8 room. I take a sponge soaked in Pine sol to the toilet. Let it sit then rinse it off. Last night I was in such a groove and the OCD set in and found myself steam cleaning my floor grout. It is a small thing. No one but me notices if my floor grout is white or not but it is important to me. So now it is done. James had a bath and I even managed to stay up until 11:00pm! See...feeling better about yourself is important. It leads to a better mood and a better life.
I'm slowly learning to do things for myself and change my way of thinking. I can't keep mourning the loss of my old life. It really wasn't all that exciting anyway. I can't keep telling myself I miss certain things. I have to refocus my thinking and focus on all the new things I have now that I didn't have before. I've said it many times before. I don't know what I did before in the morning. There is no feeling in this world than going into your baby's room in the morning to have them smile up at you. At that moment in time you are the only person in their world and their eyes are filled with such a pure love that you've never seen before. And that my friends is the BEST part of parenthood.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slices Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
1 slice(s) Singles American pasteurized prepared cheese 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
1 slices pineapple 0.5
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 cup(s) cooked brown rice 4
1/2 cup(s) Peas And Carrots 1
5 oz cooked lean boneless pork chop 5.5
3 tsp canola oil 3.5
Subtotal 14
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Week 18 - Overwhelmed by Support
I had a good day after all yesterday. I had a lot to get off my chest blogging helped a lot. Friends can't know what is going on in your head unless you tell them and they may begin to think they've done something wrong. It isn't the case at all. I just need some time alone to find myself and my way again. The e-mails and facebook postings on my wall with suggestions from friends make me realize I'm not alone in this even though at times I couldn't feel more alone in the world.
Yesterday ended up shopping and buying some new clothes. Today I'm sitting here in a size 11 jean capris (yay Reitman's with a wide variety of sizes!). Sure it gives me a little bit of a muffin top in my belly area but I suppose in time that will be taken care of. Nothing a nice new longer tee shirt can't cover up! So I got 4 new summer shirts...the tank tops of summers past will be demoted to sleeping in until I can get back to work and weight training...besides my new post-pregnant skin is burning like a SOB in the sun. Not that I was a tanned goddess before. Previously I came in to shades, Caseper and Extra Cripsy. Now the theme of the summer looks like either freckled or Extra extra crispy. Nice. I HATE SUNSCREEN! So sticky and smelly. But...I digress. Also bought three new pairs of pants. Two capris and one pair of shorts. Got to be prepared for all eventualities. Couldn't find any yoga pants for baseball. The search for that continues. Maybe WalMart or Zellers will be more helpful.
Food wise I like to think I did okay. I ended up at my parents so when shopping my Mom could watch James while I tried on clothes. Dad ended up offering to watch James while we went out. We waited until after noon so I could feed the monkey and we left. Mom hadn't had lunch yet (neither had I for that matter) so she suggested McDonald's in Walmart. Moment of panic. McDonald's in Walmarts SUCK. They don't offer a full menu. No salads. I couldn't find the menu for happy meals. So I think I did the best I could. I had two Fajitas and a diet Coke. Passed on the fries. 8 points for lunch. Not too bad considering normally I'd just have a combo and say fuck the day. Minor slip up with an Iced Coffee from Tim Horton's (4 points with cream). Note to self. Next time ask for it with Milk instead. For a medium it reduces the point value to 2.
Hopefully I can keep this up all week. Monkey is awake...
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, May 25, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 CHicken Fajitas McDonald's - Quick-added food 8
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Med. Tim Horton's Iced Coffee (w/cream) - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 13
Evening
1/2 chicken - Quick-added food 3
White Flour Tortilla - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 7
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Yesterday ended up shopping and buying some new clothes. Today I'm sitting here in a size 11 jean capris (yay Reitman's with a wide variety of sizes!). Sure it gives me a little bit of a muffin top in my belly area but I suppose in time that will be taken care of. Nothing a nice new longer tee shirt can't cover up! So I got 4 new summer shirts...the tank tops of summers past will be demoted to sleeping in until I can get back to work and weight training...besides my new post-pregnant skin is burning like a SOB in the sun. Not that I was a tanned goddess before. Previously I came in to shades, Caseper and Extra Cripsy. Now the theme of the summer looks like either freckled or Extra extra crispy. Nice. I HATE SUNSCREEN! So sticky and smelly. But...I digress. Also bought three new pairs of pants. Two capris and one pair of shorts. Got to be prepared for all eventualities. Couldn't find any yoga pants for baseball. The search for that continues. Maybe WalMart or Zellers will be more helpful.
