Week 11?? Why am I not back in my old pants? Or at the very least my sweaters? Obviously my original goal of losing 50 pounds by May was unrealistic. Some people can do it. I guess I'm not one of them. I DO NOT want to take 2 years to lose it like the first time but it seems like I'm headed that way. Which is totally going to suck because by then I may want another baby.
The thought absolutely horrifies me. Why am I losing this weight just to possibly regain it again and go through this depression and self loathing and hard work just to get pregnant and gain all over again? Second time will be different. The first thing I'm going to ask the doctor is to send me to a nutrionialist (um...can't spell this one and spell checker doesn't recognize it...guess I'm not even close ;) ). The second thing would be continue to go to the gym on my lunch hours (like I planned this time and couldn't). I will not get lazy. I'll will tell you one thing for sure. It isn't going to happen unless I get back down to my pre-pregnancy weight that's for DAMN sure.
Yesterday was good. I have to be a super saint this week to ensure I don't gain due to my wondrous weekend of pizza, wings and garlic bread (my typical weekend fare before getting pregnant and it didn't bother me at the time...gee was it because I'd work my ass off at the gym?!!). I'm committed to it. Brad knows the situation and is on board, helping me out the best he can which is going to be a huge asset to me. If I can get him helping me, I'll be all the more successful. That includes not suggesting things he'll know I'll say yes to and sending me out of the kitchen when I wander in there to forge like a forest animal.
Let's see yesterday I did 15 minutes of the Jillian Michael's Wii 2009 Fitness Ultimatum game. Don't know how good of an "exercise" routine it is but at least I wasn't just sitting doing nothing for 15 minutes and the jogging in place is actually really really hard. During James' afternoon nap did 45 minutes of yoga and of course 45 minutes of high impact aerobics last night (and 15 minutes of low impact). Total of 7 activity points. Plan on going for a walk this afternoon.
Food wise, still a lot of processed food and not enough "natural" food. Still need more vegetables and less snacking. Monday's are difficult though. I'm now finding a peanut butter sandwich before aerobics gives me enough energy to keep up but not enough to sustain me for the rest of the night. Need to find something to eat after the class that is light. Last night it was a hot dog.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, March 30, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 1
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
250ml Campbell's Minestrone Soup 2
32 oz water 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
1 tbsp peanut butter 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 1
Subtotal 5
Anytime
1 item(s) regular hot dog, beef or pork 5
1/2 cup(s) canned pineapple, packed in juice 1.5
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
1 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 1
Subtotal 9.5
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
45 min aerobics, high-intensity 7
Activity POINTS values earned 7
Wow. 9.5 points for "anytime" food? Not good. Though it does include my pre-workout meal.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Week 11 - Confession is Good for the Soul
This is going to hurt. But I'm gonna do it. I'm going to be accountable for what I did this weekend. This way if I have a very small loss or a large gain next Saturday I'll know exactly why.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
16 oz water 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) Italian wedding 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1/4 cup(s) water-packed tuna fish, drained 1.5
Subtotal 5.5
Evening
1/2c LOAF Garlic Bread w/CHEESE 12
8 item(s) Honey Garlic Chicken Wings 9.5
4 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
Subtotal 33.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
Subtotal 5
Food POINTS values total used 48
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
60 min walking, leisure 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 Slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 6
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
1/2 medium cooked sweet potato 1
1 item(s) cooked chicken fillet 3
1/2 cup(s) Kraft Dinner 3.5
Subtotal 7.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
2 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
2 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 2.5
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 19.5
Food POINTS values total used 37
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Going over my food intake and my points for the weekend actually helped me. Huh. It has made me realize that maybe this week will be salvageable so long as I get my activity points in for the week. Wow. That has actually motivated me to get out and move. Unfortunately the weather forecast for the week is wet wet wet with the exception of Thursday (for now). Aerobics restarts tonight and not a week too late. That'll earn me 7 points tonight a good starting point. I promise myself to do yoga today during James's afternoon nap and my Biggest Loser dvd the rest of the week. Out for a walk Thursday (whatdoyousay buddy, I'll e-mail you!). Oh and drink the equivalent of Lake Erie in water.
I will not let one bad weekend discourage me. See? This is why I'm keeping a blog. It is really really helping me. Normally I wouldn't have bothered with figuring out my points and would just assume the week was lost and make matters worse than I thought. Maybe that is the meaning of being accountable. I will turn this around. Wish me good luck...I'm going to need it.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
16 oz water 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) Italian wedding 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1/4 cup(s) water-packed tuna fish, drained 1.5
Subtotal 5.5
Evening
1/2c LOAF Garlic Bread w/CHEESE 12
8 item(s) Honey Garlic Chicken Wings 9.5
4 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
Subtotal 33.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 pouch(es) Sourdough pretzel thins 2
Subtotal 5
Food POINTS values total used 48
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
60 min walking, leisure 3
Activity POINTS values earned 3
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 Slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 6
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
1/2 medium cooked sweet potato 1
1 item(s) cooked chicken fillet 3
1/2 cup(s) Kraft Dinner 3.5
Subtotal 7.5
Anytime
2 bar(s) Chocolate caramel 3
2 slices Thin Crust Veggie Pizza 12
2 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 2.5
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 19.5
Food POINTS values total used 37
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Going over my food intake and my points for the weekend actually helped me. Huh. It has made me realize that maybe this week will be salvageable so long as I get my activity points in for the week. Wow. That has actually motivated me to get out and move. Unfortunately the weather forecast for the week is wet wet wet with the exception of Thursday (for now). Aerobics restarts tonight and not a week too late. That'll earn me 7 points tonight a good starting point. I promise myself to do yoga today during James's afternoon nap and my Biggest Loser dvd the rest of the week. Out for a walk Thursday (whatdoyousay buddy, I'll e-mail you!). Oh and drink the equivalent of Lake Erie in water.
I will not let one bad weekend discourage me. See? This is why I'm keeping a blog. It is really really helping me. Normally I wouldn't have bothered with figuring out my points and would just assume the week was lost and make matters worse than I thought. Maybe that is the meaning of being accountable. I will turn this around. Wish me good luck...I'm going to need it.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Week 10 - The Results Blog
Another successful weigh in! This week I managed to lose 1.2 pounds this week. That means I've now lost a total of 6 pounds since rejoining Weight Watchers 5 weeks ago. Still having mixed emotions about it. I'm happy to obviously be losing. I've lost consistantly for five weeks in a row. Unfortuately with the exception of the first week's disappointing loss of 0.6 my progess is slowing down. However, I still am impatient and was expecting the weight loss to go much quicker than it is.
Okay. Big picture. Since having the baby I've lost a total of 49.8 pounds with only 38.2 ;eft to go. I'm more than half way there. And I've lost that 49.8 pounds in just under 6 months. That has got to be something to be proud of right? I've got the determination to do it. I've got the fight to do it. I just don't have the patience to do it.
This week has been a bad one. I counted all the points I used yesterday. I was good in that we went for a family walk on a Saturday and I earned 3 activity points. Then we had pizza, wings and garlic bread (with cheese!) and I ate like I used to (and used to be able to when I was going to the gym five days a week). I had all but 8 Flex points left (out of 35). No problem. I kept track. I was still looking good. Today I'm tired and getting a cold I do believe. I'm exhausted, sore throat and headachey. Started eating about 2 in the afternoon and I stopped at 6. I'm going to write it all down but doubt I'm going to bother to count the points I just used up. Positive side? Aerobics starts again tomorrow so I'll get out of the house and do some sort of exercise. Bad side? Probably see a gain next Saturday which'll frusturate me all to hell.
I'm just tired. Tired of the colder weather. Tired of my living room. Tired of spending all day cleaning only to have it end up in more of a mess in less than two hours. Tired of the mess in my basement which has now seeped into the one spot I tried to keep clear down there for my laundry. Tired of the mess in the garage. Tired of things falling apart in the house. Tired of having to be the nag. Tired tired tired. One day. Just one day of sleeping in until noon and not feeling guilty about leaving the husband to look after the baby. One day away from the baby and my responsibilities. Tired of being responsible. Somehow managed to forget to pay the gas bill last month. Whoops. Tired of being the one who has to take the initative to figure out our budget and make sure things are paid and one time. TIRED TIRED TIRED.
Huh. Maybe that's why I took a mini break from counting points these past two days. I have too much else to worry about in my head. Did I mention that we're also having to get a new roof? I'm the one putting out the call for quotes? But...I'm no dummy. I made 'em call his cell phone. Ha! Passed of that one!
Anyone got a bag of Dill Pickle Chips? Anyone? Anyone?