Food wise I like to think I did okay. I ended up at my parents so when shopping my Mom could watch James while I tried on clothes. Dad ended up offering to watch James while we went out. We waited until after noon so I could feed the monkey and we left. Mom hadn't had lunch yet (neither had I for that matter) so she suggested McDonald's in Walmart. Moment of panic. McDonald's in Walmarts SUCK. They don't offer a full menu. No salads. I couldn't find the menu for happy meals. So I think I did the best I could. I had two Fajitas and a diet Coke. Passed on the fries. 8 points for lunch. Not too bad considering normally I'd just have a combo and say fuck the day. Minor slip up with an Iced Coffee from Tim Horton's (4 points with cream). Note to self. Next time ask for it with Milk instead. For a medium it reduces the point value to 2.
Hopefully I can keep this up all week. Monkey is awake...
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, May 25, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 CHicken Fajitas McDonald's - Quick-added food 8
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Med. Tim Horton's Iced Coffee (w/cream) - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 13
Evening
1/2 chicken - Quick-added food 3
White Flour Tortilla - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 7
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Week 18 (?) - More Soul Searching
Being trying desperately to get my head and heart back into this. This time around I just can't get motivated (if that goddamn motorcycle just woke up James people will DIE!).
I'm finding it hard to sit down and do the computer thing. It wastes a lot of time and now that it is nice out while James is napping I'd much rather be outside weeding the garden, watering my plants, reading the newspaper on the patio...living life ya know. However it seems without e-mailing my friends my journal, updating my online Weight Watchers journal and writing my blog, I lose the little drive and motivation I do have. So I'm going to try and give it another go.
I've been trying to look inwards again to find out what is different and why I'm feeling the way I have been lately. I've slipped into an utter depression to the point where family members visited the house yesterday and I'm ashamed to say I hid upstairs in my room crying. They probably think I'm the rudest person in the entire world, but I just couldn't bring myself to go down the stairs. The laundry baskets were downstairs and the clothes that fit me were in them. I tried to get dressed but couldn't find a goddamn thing I felt comfortable enough to be seen in by someone other than Brad or my parents.
And there it is. Right there. This time I don't feel just fat. I feel so utterly unattractive and ugly. Since giving birth my previously unruly but manageable with a lot of product and work hair has taken on its own life. So in my brilliantness I thought maybe a change of colour would help. I get bored of my hair and dye it maybe once a year. I last dyed it just before I found out I was pregnant and hated the colour I used then...picked up the same colour again forgetting it was what I used the last time. So now I have a hair "style" (for lack of a better word) I hate and a colour that is so the other side of natural looking it is a good thing I love hats.
In my previous life in the summer time I like wearing tight clothes. I liked to tell myself not tight in a way that people grimaced but tight in a way to show off the figure. Now they are tight in a "WHOA she should not be wearing that" sort of way. I have no clue how to dress this new me. Usually I'm pretty confident in my personal life now I'm hiding in a house while it is beautiful outside. I just want to hide from the entire world but the world keeps finding me.