Okay. Big picture. Since having the baby I've lost a total of 49.8 pounds with only 38.2 ;eft to go. I'm more than half way there. And I've lost that 49.8 pounds in just under 6 months. That has got to be something to be proud of right? I've got the determination to do it. I've got the fight to do it. I just don't have the patience to do it.
This week has been a bad one. I counted all the points I used yesterday. I was good in that we went for a family walk on a Saturday and I earned 3 activity points. Then we had pizza, wings and garlic bread (with cheese!) and I ate like I used to (and used to be able to when I was going to the gym five days a week). I had all but 8 Flex points left (out of 35). No problem. I kept track. I was still looking good. Today I'm tired and getting a cold I do believe. I'm exhausted, sore throat and headachey. Started eating about 2 in the afternoon and I stopped at 6. I'm going to write it all down but doubt I'm going to bother to count the points I just used up. Positive side? Aerobics starts again tomorrow so I'll get out of the house and do some sort of exercise. Bad side? Probably see a gain next Saturday which'll frusturate me all to hell.
I'm just tired. Tired of the colder weather. Tired of my living room. Tired of spending all day cleaning only to have it end up in more of a mess in less than two hours. Tired of the mess in my basement which has now seeped into the one spot I tried to keep clear down there for my laundry. Tired of the mess in the garage. Tired of things falling apart in the house. Tired of having to be the nag. Tired tired tired. One day. Just one day of sleeping in until noon and not feeling guilty about leaving the husband to look after the baby. One day away from the baby and my responsibilities. Tired of being responsible. Somehow managed to forget to pay the gas bill last month. Whoops. Tired of being the one who has to take the initative to figure out our budget and make sure things are paid and one time. TIRED TIRED TIRED.
Huh. Maybe that's why I took a mini break from counting points these past two days. I have too much else to worry about in my head. Did I mention that we're also having to get a new roof? I'm the one putting out the call for quotes? But...I'm no dummy. I made 'em call his cell phone. Ha! Passed of that one!
Anyone got a bag of Dill Pickle Chips? Anyone? Anyone?
Friday, March 27, 2009
Week 10 - Small Victory
Yesterday James and I headed to my parents house and I managed to not go way off program at lunch. I was offered either a grilled cheese sandwich (eech!) or a fried egg sandwich. I instead had Tomato soup. I felt bad for asking for something different but I have decided I can't let anything divert me from what I want the most. Mom gave me the entire can of soup to eat and I only ate 1/2 of it.
James is awake already. Must go.
POINTS® Tracker entries
James is awake already. Must go.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 4
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) 25% less sodium tomato soup 3
1 serving(s) Crackers 2
8 fl oz Tangerine Strawberry, Prepared 0
Subtotal 5
1 cup(s) 25% less sodium tomato soup 3
1 serving(s) Crackers 2
8 fl oz Tangerine Strawberry, Prepared 0
Subtotal 5
Evening
4 serving(s) Low Fat Premium Superfries 8
3 Chicken Strips 6
Subtotal 14
4 serving(s) Low Fat Premium Superfries 8
3 Chicken Strips 6
Subtotal 14
Anytime
1 Dad's Oatmeal Cookie 1.5
1 Fiber One Bar 2
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 26.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Activity POINTS values earned
0
Check off these important items daily:
Water
Milk & Milk Products
Fruit & Vegetables
Multivitamin
Healthy Oils
1 Dad's Oatmeal Cookie 1.5
1 Fiber One Bar 2
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 26.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Activity POINTS values earned
0
Check off these important items daily:
Water
Milk & Milk Products
Fruit & Vegetables
Multivitamin
Healthy Oils
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Week 10 - Blah Blah Blah and the Such
The good news? No Zombie dreams last night. The bad news? I dreamt I was back in high school, with an old friend from elementary school (and part of high school) that I chose not to associate with . And I was TRYING to switch my schedule for a gym class. WTF is THAT about. Bah.
Taking peaks at my weight and my measurements. I've asked Brad to hide the scale on me because hiding it myself is really rather ineffective. I'm pleased with the progress on my waist considering I haven't done much in the way of exercising as of late. I seem more motivated to move when the sun is out. Then again, aren't we all? Oh and how do I say this? My back fat is going away!!! That was the breaking point for me when I was pregnant. Back fat. Ugly, ugly back fat. The kind that your bra cuts into and creates lovely rolls up and down your torso taking away the nice sleek appearance you've worked five long years at to achieve. Yep. 5 years of going to the gym faithfully on my lunch hours and 9 short months to take it away. Why oh why do I have to gain everything in my hips, butt and thighs? Why oh why do you hate me Fat Gods? Oh right. I am woman. Hear me whine.
I think James and I are both bored to tears with sitting in the living room all day. Today we venture out of the house to my parents. I'd love to go for a walk but not sure when it'll actually rain. Tomorrow is supposed to be a better day, warm with no rain. Keeping my fingers crossed. I'm dying to get down to the waterfront to walk. The fact that there is a Timothy's Coffee Pub down there is entirely coincidental!
Yesterday I again kicked butt with staying on program. Once again, only two servings of vegetables but got in two servings of milk. Give and take. Plus as an added bonus, I stayed away from the processed foods. That's what kills you in the end you know. I can eat more for less points when I put in the effort and actually make a meat, vegetable and potato than when I throw chicken strips or a frozen pizza in the oven. One is quick and easy but leaves you hungry. One is made with love!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 small banana(s) 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
100 ml Yoptimal Raspberry Cranberry Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
2c Cavatappi with Cauliflower Sauce 7
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 9
Anytime
1 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 1
1 item(s) Vanilla 1
32 oz water 0
Subtotal 2
Food POINTS values total used 22.5
Food POINTS values remaining 1.5
Taking peaks at my weight and my measurements. I've asked Brad to hide the scale on me because hiding it myself is really rather ineffective. I'm pleased with the progress on my waist considering I haven't done much in the way of exercising as of late. I seem more motivated to move when the sun is out. Then again, aren't we all? Oh and how do I say this? My back fat is going away!!! That was the breaking point for me when I was pregnant. Back fat. Ugly, ugly back fat. The kind that your bra cuts into and creates lovely rolls up and down your torso taking away the nice sleek appearance you've worked five long years at to achieve. Yep. 5 years of going to the gym faithfully on my lunch hours and 9 short months to take it away. Why oh why do I have to gain everything in my hips, butt and thighs? Why oh why do you hate me Fat Gods? Oh right. I am woman. Hear me whine.
I think James and I are both bored to tears with sitting in the living room all day. Today we venture out of the house to my parents. I'd love to go for a walk but not sure when it'll actually rain. Tomorrow is supposed to be a better day, warm with no rain. Keeping my fingers crossed. I'm dying to get down to the waterfront to walk. The fact that there is a Timothy's Coffee Pub down there is entirely coincidental!
Yesterday I again kicked butt with staying on program. Once again, only two servings of vegetables but got in two servings of milk. Give and take. Plus as an added bonus, I stayed away from the processed foods. That's what kills you in the end you know. I can eat more for less points when I put in the effort and actually make a meat, vegetable and potato than when I throw chicken strips or a frozen pizza in the oven. One is quick and easy but leaves you hungry. One is made with love!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 small banana(s) 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
100 ml Yoptimal Raspberry Cranberry Yogurt 2
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
2c Cavatappi with Cauliflower Sauce 7
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 9
Anytime
1 bar(s) Peanut butter bliss 1
1 item(s) Vanilla 1
32 oz water 0
Subtotal 2
Food POINTS values total used 22.5
Food POINTS values remaining 1.5
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Week 10 - It's the End of the World As I Know it
That's right it starts with an earthquake, birds, snakes and aeroplanes. Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Last night as I turned off my lamp I found myself smiling waiting to fall asleep. My entire life I have wanted to be in another place and space in my life. When I was 13, I wanted to be 18. When I was 18 I wanted to be 21. When I was 28, I wanted to be 25. Now at 30, there is no other place I want to be. It is an odd feeling. Not wanting to be any younger. Certainly not wanting to be any older. Just content being right where I am. I have a husband whom I love very much. I have an adorable, incredibly good baby. I own my own home and have a good job that if I were being completely honest with myself, I actually love doing. I have my health. I love my family and friends. There is no other place in the world I'd rather be right now. *GASP* I think I may just be happy. Huh. So this is what it feels like. So then since I'm feeling this way why oh WHY do I keep killing off the entire human race in my dreams at least once a week?
Bare with me as we go a little bit into my psyche. For longer than I can remember (I'd say at least the past two years) I have been having reoccurring nightmares. Some of which can probably be attributed to my husband and I passion for horror movies. Zombie infestations take over the world. I some how survive the initial outbreak only to try and make it through to the next day. I often find myself battling one on one with a Zombie in my dreams. Sometimes I will hide from them in various familiar settings, all from my current life or childhood. In each though, I do live. Often though, alone and separated from those that I love.
I fully believe dreams are our unconscious selves trying to tell us something. So then:
"End of the Word: Not predictive of the actual end of the world nor of death. Dreams that the end of the world is coming/occurring usually signify a momentous change taking place within. They are dramatic/emotional. Often dreamed of by seriously ill people and by uprooted refugees or others forced to make extensive life changes. They may indicate the end of one kind of lifestyle and the beginning of another."
Huh. After James was first born I had a mourning period of a few weeks when I realized my life as I knew it wouldn't be the same ever again. I guess I'm still coming to terms with my life as it is now. I have been working on controlling my dreams. In my dream I want to conquer the Zombies by being the person to come up with the cure to the Zombie problem and restore humankind to a new beginning. I just wish these dreams wouldn't take place in the moments just before waking, leaving me with a feeling of loneliness and depression that lasts for the entire day...especially on dreary rainy gray days like today.
Yesterday was a goodish day. Until the evening anyway when we learned the CERTIFIED ACCOUNTANT who just did our taxes somehow missed the entire provincial portion of our income tax and instead of getting back $4,500 (which would allow us to get both a desperately needed new roof for the house and new tires for me) we are instead getting $350. Oh, wait. We paid this guy$150 to do the taxes in the first place so we're only getting $200 back. Jerk.
Oh and then there's the great news that the landing at our side door isn't supported by well...anything. The previous owners did some interesting home renovations that included cutting out support beams and using 2x4's to support the landing. So er any friends of mine reading this...use the front door until further notice!
Yesterday:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
Small Banana
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
8 Perogies
1 med Sweet Potato
Snacks
2 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar (frozen oh so GOOD!)
Small Apple
1.5L Crystal Light
I know, I know. I need to get in those vegetables. UGH!
It's the end of the world as I know it. And I feel fine.
Last night as I turned off my lamp I found myself smiling waiting to fall asleep. My entire life I have wanted to be in another place and space in my life. When I was 13, I wanted to be 18. When I was 18 I wanted to be 21. When I was 28, I wanted to be 25. Now at 30, there is no other place I want to be. It is an odd feeling. Not wanting to be any younger. Certainly not wanting to be any older. Just content being right where I am. I have a husband whom I love very much. I have an adorable, incredibly good baby. I own my own home and have a good job that if I were being completely honest with myself, I actually love doing. I have my health. I love my family and friends. There is no other place in the world I'd rather be right now. *GASP* I think I may just be happy. Huh. So this is what it feels like. So then since I'm feeling this way why oh WHY do I keep killing off the entire human race in my dreams at least once a week?
Bare with me as we go a little bit into my psyche. For longer than I can remember (I'd say at least the past two years) I have been having reoccurring nightmares. Some of which can probably be attributed to my husband and I passion for horror movies. Zombie infestations take over the world. I some how survive the initial outbreak only to try and make it through to the next day. I often find myself battling one on one with a Zombie in my dreams. Sometimes I will hide from them in various familiar settings, all from my current life or childhood. In each though, I do live. Often though, alone and separated from those that I love.
I fully believe dreams are our unconscious selves trying to tell us something. So then:
"End of the Word: Not predictive of the actual end of the world nor of death. Dreams that the end of the world is coming/occurring usually signify a momentous change taking place within. They are dramatic/emotional. Often dreamed of by seriously ill people and by uprooted refugees or others forced to make extensive life changes. They may indicate the end of one kind of lifestyle and the beginning of another."
Huh. After James was first born I had a mourning period of a few weeks when I realized my life as I knew it wouldn't be the same ever again. I guess I'm still coming to terms with my life as it is now. I have been working on controlling my dreams. In my dream I want to conquer the Zombies by being the person to come up with the cure to the Zombie problem and restore humankind to a new beginning. I just wish these dreams wouldn't take place in the moments just before waking, leaving me with a feeling of loneliness and depression that lasts for the entire day...especially on dreary rainy gray days like today.
Yesterday was a goodish day. Until the evening anyway when we learned the CERTIFIED ACCOUNTANT who just did our taxes somehow missed the entire provincial portion of our income tax and instead of getting back $4,500 (which would allow us to get both a desperately needed new roof for the house and new tires for me) we are instead getting $350. Oh, wait. We paid this guy$150 to do the taxes in the first place so we're only getting $200 back. Jerk.
Oh and then there's the great news that the landing at our side door isn't supported by well...anything. The previous owners did some interesting home renovations that included cutting out support beams and using 2x4's to support the landing. So er any friends of mine reading this...use the front door until further notice!
Yesterday:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
Small Banana
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
8 Perogies
1 med Sweet Potato
Snacks
2 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar (frozen oh so GOOD!)
Small Apple
1.5L Crystal Light
I know, I know. I need to get in those vegetables. UGH!
It's the end of the world as I know it. And I feel fine.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Week 10 - Decide, Commit, Succeed
Why am I doing this?
1. To feel better about myself
2. To be healthy
3. To look better (in my opinion)
4. To not have to buy new clothing
5. To regain my cocky confidence
6. To regain my level of energy
My Goals:
1. To be able to wear my wedding rings again. I am able to squeeze my finger into my engagement ring again. However, don't want to wear it all day yet as I'm sure I won't be able to get it off once it is worn for more than 10 minutes. Can't wear both rings together yet.
2. To get to 182. This is the weight I was the first time I joined Weight Watchers in 2001.
3. To fit into the size 12 pants I have hanging in my closet.
4. To exercise 20 minutes a day.
Yesterday I had a busy day. I've been cleaning the heck out of the house. I've let it go for the past er..year. Time to take the bull by the horns. James was great. Slept long and when he was awake played quietly on the floor while I flitted about.
Food wise. Ugh. I have 3 flex points left until Saturday. Why I let Brad talk me into food I'll never know. We had the rest of the crappy lasagna from Sunday night. It left a lot to be desired. So we had garlic bread. At least he tried to be good and left off the cheese and didn't make half a loaf for each of us as per usual. I have got to get a note book to keep track of his points. I think he's willing to do this with me, just not go to meetings (and pay for it!).
He did really good the last time he joined with me in Toronto. He lost a lot of weight. Got below 300 and promised me he'd never be back over 300 again. We'll get him there if it kills me! Hmmm...forcing him is that like nagging? I hope not! I want to do this for his health not for his looks. I want him to be around for me and James for a long time and with his family history and his current weight, I don't like where we're headed.
Plus...if he's being good, I'm being good. Win win!
Yesterday's journal:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Small Banana
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
Meat Lasagna (pre-made)
Garlic Bread
Snack
Fiber One Bar
1.5 L Crystal Light
Activity
5hrs of house cleaning
Total Used 29
Over +5
Activity 13!
1. To feel better about myself
2. To be healthy
3. To look better (in my opinion)
4. To not have to buy new clothing
5. To regain my cocky confidence
6. To regain my level of energy
My Goals:
1. To be able to wear my wedding rings again. I am able to squeeze my finger into my engagement ring again. However, don't want to wear it all day yet as I'm sure I won't be able to get it off once it is worn for more than 10 minutes. Can't wear both rings together yet.
2. To get to 182. This is the weight I was the first time I joined Weight Watchers in 2001.
3. To fit into the size 12 pants I have hanging in my closet.
4. To exercise 20 minutes a day.
Yesterday I had a busy day. I've been cleaning the heck out of the house. I've let it go for the past er..year. Time to take the bull by the horns. James was great. Slept long and when he was awake played quietly on the floor while I flitted about.
Food wise. Ugh. I have 3 flex points left until Saturday. Why I let Brad talk me into food I'll never know. We had the rest of the crappy lasagna from Sunday night. It left a lot to be desired. So we had garlic bread. At least he tried to be good and left off the cheese and didn't make half a loaf for each of us as per usual. I have got to get a note book to keep track of his points. I think he's willing to do this with me, just not go to meetings (and pay for it!).
He did really good the last time he joined with me in Toronto. He lost a lot of weight. Got below 300 and promised me he'd never be back over 300 again. We'll get him there if it kills me! Hmmm...forcing him is that like nagging? I hope not! I want to do this for his health not for his looks. I want him to be around for me and James for a long time and with his family history and his current weight, I don't like where we're headed.
Plus...if he's being good, I'm being good. Win win!
Yesterday's journal:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Small Banana
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 ml Yoptimal Yogurt
Dinner
Meat Lasagna (pre-made)
Garlic Bread
Snack
Fiber One Bar
1.5 L Crystal Light
Activity
5hrs of house cleaning
Total Used 29
Over +5
Activity 13!
Monday, March 23, 2009
Week 10 - Mmmmm...Ice Cream!