On the good side, the baseball season has started again and it is EXACTLY what I need right now in my life. Not for the socialization. Actually I stayed away from most of my friends at the last game...trying to get my head in it. I felt the most like me at that first game than I had since February 2008. Sure I can't wear my cute little short jean shorts to play anymore (no one needs to see that) sure I tried to kill the ball and didn't have a good two games at bat but I was ME. For two hours I wasn't a Mommy (um guilty feelings much?) I wasn't on maternity leave no one was judging me on my parenting skills. I was just a pitcher for the Angry Scotsmen. I was having fun. I'm so excited for this week. It is going to be extremely busy but we've got games three days in a row! A regular season game on Thursday and a tournament Friday, Saturday and possibly Sunday. I hope my parents will be able to come and watch was play. They'll be watch James and I'd like him to see Mommy and Daddy playing. But Dad isn't well. And the park we play at isn't really ideal for his illness. I think that is weighing heavily in the back of my mind too...hoping Dad will get better so that he can enjoy doing things with his grandson. I had a close relationship with my Grandma and a baby needs that in their lives.
Anyway...I'm tearing up so time to sign off. I'm heading to the mall to give in and buy some summer clothes...I have to start feeling attractive or nothing will get better.
Here are my journals for the weekend. I'm trying. I'm trying hard this week.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slices Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
4 slice(s) tomato(es) 0
1 tsp margarine 1
1 cup(s) cucumber(s) 0
1 small apple(s) 1
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
2 cup(s) potato gnocchi 8.5
1 serving(s) Healthy Choice Sauce - Chunky Lovers 1
Homemade Herb Bread - Quick-added food 4
Cheese - Quick-added food 4
1 tsp margarine 1
2 cup(s) low-fat milk 4.5
Subtotal 23
Anytime
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Subtotal 1
Food POINTS values total used 32.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise 60 min walking, leisure 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
1 item(s) cooked chicken drumstick with skin and bone 2
1 item(s) cooked chicken thigh with skin and bone 4
1 oz cooked chicken fillet 1
2 serving(s) Straight Cut French Fried Potatoes 5
Subtotal 12
Anytime
2 slices pineapple 1
1 large banana(s) 2
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Fudgecicle - Quick-added food 2
100 cal Icecream Cup - Quick-added food 2
Subtotal 7
Food POINTS values total used 27.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Activity POINTS values earned 0
I'm finding it hard to sit down and do the computer thing. It wastes a lot of time and now that it is nice out while James is napping I'd much rather be outside weeding the garden, watering my plants, reading the newspaper on the patio...living life ya know. However it seems without e-mailing my friends my journal, updating my online Weight Watchers journal and writing my blog, I lose the little drive and motivation I do have. So I'm going to try and give it another go.
I've been trying to look inwards again to find out what is different and why I'm feeling the way I have been lately. I've slipped into an utter depression to the point where family members visited the house yesterday and I'm ashamed to say I hid upstairs in my room crying. They probably think I'm the rudest person in the entire world, but I just couldn't bring myself to go down the stairs. The laundry baskets were downstairs and the clothes that fit me were in them. I tried to get dressed but couldn't find a goddamn thing I felt comfortable enough to be seen in by someone other than Brad or my parents.
And there it is. Right there. This time I don't feel just fat. I feel so utterly unattractive and ugly. Since giving birth my previously unruly but manageable with a lot of product and work hair has taken on its own life. So in my brilliantness I thought maybe a change of colour would help. I get bored of my hair and dye it maybe once a year. I last dyed it just before I found out I was pregnant and hated the colour I used then...picked up the same colour again forgetting it was what I used the last time. So now I have a hair "style" (for lack of a better word) I hate and a colour that is so the other side of natural looking it is a good thing I love hats.
In my previous life in the summer time I like wearing tight clothes. I liked to tell myself not tight in a way that people grimaced but tight in a way to show off the figure. Now they are tight in a "WHOA she should not be wearing that" sort of way. I have no clue how to dress this new me. Usually I'm pretty confident in my personal life now I'm hiding in a house while it is beautiful outside. I just want to hide from the entire world but the world keeps finding me.