Dairy Queen. And that's all I have to say about that. Mmmm...Pecan Mudslide. 17 wild and wonderful points of soft serve ice cream, pecans, chocolate fudge and warm gooey caramel. Was it worth my 17 points? YOU BET!
I seriously have got to find a better way of rewarding myself for a good week though. I finally broke out of the 190's and was feeling pretty good about myself. I didn't even feel guilty last night after eating it. I felt oddly satisfied. That one little (okay, maybe not so little) ice cream treat will do me now for another two months. Fortunately ice cream is not one of my weaknesses. I'm giong to gave to really watch myself for the rest of the week obviously but that is one of the great things about Weight Watchers. I can have it and still potentially lose weight. If I do lose weight next Saturday it obviously won't be as big of a loss since I did have the ice cream but once again, I can't stress enough...it was sooo worth it!
I've compared my progess to the first time I joined and lost 40 pounds. I'm right on track. In fact I've lost 0.2 extra pounds in four weeks this time than I did last time. Hopefully I can keep this up. Last time I was the Queen of 0.8, 0.6 and 0.4 losses. Don't have the patience to take 2 yesars to lose this time. I'm going to do this in less than a year. I HAVE to. Failure is NOT an option.
There are no more aerobic classes for another two weeks so James' next nap I've got to get busy. Or, more busy that I already have been. Cleaning the house like a fiend today...much to James' annoyance, I'm not giving him my full attention (as he sits beside me right now whining!).
I seriously have got to find a better way of rewarding myself for a good week though. I finally broke out of the 190's and was feeling pretty good about myself. I didn't even feel guilty last night after eating it. I felt oddly satisfied. That one little (okay, maybe not so little) ice cream treat will do me now for another two months. Fortunately ice cream is not one of my weaknesses. I'm giong to gave to really watch myself for the rest of the week obviously but that is one of the great things about Weight Watchers. I can have it and still potentially lose weight. If I do lose weight next Saturday it obviously won't be as big of a loss since I did have the ice cream but once again, I can't stress enough...it was sooo worth it!
I've compared my progess to the first time I joined and lost 40 pounds. I'm right on track. In fact I've lost 0.2 extra pounds in four weeks this time than I did last time. Hopefully I can keep this up. Last time I was the Queen of 0.8, 0.6 and 0.4 losses. Don't have the patience to take 2 yesars to lose this time. I'm going to do this in less than a year. I HAVE to. Failure is NOT an option.
There are no more aerobic classes for another two weeks so James' next nap I've got to get busy. Or, more busy that I already have been. Cleaning the house like a fiend today...much to James' annoyance, I'm not giving him my full attention (as he sits beside me right now whining!).
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Week 9 - The Results Blog
YAY ME! Gotta pat yourself on the back every once in a while. At today's weigh in I lost another 2.0 pounds for a weight of 189.4! I am "officially" out of the 190's never to return again. I'm feeling back on track and for the first time like I can do this and quicker than it took the last time. As long as I am able to stick to my schedule and routine, I'll be just fine.
Drinking water certainly helps. I've all but cut out my diet pop intake by drinking a LOT of Crystal Light. The frequent washroom breaks suck (seems like more now than when I was pregnant) but that's just the weight flushing out of my system right? Right.
I'm feeling sore in some of my muscles today. Finally got back into my exercise routine. James' afternoon nap yesterday was just long enough for me to get back to my 30 Day Shred dvd. I haven't done it in roughly a month and I was amazed at the progress I've made in that short time. My stamina was incrediable. I didn't have to stop to catch my breath once. I was able to complete ten pushups (from my knees but sore nonetheless today). Feels good. Again, a succuess that isn't scale focused. Maybe after a couple weeks getting back into the dvd I will attempt progressing on to the next level. Dare I?
Today is Saturday and of course a challenge for me. I plan on making the lasagna that has been in the freezer forever. Not one of my vegetable ones, a premade meat lasagna. Better that than take out right? Uses fewer points and saves money.
Today the house is a mess and I don't feel like cleaning. I'm going to have to find another way to beat the boredom. Besides, the tendonitis in my wrist is bothering me this morning and I certainly can't scrub a toilet and bathtub with a brace on now can I? Shit, I can barely type with this damn thing on!
Happy weekend and Happy Spring!
Drinking water certainly helps. I've all but cut out my diet pop intake by drinking a LOT of Crystal Light. The frequent washroom breaks suck (seems like more now than when I was pregnant) but that's just the weight flushing out of my system right? Right.
I'm feeling sore in some of my muscles today. Finally got back into my exercise routine. James' afternoon nap yesterday was just long enough for me to get back to my 30 Day Shred dvd. I haven't done it in roughly a month and I was amazed at the progress I've made in that short time. My stamina was incrediable. I didn't have to stop to catch my breath once. I was able to complete ten pushups (from my knees but sore nonetheless today). Feels good. Again, a succuess that isn't scale focused. Maybe after a couple weeks getting back into the dvd I will attempt progressing on to the next level. Dare I?
Today is Saturday and of course a challenge for me. I plan on making the lasagna that has been in the freezer forever. Not one of my vegetable ones, a premade meat lasagna. Better that than take out right? Uses fewer points and saves money.
Today the house is a mess and I don't feel like cleaning. I'm going to have to find another way to beat the boredom. Besides, the tendonitis in my wrist is bothering me this morning and I certainly can't scrub a toilet and bathtub with a brace on now can I? Shit, I can barely type with this damn thing on!
Happy weekend and Happy Spring!
Friday, March 20, 2009
Week 9 - The Weekend Approaches
It's BA-ACK!
Why oh why does the weekend have to come and inturrput my week? Why ye ol'gods of weight loss must there be a weekend? Geez, can you tell I haven't been to work in just over 5 months? I shouldn't let seeing others eat infront of me bother me. Even if Brad were to do Weight Watchers with me, he'd be able to eat a heck of a lot more points than me anyway so he'd still be eating infront of me. This weekend's mini goal is to not use more than 10 flex points. Maybe we'll have the meat lasagna that is in the freezer. Not exactly "good" food however, not as bad as the Taco Bell I am once again craving.
Weight Watcher's meeting is tomorrow. I honestly didn't think it would help but going is helping to keep me more motivated and the losses seem more "official" and "premanent" to me. Before I had James, I couldn't be bothered to keep my lifetime membership up to date because I just couldn't be bothered to get my butt out of bed on a Saturday morning (yes, I realize that I didn't have to go on a Saturday) but now I'm up anyway. And I'm doing this for a specific purpose. To look okay for softball season. To wear a nice dress at Fiona's wedding. To not have to buy an entire new work waredobe for when I go back to work. And most importantly to feel better about myself.
Yesterday was another good food day. Didn't do any activity. I really have to get my butt back into gear with that. Today I will so help me Xenu (don't ask).
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Weight Watcher's meeting is tomorrow. I honestly didn't think it would help but going is helping to keep me more motivated and the losses seem more "official" and "premanent" to me. Before I had James, I couldn't be bothered to keep my lifetime membership up to date because I just couldn't be bothered to get my butt out of bed on a Saturday morning (yes, I realize that I didn't have to go on a Saturday) but now I'm up anyway. And I'm doing this for a specific purpose. To look okay for softball season. To wear a nice dress at Fiona's wedding. To not have to buy an entire new work waredobe for when I go back to work. And most importantly to feel better about myself.
Yesterday was another good food day. Didn't do any activity. I really have to get my butt back into gear with that. Today I will so help me Xenu (don't ask).
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
Small Banana
Entire Pot of Coffee (when having more than 3 cups of black coffee, point value becomes 0.5)
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1/8c Tuna w/lite Mayo
1c Autumn Vegetable Soup
Dinner
2 slices No Name Pepperoni Pizza
1c 1% Milk (yay me! got both servings in today!)
Raw Broccoli
Raw Cauliflower
Snack
1 Yoptimal Yogurt (mmm...probiotics)
1 mini Peanut Butter Bliss bar (I probably should stop buying these)
Total points used 25
No Activity points gained.
Small Banana
Entire Pot of Coffee (when having more than 3 cups of black coffee, point value becomes 0.5)
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1/8c Tuna w/lite Mayo
1c Autumn Vegetable Soup
Dinner
2 slices No Name Pepperoni Pizza
1c 1% Milk (yay me! got both servings in today!)
Raw Broccoli
Raw Cauliflower
Snack
1 Yoptimal Yogurt (mmm...probiotics)
1 mini Peanut Butter Bliss bar (I probably should stop buying these)
Total points used 25
No Activity points gained.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Week 9 - Feeling Confident
Yesterday was another good day. It is amazing how much just a little sun can help to elevate your mood. James and I went on another hour walk. My "circuit" is taking less and less time which is awesome! Was able to air out the house leaving windows open and even sat outside on the porch when we got back from our walk as I was waiting for James to wake up...didn't want to disturb a sleeping baby. Walking may not seem like much of an exercise, but it really does help to slim down your hips and butt. I noticed that when I was walking to and from work and a daily basis. Who needs expensive gym equipment (or so I keep telling myself!).
Not sure what is up for us today. I contemplated going over to my parents but still have a lot of laundry to do. Depending on James' nap schedule I'll either try my yoga or the 30 Day Shred today. Planning for frozen pizza for dinner tonight so I must make sure I have enough points, and drink lots of water. I want a good weigh in this Saturday. That scale at the meeting had better tell me I'm in the 180's. It is like this mental block. Before I got pregnant I tried to get back down to my wedding weight of 140 and my body just didn't want to leave the 150's. I finally accepted it. I accepted I had an "athletic build", "curvy" if you will.
Yesterday I had an awesome food day too. I'm on FIRE! Funny what having the proper foods in the house will do!
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Small Banana
Yoptimal Yogurt
Black Coffee (5 cups)
Lunch
Autumn Vegetable Soup (thanks for the idea Donna!)
2 slices Brown Bread
Tuna w/ tbsp Lite Mayo
1.5 L Crystal Light
Dinner
Pork Chop
3 servings Butternut Squash "fries" (recipe below)
1 med. Yukon Gold Potato nuked to perfection (ie. slightly burnt)
Diet Coke
1c 1% Milk
Snack
Fiber One Bar
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Total Points used 26
Total Activity Points gained 3
Butternut Squash "Fries"
Tastes just like Sweet Potato Fries - had Brad fooled!
3 spray(s) olive oil cooking spray
1 pound(s) Butternut squash, peeled, seeded, long “neck” cut into sixteen 3/4-inch-thick sticks*
1 tsp table salt, or to taste
1/2 tsp chili powder, or to taste (optional)
Preheat oven to 450ºF. Coat a baking sheet with cooking spray.
Arrange squash fries on prepared baking sheet and sprinkle with salt and chili powder (I used sweet chili); liberally coat with cooking spray.
Roast, turning once, until desired crispness, about 14 to 18 minutes. (I cooked 30 min each side)
Yields 4 fries per serving.
Not sure what is up for us today. I contemplated going over to my parents but still have a lot of laundry to do. Depending on James' nap schedule I'll either try my yoga or the 30 Day Shred today. Planning for frozen pizza for dinner tonight so I must make sure I have enough points, and drink lots of water. I want a good weigh in this Saturday. That scale at the meeting had better tell me I'm in the 180's. It is like this mental block. Before I got pregnant I tried to get back down to my wedding weight of 140 and my body just didn't want to leave the 150's. I finally accepted it. I accepted I had an "athletic build", "curvy" if you will.
Yesterday I had an awesome food day too. I'm on FIRE! Funny what having the proper foods in the house will do!
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Small Banana
Yoptimal Yogurt
Black Coffee (5 cups)
Lunch
Autumn Vegetable Soup (thanks for the idea Donna!)
2 slices Brown Bread
Tuna w/ tbsp Lite Mayo
1.5 L Crystal Light
Dinner
Pork Chop
3 servings Butternut Squash "fries" (recipe below)
1 med. Yukon Gold Potato nuked to perfection (ie. slightly burnt)
Diet Coke
1c 1% Milk
Snack
Fiber One Bar
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Total Points used 26
Total Activity Points gained 3
Butternut Squash "Fries"
Tastes just like Sweet Potato Fries - had Brad fooled!
3 spray(s) olive oil cooking spray
1 pound(s) Butternut squash, peeled, seeded, long “neck” cut into sixteen 3/4-inch-thick sticks*
1 tsp table salt, or to taste
1/2 tsp chili powder, or to taste (optional)
Preheat oven to 450ºF. Coat a baking sheet with cooking spray.
Arrange squash fries on prepared baking sheet and sprinkle with salt and chili powder (I used sweet chili); liberally coat with cooking spray.
Roast, turning once, until desired crispness, about 14 to 18 minutes. (I cooked 30 min each side)
Yields 4 fries per serving.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Week 9 - The Importance of Eating Enough
I know I've said it before however, I cannot stress enough that to lose weight faster, it is important to eat enough and enough of the right things.
I often get headachey and I can even pinpoint when I'll get a headache. At work during the stressful busy period when I may not be eating a snack in the morning and afternoon I'll be sure to go home with a headache. If I am heavy on the exercise and sweat is pouring off me and I haven't had the proper food and not enough water (and head is on fire so I don't bother making coffee in the morning) I'm sure to have a mother of a headache the next day. This is exactly what happened to me yesterday. When I finally was able to keep food in me, I felt great! I ended up making a favourite of mine, Turkey sausages cut into cubes, onion, green peppers, mushrooms stir fried and simmered. Usually I serve this over 1/2c of rice but got crazy and wild and had 1/2c couscous instead. So tasty! Now to gross you out. Over all this, KETCHUP! Mmmmmm! Soooo good! Got in both my vegetables, protien AND oil requirement. Even though I used a nonstick skillet, I used 2tsp of canola oil to get in the "good fat". Sadly though, didn't get in any dairy requirement. That's okay, I'll be sure to get it in today.
I had planned on starting my 30 Day Shred dvd again this week, but I can still feel a slight tightness in my forehead (my headaches usually do last three days after a bad one) so I *may* be smart and take it easy again today. Besides, I've got a lot to do today that I didn't get to yesterday. I hate napping. Such a waste of time!
On another note, my baby is sitting up all on his own now. I'm sure he could have been doing it sooner, he'd been doing really well in his pillow, it just never occured to me to try! I'm so excited on one hand and sad on the other. 5 months old and another month closer to leaving him. If I could find a way to stay home and raise him I would. At this point it isn't fesiable. I am going to have to start finding a way to deal with that depression and be prepared. I'm going to have a hard time leaving him! He is growing every day and has quite the little personality on him!
Here's what yesterday looked like:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios struggled through
Snack
Fiber One Bar
Lunch
2 slice Whole Wheat Bread
2 eggs
Small Banana
1.5L Crystal Light Peach Iced Tea
Dinner
2 Turkey Sausages
2 tsp Canola Oil
Green Peppers
Onion
Mushroom
1/2c Couscous
Snack
Fiber One
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
I often get headachey and I can even pinpoint when I'll get a headache. At work during the stressful busy period when I may not be eating a snack in the morning and afternoon I'll be sure to go home with a headache. If I am heavy on the exercise and sweat is pouring off me and I haven't had the proper food and not enough water (and head is on fire so I don't bother making coffee in the morning) I'm sure to have a mother of a headache the next day. This is exactly what happened to me yesterday. When I finally was able to keep food in me, I felt great! I ended up making a favourite of mine, Turkey sausages cut into cubes, onion, green peppers, mushrooms stir fried and simmered. Usually I serve this over 1/2c of rice but got crazy and wild and had 1/2c couscous instead. So tasty! Now to gross you out. Over all this, KETCHUP! Mmmmmm! Soooo good! Got in both my vegetables, protien AND oil requirement. Even though I used a nonstick skillet, I used 2tsp of canola oil to get in the "good fat". Sadly though, didn't get in any dairy requirement. That's okay, I'll be sure to get it in today.
I had planned on starting my 30 Day Shred dvd again this week, but I can still feel a slight tightness in my forehead (my headaches usually do last three days after a bad one) so I *may* be smart and take it easy again today. Besides, I've got a lot to do today that I didn't get to yesterday. I hate napping. Such a waste of time!
On another note, my baby is sitting up all on his own now. I'm sure he could have been doing it sooner, he'd been doing really well in his pillow, it just never occured to me to try! I'm so excited on one hand and sad on the other. 5 months old and another month closer to leaving him. If I could find a way to stay home and raise him I would. At this point it isn't fesiable. I am going to have to start finding a way to deal with that depression and be prepared. I'm going to have a hard time leaving him! He is growing every day and has quite the little personality on him!
Here's what yesterday looked like:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios struggled through
Snack
Fiber One Bar
Lunch
2 slice Whole Wheat Bread
2 eggs
Small Banana
1.5L Crystal Light Peach Iced Tea
Dinner
2 Turkey Sausages
2 tsp Canola Oil
Green Peppers
Onion
Mushroom
1/2c Couscous
Snack
Fiber One
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Week 9 - Good day/Bad day
Yesterday was amazing! I got so much done and accomplished so much, must be the extra push from seeing the sun after what seems like an eternity. Today I have a small migraine and so far today am just concentrating on keeping food down.