On the good side, the baseball season has started again and it is EXACTLY what I need right now in my life. Not for the socialization. Actually I stayed away from most of my friends at the last game...trying to get my head in it. I felt the most like me at that first game than I had since February 2008. Sure I can't wear my cute little short jean shorts to play anymore (no one needs to see that) sure I tried to kill the ball and didn't have a good two games at bat but I was ME. For two hours I wasn't a Mommy (um guilty feelings much?) I wasn't on maternity leave no one was judging me on my parenting skills. I was just a pitcher for the Angry Scotsmen. I was having fun. I'm so excited for this week. It is going to be extremely busy but we've got games three days in a row! A regular season game on Thursday and a tournament Friday, Saturday and possibly Sunday. I hope my parents will be able to come and watch was play. They'll be watch James and I'd like him to see Mommy and Daddy playing. But Dad isn't well. And the park we play at isn't really ideal for his illness. I think that is weighing heavily in the back of my mind too...hoping Dad will get better so that he can enjoy doing things with his grandson. I had a close relationship with my Grandma and a baby needs that in their lives.
Anyway...I'm tearing up so time to sign off. I'm heading to the mall to give in and buy some summer clothes...I have to start feeling attractive or nothing will get better.
Here are my journals for the weekend. I'm trying. I'm trying hard this week.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slices Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
4 slice(s) tomato(es) 0
1 tsp margarine 1
1 cup(s) cucumber(s) 0
1 small apple(s) 1
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
2 cup(s) potato gnocchi 8.5
1 serving(s) Healthy Choice Sauce - Chunky Lovers 1
Homemade Herb Bread - Quick-added food 4
Cheese - Quick-added food 4
1 tsp margarine 1
2 cup(s) low-fat milk 4.5
Subtotal 23
Anytime
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Subtotal 1
Food POINTS values total used 32.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise 60 min walking, leisure 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
1 item(s) cooked chicken drumstick with skin and bone 2
1 item(s) cooked chicken thigh with skin and bone 4
1 oz cooked chicken fillet 1
2 serving(s) Straight Cut French Fried Potatoes 5
Subtotal 12
Anytime
2 slices pineapple 1
1 large banana(s) 2
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Fudgecicle - Quick-added food 2
100 cal Icecream Cup - Quick-added food 2
Subtotal 7
Food POINTS values total used 27.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Activity POINTS values earned 0
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Week 16 - Updates
Where to begin?
I had the best weigh in this Weight Watchers go-a-round on May 9th. I lost 3.4 pounds quite unexpectedly. FINALLY made it to my first mini-goal of being the weight I was the first time I joined Weight Watchers. This time being 182 the struggle to make it back to 150 seems a lot less daunting and intimidating. Why I wonder? I've been giving that a lot of thought. I've already lost this EXACT weight before. I've already had to go through seeing the scale slip down into the 170's, 160's and finally the 150's. I know I can do this part of it. The first 50 seemed damn near impossible. This I've done before and can and will do it again. So then why is it so frigging challenging for me to stay on freaking program?
Is it that I'm on maternity leave and have a tendency to get the boredom hungries. I've been restless and bored as of late. There is so much I could be doing and want to do, but obviously with a baby I can't just spend 8 hours working on a project as I did just two years ago. I'm the kind of person who likes to sit and do something start to finish. There is no leaving something for tomorrow. I like to know that once I start something I'll finish it and be able to move on tomorrow. I've got all these plans in my head like painting the hall, giving my kitchen a face lift...oh the plans I have. I'd rather do it all myself rather then spend lots and lots of money to have someone else do it for me.
I guess that is why I've been so restless as of late. I see the finish line. When we moved into our house we took a lot of "temporary measures" fully expecting to update things within the first five years. We bought this house five years ago this month and I moved in five years ago as of September 25th. I'm done with temporary. I'm ready to work. I say I can see the finish line because our mortgage is up for renewal and with the rates as low as they currently are we are planning on re-financing and will end up paying only $6 more than what we do now. Pretty sweet huh?
My first week without a computer was stellar. My second week (and so far this week) not so much. Again, I'm an emotional eater. I had a less than memorable Mother's Day. You want the first one to be special right? Let's just say I've been trying to forgive and forget.
Back on track today. I'm not going to let a long weekend and dumb food choices ruin my entire week. I can stop the damage here and now. I may not be able to reverse the damage I've already done at least I can't make it worse.
Will post today's food journal tomorrow. I've got a busy week a head of me. Mother Goose with James tomorrow. Thursday involves driving Dad to a Dr. appointment then our first ball game at night. Friday...open right now.
Good night and have a pleasant tomorrow!
I had the best weigh in this Weight Watchers go-a-round on May 9th. I lost 3.4 pounds quite unexpectedly. FINALLY made it to my first mini-goal of being the weight I was the first time I joined Weight Watchers. This time being 182 the struggle to make it back to 150 seems a lot less daunting and intimidating. Why I wonder? I've been giving that a lot of thought. I've already lost this EXACT weight before. I've already had to go through seeing the scale slip down into the 170's, 160's and finally the 150's. I know I can do this part of it. The first 50 seemed damn near impossible. This I've done before and can and will do it again. So then why is it so frigging challenging for me to stay on freaking program?
Is it that I'm on maternity leave and have a tendency to get the boredom hungries. I've been restless and bored as of late. There is so much I could be doing and want to do, but obviously with a baby I can't just spend 8 hours working on a project as I did just two years ago. I'm the kind of person who likes to sit and do something start to finish. There is no leaving something for tomorrow. I like to know that once I start something I'll finish it and be able to move on tomorrow. I've got all these plans in my head like painting the hall, giving my kitchen a face lift...oh the plans I have. I'd rather do it all myself rather then spend lots and lots of money to have someone else do it for me.
I guess that is why I've been so restless as of late. I see the finish line. When we moved into our house we took a lot of "temporary measures" fully expecting to update things within the first five years. We bought this house five years ago this month and I moved in five years ago as of September 25th. I'm done with temporary. I'm ready to work. I say I can see the finish line because our mortgage is up for renewal and with the rates as low as they currently are we are planning on re-financing and will end up paying only $6 more than what we do now. Pretty sweet huh?
My first week without a computer was stellar. My second week (and so far this week) not so much. Again, I'm an emotional eater. I had a less than memorable Mother's Day. You want the first one to be special right? Let's just say I've been trying to forgive and forget.
Back on track today. I'm not going to let a long weekend and dumb food choices ruin my entire week. I can stop the damage here and now. I may not be able to reverse the damage I've already done at least I can't make it worse.
Will post today's food journal tomorrow. I've got a busy week a head of me. Mother Goose with James tomorrow. Thursday involves driving Dad to a Dr. appointment then our first ball game at night. Friday...open right now.
Good night and have a pleasant tomorrow!
Friday, May 8, 2009
Week 15 - Taking Time Off
No, not from Weight Watchers. Things are going so good right now in that regard. I'm taking time away from the computer for a couple of weeks. Now that it is beautiful outside I want to spend more time gardening and playing with James in the backyard. The computer, while served its purpose for me in the first 6 months of his life keeping me sane, is now more of a time hindrance.
I love writing my blog. It keeps me honest and is a place for me to vent my frustrations and record my successes and failures, challenges and rewards. I will miss it. But much like my coffee addiction I'm cutting it out cold turkey...okay I caved with the coffee. I had a cup on Sunday and a cup this morning. The Tassimo is great for that. Will only make a cup at a time. Perfect little pick me up this morning. That way I won't drink enough to get the greasy icky sweats. Bluch. I digress...where was I? Oh yes. Blogging. My computer is acting all funky. I like to think I'm okay around computers but in trying to make more room for my music and picture files, I've inadvertently screwed a few things up...deleted some virus software that old chestnut. Computer is old as it is and slow so it is getting the Daddy Overhaul. Going to the parental unit's place to live for a few weeks to come back all clean, shiny and new.
Hopefully when I am able to blog again I'll be able to share some good news. I'm hoping to make it out of the 180's within the next two weeks. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Wish me luck! I can do this in time...how soon will depend on me. Only you can make the change if you want it bad enough.