Dusted Brad and our bedroom, cleaned the windows so that when I am looking out at the sun I won't see all those icky horrible water marks and dirt from the snow. James and I went on an hour long walk. It was so nice to get out in the realative warmth and sun. He slept through the whole thing. We got home and he played for an hour then had a real nap. Brad got home and we got out asses in gear, went out and got groceries so today eating won't be such a struggle. Then of course was aerobics. I worked the hardest to date there. I was just this huge ball of energy. Felt good. Figures it was the last session for two weeks. Even my eating went well(ish).
Today I woke up with a massive headache. A mild migraine. I got lucky in that James got sleepy at 9:00. We both just woke up from a two hour nap. Figures. On a day even more gorgeous than yesterday I feel like my head is on fire. I'll just open some windows, breathe in the fresh air and let him play on the floor for most of the day. It is hard he doesn't like staying in once place for long and he still isn't able to move about on his own yet.
Yesterday's journal:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Black Coffee
Lunch
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Raw Cauliflower
Raw Broccoli
Baby Carrots
Flour Tortilla
1/4c Tuna w/lite Mayo
Snack
1 slice Cinnomon Toast
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar (man, do I have to cut back on these things!)
Dinner
4 Cinnomon Waffles
1 tbsp Syrup
Yoptimal Yogurt
Dusted Brad and our bedroom, cleaned the windows so that when I am looking out at the sun I won't see all those icky horrible water marks and dirt from the snow. James and I went on an hour long walk. It was so nice to get out in the realative warmth and sun. He slept through the whole thing. We got home and he played for an hour then had a real nap. Brad got home and we got out asses in gear, went out and got groceries so today eating won't be such a struggle. Then of course was aerobics. I worked the hardest to date there. I was just this huge ball of energy. Felt good. Figures it was the last session for two weeks. Even my eating went well(ish).
Today I woke up with a massive headache. A mild migraine. I got lucky in that James got sleepy at 9:00. We both just woke up from a two hour nap. Figures. On a day even more gorgeous than yesterday I feel like my head is on fire. I'll just open some windows, breathe in the fresh air and let him play on the floor for most of the day. It is hard he doesn't like staying in once place for long and he still isn't able to move about on his own yet.
Yesterday's journal:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
1c 1% Milk
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Black Coffee
Lunch
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar
Raw Cauliflower
Raw Broccoli
Baby Carrots
Flour Tortilla
1/4c Tuna w/lite Mayo
Snack
1 slice Cinnomon Toast
1 Mini Peanut Bliss Bar (man, do I have to cut back on these things!)
Dinner
4 Cinnomon Waffles
1 tbsp Syrup
Yoptimal Yogurt
Monday, March 16, 2009
Wee 9 - Getting Active
Officially I lost 2.2 this week. I like my scale at home much better since that one tells me I'm 189. Got to go with them though and look at it a another way. Previously as I was losing weight I would look at the previous week's weight and think "I'll never be ___ again." That is the attitude I've been missing this time around. So ahem...."I'll never be 193.6 again!" Officially I'm 191.4.
This week's meeting was about getting active. Since I think I was doing too much before, I'm going to start again and take it slow. This weekend's weather was beautiful. Brad and I went for a miniwalk Saturday and I cleaned for three hours (hey, that's got to count for something right?). Felt great to be outside in the sun. Sunday everyone needed a change of scenery so James went into his "big boy" stroller and sat outside in the sun watching Mommy and Daddy do stuff. I dug out some rose bushes, cleaned out a garden and turned up dirt. Oh and pulled out a nasty bush at the front of my house that I've hated since we've moved in and since James will be crawling and running around outside the last thing I need him to do is run full tilt into a prickle Brair bush. That sucker was in there good and I worked up quite the sweat doing it. Today after James' noon bottle we'll be going for a walk. I cleaned rather than blogged during his morning nap and tonight is aerobics class. I'm looking good so this Saturday when the leader asks if everyone got in some exercise I can confidently and proudly say yes I did!
This week's meeting was about getting active. Since I think I was doing too much before, I'm going to start again and take it slow. This weekend's weather was beautiful. Brad and I went for a miniwalk Saturday and I cleaned for three hours (hey, that's got to count for something right?). Felt great to be outside in the sun. Sunday everyone needed a change of scenery so James went into his "big boy" stroller and sat outside in the sun watching Mommy and Daddy do stuff. I dug out some rose bushes, cleaned out a garden and turned up dirt. Oh and pulled out a nasty bush at the front of my house that I've hated since we've moved in and since James will be crawling and running around outside the last thing I need him to do is run full tilt into a prickle Brair bush. That sucker was in there good and I worked up quite the sweat doing it. Today after James' noon bottle we'll be going for a walk. I cleaned rather than blogged during his morning nap and tonight is aerobics class. I'm looking good so this Saturday when the leader asks if everyone got in some exercise I can confidently and proudly say yes I did!
Friday, March 13, 2009
Week 8 - The "Unofficial" Results Blog
The scale was both kind and unkind to me this morning. This will be my last "unofficial" results blog. I get too disappointed when my Weight Watchers result isn't the same as what I see today.
So last Friday's result was 189.0. This week I'm 189.4. Normally I'd be upset (yet understanding of a 0.4 gain) however last Saturday at my meeting I was 193.6 which would mean (as of today anyway) I'm down 4.2 pounds which, obviously is REALLY great! So as you can see the disconnect and my inability to celebrate quite yet. Long rambling story short...no more results blogs on Friday.
So last Friday's result was 189.0. This week I'm 189.4. Normally I'd be upset (yet understanding of a 0.4 gain) however last Saturday at my meeting I was 193.6 which would mean (as of today anyway) I'm down 4.2 pounds which, obviously is REALLY great! So as you can see the disconnect and my inability to celebrate quite yet. Long rambling story short...no more results blogs on Friday.
I feel good today. I feel optimistic. It may be the sun (now if only the temperature would co-operate). My jeans fit AMAZINGLY! I'm down yet another belt hole. My old lady underwear aren't sliding down my ass because they are too small. They fit over my still ample butt. My picture looks much better (if I do say so myself!) You be the judge:
At some point I am going to have to start exercising again. I'm trying to focus on the eating right now and get that under control first. The computer is unfortunately becoming a distraction as I'd rather check my e-mails and facebook than sweat. It is my new addiction and one I'm going to have to kick and get back into a routine. I think I'll start back with the yoga and go from there. Here's the motivation:
Wish me luck for tomorrow. Those size 8's are still a year away.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Apology - formatting
Hi! Just wanted to apologise to anyone reading. I got lazy near the end cutting and pasting my old blogs to this website. I was using an inferior site prior to this.
I've taken a look around Blogger and like what I see so this will be my new "home". Hope you enjoy reading all about my stuggle. Hopefully there will be a happy ending!
I've taken a look around Blogger and like what I see so this will be my new "home". Hope you enjoy reading all about my stuggle. Hopefully there will be a happy ending!
Week 8 - Back on Track
Yesterday went amazing. I stayed right within points. I even had 4 left over. But that is okay because for the rest of the week I had gone over several times. I'm still finding it hard to get in all the "requirements" ie servings of vegetables, protein etc.Weight Watchers new guidelines expect you to include two "servings" of oil. Canola, olive, flax that sort of thing. And I just haven't been able to do this. First, I'm NOT wasting my points on a tsp of plain old oil second...that's DISGUSTING! Drizzelled over vegetables or not. BLUCH! I am getting my two servings of dairy. Two glasses of milk yesterday. I love drinking milk...I just HATE drinking my points. Liquids do not fill up and satisfy.Today should go well. I plan on making a Weight Watchers biscotti and Sheppard's Pie for dinner. There is absolutely NO snack food in the house so I may be eating the walls by mid-afternoon. I'm sure there is lots of fiber in drywall though right?!
Week 7 - The "Unofficial" Results Blog
Hmmm....do I calculate using my weight as it was this time next week or do I calculate using the weight I was when I joined Weight Watchers? Bah...it doesn't matter. What matters is what the scale told me this morning. 189.0!
I've broken out of the 190's! I had to peek today because tomorrow at WWers I'll be wearing clothes (or I hope to be as does everyone else I'm sure). My weight there last Saturday was 194.2 meaning I've lost 5.2 this week!What changed and what did I do differently? Surprisingly I didn't exercise only some yoga and my aerobics class on Monday...at which I didn't really work all that had. I am finding using my flex points at the BEGINNING of the week rather than saving them until the END really helped. I didn't have that "crutch" in the back of my head saying it was okay if I went over, I had 35 extra points at the end of the week. It is a whole different mindset. I didn't think rejoining WWers meetings would make a difference, but again, surprisingly it has. I'm accountable to someone other than myself. Sure, the blogs help me to an extent...but the hits I see on how many people read this are just faceless people. I don't know who reads this. I don't know what their opinion is. I don't know if they are cheering me on. In a meeting I can sit there state how much I lost that week, get applauded AND get STICKERS! I love stickers! I like being told I've done a good job and I can get that in a meeting....validation for hardwork well done.Today I'm going off routine again. Yesterday went well. Ended up having the Veggie Burger for 16 points (OUCH!) and salad for 2. Kelsey's didn't have a lunch menu so no soup and salad for me. This left me with 4 points for dinner so we had frozen pizza. I had two slices for 12 points...so I used 10 of my flex points...I still have 6 left. Today I've got a doctor's appointment for my wrist...hopefully he'll actually look at it this time, baseball season is coming fast! The plan for the weekend is to cook dinner. What we'll have, who knows...just NO ORDERING IN!
I've broken out of the 190's! I had to peek today because tomorrow at WWers I'll be wearing clothes (or I hope to be as does everyone else I'm sure). My weight there last Saturday was 194.2 meaning I've lost 5.2 this week!What changed and what did I do differently? Surprisingly I didn't exercise only some yoga and my aerobics class on Monday...at which I didn't really work all that had. I am finding using my flex points at the BEGINNING of the week rather than saving them until the END really helped. I didn't have that "crutch" in the back of my head saying it was okay if I went over, I had 35 extra points at the end of the week. It is a whole different mindset. I didn't think rejoining WWers meetings would make a difference, but again, surprisingly it has. I'm accountable to someone other than myself. Sure, the blogs help me to an extent...but the hits I see on how many people read this are just faceless people. I don't know who reads this. I don't know what their opinion is. I don't know if they are cheering me on. In a meeting I can sit there state how much I lost that week, get applauded AND get STICKERS! I love stickers! I like being told I've done a good job and I can get that in a meeting....validation for hardwork well done.Today I'm going off routine again. Yesterday went well. Ended up having the Veggie Burger for 16 points (OUCH!) and salad for 2. Kelsey's didn't have a lunch menu so no soup and salad for me. This left me with 4 points for dinner so we had frozen pizza. I had two slices for 12 points...so I used 10 of my flex points...I still have 6 left. Today I've got a doctor's appointment for my wrist...hopefully he'll actually look at it this time, baseball season is coming fast! The plan for the weekend is to cook dinner. What we'll have, who knows...just NO ORDERING IN!
Week 7 - The Lunch Date
Going for lunch today. I checked out the menu yesterday and am more confused than ever. The things I usually order, thinking it is a safer choice, are actually higher in calories and fat. Actually most things on the menu have high fat contents. I guess that is why food always tastes so good when you eat out! I'll probably just have soup and salad. I'll save money that way and still be able to have dinner later.
Since I've rejoined Weight Watchers meetings I've changed my weigh in day to Saturday. I wonder how that will effect my weight loss. It took some getting used to using my flex points at the beginning of the week rather than at the end of it. Ultimately I'd like not to use any flex points at all so I can speed up my weight loss. With weekend, it is hard. However, in an effort to save money, we really should stop getting as much takeout as we do. Actually, that was the plan. My husband and I worked out a budget this past summer. We both bought cars. Mine was used, his new. As part of being able to afford both the cars and a baby, we were cutting out the take out to once a month at which time we'd eat in a resturant and leave James with his Grandparents. Allowing us time alone and still treat ourselves. Like I've mentioned before...best laid plans. Weekends become a game. I'll wait, not making dinner, in hopes he'll make it...and I'm sure that's what Brad is thinking too...until finally we both look at each other in the eyes and say the two words that mean the most..."Taco Bell?"I think I wasn't being honest with myself while pregnant. I thought with my previous lifestyle, losing this pregnancy weight would be a breeze. I'd figure I'd just go back to the way I was eating (only 21 points a day) even without the exercise, I'd be back in my pants certainly by this time. Here I sit. James will be 5 months already next week. Still in size 14. The 180's just out of my reach. My first goal weight is 182. In the program, you set mini goals along the way. Why 182? That is what I weighed the first time I joined Weight Watchers. And I'd REALLY like to get back into my wedding rings. I DO NOT want to resize them.That's it for today's ramble. Till next time.
Since I've rejoined Weight Watchers meetings I've changed my weigh in day to Saturday. I wonder how that will effect my weight loss. It took some getting used to using my flex points at the beginning of the week rather than at the end of it. Ultimately I'd like not to use any flex points at all so I can speed up my weight loss. With weekend, it is hard. However, in an effort to save money, we really should stop getting as much takeout as we do. Actually, that was the plan. My husband and I worked out a budget this past summer. We both bought cars. Mine was used, his new. As part of being able to afford both the cars and a baby, we were cutting out the take out to once a month at which time we'd eat in a resturant and leave James with his Grandparents. Allowing us time alone and still treat ourselves. Like I've mentioned before...best laid plans. Weekends become a game. I'll wait, not making dinner, in hopes he'll make it...and I'm sure that's what Brad is thinking too...until finally we both look at each other in the eyes and say the two words that mean the most..."Taco Bell?"I think I wasn't being honest with myself while pregnant. I thought with my previous lifestyle, losing this pregnancy weight would be a breeze. I'd figure I'd just go back to the way I was eating (only 21 points a day) even without the exercise, I'd be back in my pants certainly by this time. Here I sit. James will be 5 months already next week. Still in size 14. The 180's just out of my reach. My first goal weight is 182. In the program, you set mini goals along the way. Why 182? That is what I weighed the first time I joined Weight Watchers. And I'd REALLY like to get back into my wedding rings. I DO NOT want to resize them.That's it for today's ramble. Till next time.
Week 7 - Smater"er" Food Choices
Yesterday I went off schedule again. I was bored so I took the baby to my parent's house. I had lunch there. Even though we had a lunch that I usually make for myself, I am amazed at how just the slighest change to the choices you make, really effect the point value and your success at losing weight.
For instance, yesterday we had fried egg sandwiches. When I make this for myself at lunch (as I normally do) the TOTAL point value is 4. Yesterday's total point value was 9. Let us compare. When I make my sandwich the first obvious choice is the kind of bread. I use 100% whole wheat bread for 1 point each slice. My parent's use only white bread, 2 points per slice. It took a while for me to get used to whole wheat, but now I find I prefer it. When I make my lunch, I use one egg for two points. My parent's use 2 eggs for 4 points. The trick here is making one egg seem like more. I use the mircrowave. Using a little glass bowl, I break an egg into it, scramble it up a little and put it in the microwave for 45 seconds. The egg puffs up, put it on the toast and kind of squish it around and VOILA! Lots of egg to cover toast. Then of course I use a table spoon of ketchup for 0 points. MMmm...tasty. Parent's version has butter. I'm estimating a point for this. Doing it my way cuts out 5 extra unnecessary points. Sure, their way may taste a little better, but honestly you get used to it and don't mind what you are missing if you get results in the end. Ah, and of course, my way you add 0 point extras to it. I've been having 10 baby carrots for 0 points...dipped in to either low calorie salad dressing or hummas (for 1 point) or add a dill pickle for 0 points or a salad with low calorie dressing for 1-2 points. Suddenly your sandwich that maybe wasn't all the exciting or filling becomes a whole lot better! Don't get me wrong...it is nice to have the fuller fat, fuller calorie version once in a while...plus I will NEVER complain about someone else making me lunch!I was left with only 8 points for dinner (Oh, forgot to mention I had one oatmeal chocolate chip cookie while I was there). So we had homemade french "fries" for dinner and Healthy Bake fish (two fillets for 3 points!). And I was good for the night. No desire to snack. That is a good feeling. Knowing that even though I didn't have many points left, I was able to make a dinner that was both satisfying and tasted okay.Today I'm looking at the same old same old. Tomorrow I'm meeting friends for lunch so I'll see how that goes. I plan on going on line to check out the menu later today, work out the point values and plan ahead. VERY important to do when eating out. Otherwise, you'll screw yourself over.