Cheerio! Kim
I love writing my blog. It keeps me honest and is a place for me to vent my frustrations and record my successes and failures, challenges and rewards. I will miss it. But much like my coffee addiction I'm cutting it out cold turkey...okay I caved with the coffee. I had a cup on Sunday and a cup this morning. The Tassimo is great for that. Will only make a cup at a time. Perfect little pick me up this morning. That way I won't drink enough to get the greasy icky sweats. Bluch. I digress...where was I? Oh yes. Blogging. My computer is acting all funky. I like to think I'm okay around computers but in trying to make more room for my music and picture files, I've inadvertently screwed a few things up...deleted some virus software that old chestnut. Computer is old as it is and slow so it is getting the Daddy Overhaul. Going to the parental unit's place to live for a few weeks to come back all clean, shiny and new.
Hopefully when I am able to blog again I'll be able to share some good news. I'm hoping to make it out of the 180's within the next two weeks. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Wish me luck! I can do this in time...how soon will depend on me. Only you can make the change if you want it bad enough.
Cheerio! Kim
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Week 15 - Focusing on Other things
I've been trying to step away from the computer this week. Sure it is my only link currently to the outside world and how I stay in touch with friends but I am slowly coming to the realization that I am not SuperMom and I can't do it all.
Monday was a good day. Didn't do the dvd thing. I did the cleaning thing. Monday's are perfect for that. Get as much done between naps. Don't need to exercise because it is aerobics night.
I inadvertently had an hour nap in the morning on Tuesday. I put James down, went to make our bed and laid down in it thinking I'd just get up when his fishy aquarium stopped. Ummm....there is a reason those things are made to put baby to sleep. I woke up an hour later when James did. Tee hee! That's okay. We made up for it though. After lunch James and I went for a 3.27mile long walk. Gained three activity points for our efforts. Ran into an old teacher from high school. Music teacher. Great guy. But what a talker ;) our usual hour and half long walk ended up being three hours. Of course James and I did stop off at the drugstore and the bank. It is called git r' done! (ugh) Dinner was homemade enchiladas. Mmmm....a Weight Watchers recipe that is quite good. Had two and was more than enough for me.
Today did the dvd thing. Eating is going well. I've figured out how to allot my points better for each meal. 6 for breakfast. 6 for lunch. Leaving 12 for dinner. This way I can get in a fruit/vegetable and a milk in lunch and breakfast, leaving dinner easy enough to plan for knowing exactly how many points I need to use. Makes planning for the day easy. Great...what am I going to do when I break out of the 180's and lose another point?! Of course, at this rate, I won't have to worry about that for another three months. Grrrrr....
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat 'n Bran, spoon-size 1.5
1 1/2 large banana(s) 3
Subtotal 4.5
Midday
1 cup(s) spinach 0
1/2 oz havarti cheese 1.5
Knorr Broccoli Soup - Quick-added food 3
2 tbsp Italian Salad Dressing 0
2 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1.5
Subtotal 6
Evening
2 Weight Watchers Enchiladas - Quick-added food 14
Subtotal 14
Anytime
1 serving(s) Silhouette 0+_Yogurt 1
Subtotal 1
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
45 min walking, brisk 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
Monday was a good day. Didn't do the dvd thing. I did the cleaning thing. Monday's are perfect for that. Get as much done between naps. Don't need to exercise because it is aerobics night.
I inadvertently had an hour nap in the morning on Tuesday. I put James down, went to make our bed and laid down in it thinking I'd just get up when his fishy aquarium stopped. Ummm....there is a reason those things are made to put baby to sleep. I woke up an hour later when James did. Tee hee! That's okay. We made up for it though. After lunch James and I went for a 3.27mile long walk. Gained three activity points for our efforts. Ran into an old teacher from high school. Music teacher. Great guy. But what a talker ;) our usual hour and half long walk ended up being three hours. Of course James and I did stop off at the drugstore and the bank. It is called git r' done! (ugh) Dinner was homemade enchiladas. Mmmm....a Weight Watchers recipe that is quite good. Had two and was more than enough for me.
Today did the dvd thing. Eating is going well. I've figured out how to allot my points better for each meal. 6 for breakfast. 6 for lunch. Leaving 12 for dinner. This way I can get in a fruit/vegetable and a milk in lunch and breakfast, leaving dinner easy enough to plan for knowing exactly how many points I need to use. Makes planning for the day easy. Great...what am I going to do when I break out of the 180's and lose another point?! Of course, at this rate, I won't have to worry about that for another three months. Grrrrr....
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat 'n Bran, spoon-size 1.5
1 1/2 large banana(s) 3
Subtotal 4.5
Midday
1 cup(s) spinach 0
1/2 oz havarti cheese 1.5
Knorr Broccoli Soup - Quick-added food 3
2 tbsp Italian Salad Dressing 0
2 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1.5
Subtotal 6
Evening
2 Weight Watchers Enchiladas - Quick-added food 14
Subtotal 14
Anytime
1 serving(s) Silhouette 0+_Yogurt 1
Subtotal 1
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
45 min walking, brisk 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
Monday, May 4, 2009
Week 14 - The Results Blog
When is a loss not really a loss? When you don't lose all that you gained the week before. Arugh! This week I lost 0.8.
I know I shouldn't obsess so much about my time frame for losing weight. I just really want this done and over with. I'm not helping matters much. I need a weekend home with not eating out or having a busy day to just sit and relax and not use all my flex points in the first two days.
True confessions of a drama queen? Saturday evening the family went to a friends house for a early "summer" bbq. I made a lite macaroni salad and there was chicken and pork chops and a veggie platter. Easy enough to stay with in points right? Not when you have two chicken quarters AND a pork chop. Hey, at least I had to say no to dessert....ice cream and pop have a bad reaction in my tummy. Or no. Wait, I had three mini tarts. Whoopsie!
Sunday wasn't bad at the on-set. Got some yard work done...mowed the lawn, dug a new garden...that kind of stuff. Even had a baseball practice (YAY Softball season! After having to sit last year out I'm really looking forward to this!). I was terrified to play again mainly because of my wrist. Once I got started though turned out okay IMHO. I'm afraid to throw harder though too much force will jam it again...and as a pitcher...it'll keep my wrist straight trying not to tweak it so my pitching will be straighter (I HOPE!).
So the practice wasn't the problem. The Taco Bell *I* suggested we have for dinner after the practice was. So once again I'm in the situation where it is only Monday...5 days away from weigh in and I'm already out of flex points. Why do I knowingly keep doing this to myself? Swear I'm in the habit of self sabotage. Why? Am I that afraid of failing at this that I'm willing to screw myself over? Do I not what it bad enough? Why am I doing this week after week? That is why I need a weekend to myself to sit back, cook a real meal and stay within points all day, everyday for one whole week. At least I am journaling again.
Tonight off to aerobics. Cleaned during James' morning nap no dvd...figured tonight's 8 activity points would be more than enough.
Little man is moving...good day all!
I know I shouldn't obsess so much about my time frame for losing weight. I just really want this done and over with. I'm not helping matters much. I need a weekend home with not eating out or having a busy day to just sit and relax and not use all my flex points in the first two days.
True confessions of a drama queen? Saturday evening the family went to a friends house for a early "summer" bbq. I made a lite macaroni salad and there was chicken and pork chops and a veggie platter. Easy enough to stay with in points right? Not when you have two chicken quarters AND a pork chop. Hey, at least I had to say no to dessert....ice cream and pop have a bad reaction in my tummy. Or no. Wait, I had three mini tarts. Whoopsie!
Sunday wasn't bad at the on-set. Got some yard work done...mowed the lawn, dug a new garden...that kind of stuff. Even had a baseball practice (YAY Softball season! After having to sit last year out I'm really looking forward to this!). I was terrified to play again mainly because of my wrist. Once I got started though turned out okay IMHO. I'm afraid to throw harder though too much force will jam it again...and as a pitcher...it'll keep my wrist straight trying not to tweak it so my pitching will be straighter (I HOPE!).
So the practice wasn't the problem. The Taco Bell *I* suggested we have for dinner after the practice was. So once again I'm in the situation where it is only Monday...5 days away from weigh in and I'm already out of flex points. Why do I knowingly keep doing this to myself? Swear I'm in the habit of self sabotage. Why? Am I that afraid of failing at this that I'm willing to screw myself over? Do I not what it bad enough? Why am I doing this week after week? That is why I need a weekend to myself to sit back, cook a real meal and stay within points all day, everyday for one whole week. At least I am journaling again.
Tonight off to aerobics. Cleaned during James' morning nap no dvd...figured tonight's 8 activity points would be more than enough.
Little man is moving...good day all!
Friday, May 1, 2009
Week ;14 - Whoops. Crap.
And just like that I am right back where I was. Back at the correct attitude today. I've got no excuses. Had a busy day out and didn't choice the best choice for dinner. Darn those tasty smelling chickens and meal combos at the grocery stores. But when it is 7:00 at night and you still have to cook dinner what else is there to do?
Brought lunch to my parent's house. I didn't have fries or a burger at Wendy's. Had the SMALL chili and sour cream baked potato. Was happy with my lunch. Didn't have any cookies at my parent's. Didn't even look to see if they had any. Came home and had to pick Brad up from the car dealership...long story short he's getting a new tire replaced. Went for groceries from there and was lured in by the deli section. MMmmm roasted chicken. Okay...so I didn't need to eat as many fries as I did. Heck, I didn't need to eat the fries at all...or the potato salad but I did and I can only blame myself. We'll see how weigh in goes tomorrow won't we. Time to seriously get back on track.
No exercise dvd today. No excuse for that either. I'm tired and sore still a little sick. We'll get right back at 'er on Monday. Sunday is the first softball practice of the season. That's exciting. I'm a little nervous for my wrist with the tendinitis since if I move it the wrong way it'll aggravate it all over again...yeah, aggravate it like throwing a ball!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Morning
2 packet(s) uncooked instant oatmeal with cinnamon and spices 6.5
1 Mint Chocolate Mini Bar - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 7.5
Midday
1 small serving(s) Chili 4
1 item(s) Sour Cream And Chives Potato 7
Diet Dr. Pepper - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 11
Evening
1 leg(s) roasted skinless, boneless chicken leg 4
1 cup(s) roasted skinless chicken, chopped or diced 6
1 regular serving(s) Spicy Fries 13
1/2 cup(s) store-bought potato salad 4
Subtotal 27
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 45.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Brought lunch to my parent's house. I didn't have fries or a burger at Wendy's. Had the SMALL chili and sour cream baked potato. Was happy with my lunch. Didn't have any cookies at my parent's. Didn't even look to see if they had any. Came home and had to pick Brad up from the car dealership...long story short he's getting a new tire replaced. Went for groceries from there and was lured in by the deli section. MMmmm roasted chicken. Okay...so I didn't need to eat as many fries as I did. Heck, I didn't need to eat the fries at all...or the potato salad but I did and I can only blame myself. We'll see how weigh in goes tomorrow won't we. Time to seriously get back on track.
No exercise dvd today. No excuse for that either. I'm tired and sore still a little sick. We'll get right back at 'er on Monday. Sunday is the first softball practice of the season. That's exciting. I'm a little nervous for my wrist with the tendinitis since if I move it the wrong way it'll aggravate it all over again...yeah, aggravate it like throwing a ball!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Morning
2 packet(s) uncooked instant oatmeal with cinnamon and spices 6.5
1 Mint Chocolate Mini Bar - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 7.5
Midday
1 small serving(s) Chili 4
1 item(s) Sour Cream And Chives Potato 7
Diet Dr. Pepper - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 11
Evening
1 leg(s) roasted skinless, boneless chicken leg 4
1 cup(s) roasted skinless chicken, chopped or diced 6
1 regular serving(s) Spicy Fries 13
1/2 cup(s) store-bought potato salad 4
Subtotal 27
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 45.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
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