For instance, yesterday we had fried egg sandwiches. When I make this for myself at lunch (as I normally do) the TOTAL point value is 4. Yesterday's total point value was 9. Let us compare. When I make my sandwich the first obvious choice is the kind of bread. I use 100% whole wheat bread for 1 point each slice. My parent's use only white bread, 2 points per slice. It took a while for me to get used to whole wheat, but now I find I prefer it. When I make my lunch, I use one egg for two points. My parent's use 2 eggs for 4 points. The trick here is making one egg seem like more. I use the mircrowave. Using a little glass bowl, I break an egg into it, scramble it up a little and put it in the microwave for 45 seconds. The egg puffs up, put it on the toast and kind of squish it around and VOILA! Lots of egg to cover toast. Then of course I use a table spoon of ketchup for 0 points. MMmm...tasty. Parent's version has butter. I'm estimating a point for this. Doing it my way cuts out 5 extra unnecessary points. Sure, their way may taste a little better, but honestly you get used to it and don't mind what you are missing if you get results in the end. Ah, and of course, my way you add 0 point extras to it. I've been having 10 baby carrots for 0 points...dipped in to either low calorie salad dressing or hummas (for 1 point) or add a dill pickle for 0 points or a salad with low calorie dressing for 1-2 points. Suddenly your sandwich that maybe wasn't all the exciting or filling becomes a whole lot better! Don't get me wrong...it is nice to have the fuller fat, fuller calorie version once in a while...plus I will NEVER complain about someone else making me lunch!I was left with only 8 points for dinner (Oh, forgot to mention I had one oatmeal chocolate chip cookie while I was there). So we had homemade french "fries" for dinner and Healthy Bake fish (two fillets for 3 points!). And I was good for the night. No desire to snack. That is a good feeling. Knowing that even though I didn't have many points left, I was able to make a dinner that was both satisfying and tasted okay.Today I'm looking at the same old same old. Tomorrow I'm meeting friends for lunch so I'll see how that goes. I plan on going on line to check out the menu later today, work out the point values and plan ahead. VERY important to do when eating out. Otherwise, you'll screw yourself over.
Week 7 - Best Laid Plans
Note to self. When planning your day and your meal for dinner it is exteremly important to make sure you have what you've planned for in your house.
AUGH! The number one problem I have that causes me to go all off of plan and points is having no food in the house. I planned on bonless skinless chicken breast for dinner last night before going off to aerobics. Go to make dinner and the chicken was gone. Grrr....so a moment of panic where I realize we really don't keep much in the house. I ended up improvising. I had a Lean Cuisine Grilled Panini sandwich for 6 points and some Romain Lettuce with some salad dressing (this is what passes for a salad in my house).I guess the problem is, I really don't know how to grocery shop. Food seemed to last longer at my parents' house. Not in that they didn't eat as much, but in that it didn't go bad as quickly. I've all but given up on buying fresh vegetables. We buy them with every intention of using them, but they go bad before I can figure out what do to with them. I never know what meat to buy and keep in the freezer. I do look through my cook books all the time (guilty secret, I love reading cook books but hate cooking) find something I intend on cooking but never buy the ingredients...or if I do buy the ingredients, I can't remember what they were for. I'm horribly disorganized when it comes to my kitchen. I think it stems from my Mom. While she hasn't a horrible cook, her meals were rather plans with the same basic ten meals. Spaghetti and meat balls, pork chops with some form of interchangable frozen vegetable and potato, chili, stew, chicken legs broiled with bbq sauce, chicken breast (with skin and bone) form of interchangable frozen vegetable and potato, goulash, grilled cheese sandwich with tomato soup, hamburgers and hotdogs. Never rice. Never anything but a Ragu spaghetti sauce. OH! How can I forget, Sunday dinners are roast beef. Hmmm....maybe this is why I HATE Ragu sauce and roast beef. One can only eat it so many times in one's life.This is why I'm trying to expand my horizans. I've branched out. I've tried all kinds of foods I'd never even heard of when I was living at home. The me of 5 years ago would never have tried sushi, but I did and I love it (and low in points!). I've tried Indian food (did you know goat was edible?) I LOVE anything Mexican. I hadn't even heard of Taco Bell (not that that passes for Mexican) before I met Brad and with it, he helped me gain 50 pounds the first time around! I'm still trying to figure out what exactly couscous is, but I eat it. Makes life easier yet more difficult all at the same time. Odd.Today will be challenging. Still have the same dinner dilema. Maybe Healthy Bake Captain Highliner and potatoes and peas (gotta have some vegetables.) AH! James is blowing raspberries up in his crib, I guess that means he's awake. Here's another thing I love about Motherhood, baby farts through the monitor are about the cutest thing I've ever heard. Again, is that odd?
AUGH! The number one problem I have that causes me to go all off of plan and points is having no food in the house. I planned on bonless skinless chicken breast for dinner last night before going off to aerobics. Go to make dinner and the chicken was gone. Grrr....so a moment of panic where I realize we really don't keep much in the house. I ended up improvising. I had a Lean Cuisine Grilled Panini sandwich for 6 points and some Romain Lettuce with some salad dressing (this is what passes for a salad in my house).I guess the problem is, I really don't know how to grocery shop. Food seemed to last longer at my parents' house. Not in that they didn't eat as much, but in that it didn't go bad as quickly. I've all but given up on buying fresh vegetables. We buy them with every intention of using them, but they go bad before I can figure out what do to with them. I never know what meat to buy and keep in the freezer. I do look through my cook books all the time (guilty secret, I love reading cook books but hate cooking) find something I intend on cooking but never buy the ingredients...or if I do buy the ingredients, I can't remember what they were for. I'm horribly disorganized when it comes to my kitchen. I think it stems from my Mom. While she hasn't a horrible cook, her meals were rather plans with the same basic ten meals. Spaghetti and meat balls, pork chops with some form of interchangable frozen vegetable and potato, chili, stew, chicken legs broiled with bbq sauce, chicken breast (with skin and bone) form of interchangable frozen vegetable and potato, goulash, grilled cheese sandwich with tomato soup, hamburgers and hotdogs. Never rice. Never anything but a Ragu spaghetti sauce. OH! How can I forget, Sunday dinners are roast beef. Hmmm....maybe this is why I HATE Ragu sauce and roast beef. One can only eat it so many times in one's life.This is why I'm trying to expand my horizans. I've branched out. I've tried all kinds of foods I'd never even heard of when I was living at home. The me of 5 years ago would never have tried sushi, but I did and I love it (and low in points!). I've tried Indian food (did you know goat was edible?) I LOVE anything Mexican. I hadn't even heard of Taco Bell (not that that passes for Mexican) before I met Brad and with it, he helped me gain 50 pounds the first time around! I'm still trying to figure out what exactly couscous is, but I eat it. Makes life easier yet more difficult all at the same time. Odd.Today will be challenging. Still have the same dinner dilema. Maybe Healthy Bake Captain Highliner and potatoes and peas (gotta have some vegetables.) AH! James is blowing raspberries up in his crib, I guess that means he's awake. Here's another thing I love about Motherhood, baby farts through the monitor are about the cutest thing I've ever heard. Again, is that odd?
Week 7 - A New Beginning
In a galaxy far, far away...I rejoined a Weight Watchers centre on Saturday with a friend. I have mixed feelings about this move. I've been at Weight Watchers for 7 years...lifetime for 5. I know how to follow the program. I know how the program works. Will it really make a difference if I'm doing it at my computer or in a meeting with a bunch of other people doing the same thing.....ah.
I did enjoy the meetings way back when I attended in Toronto. Of course, I absolutely LOVED my leader. She reminded me a lot of my Grandmother. Older lady, short, spunky and full of life. The leader this past Saturday had those qualities as well. Plus, I may learn new tricks at the meeting. We'll see. I've signed up for six months. Six long months. I'm cutting back the exercise to three days a week. I'm going to concentrate instead on eating and get that under control first. Then we'll start the toning.So what does one do the day you sign up for WWers? Go for lunch with friends and then order Little Ceasar's Pizza for dinner of course! Lunch I did go at. I chose wisely and had a Shish Tawook sandwich for 7 points and a Diet Coke. Was quite full after the meal. Got home, had the great pizza debate. I used to order from Pizza Hut and get the Edge Veggie Pizza when I was hard core into wwers. One slice is only 2 points. The pizza itself takes some getting used to. But...you can have the whole pizza for what two slices normally would be. I don't know why we ended up ordering Little Ceasar's instead. Did okay...ish. I recorded everthing and only went 7 points over my daily allotment...I have flex points, so all is okay. Did you know that Crazy Bread is only 2 points per slice? Me neither! WOoo!Today is aerobics class...going weither my friend is ill or not. Foot is down. I have no excuse. Maybe do at home yoga this afternoon, I feel I really need to stretch. We'll see how James is feeling about nap time this afternoon.
I did enjoy the meetings way back when I attended in Toronto. Of course, I absolutely LOVED my leader. She reminded me a lot of my Grandmother. Older lady, short, spunky and full of life. The leader this past Saturday had those qualities as well. Plus, I may learn new tricks at the meeting. We'll see. I've signed up for six months. Six long months. I'm cutting back the exercise to three days a week. I'm going to concentrate instead on eating and get that under control first. Then we'll start the toning.So what does one do the day you sign up for WWers? Go for lunch with friends and then order Little Ceasar's Pizza for dinner of course! Lunch I did go at. I chose wisely and had a Shish Tawook sandwich for 7 points and a Diet Coke. Was quite full after the meal. Got home, had the great pizza debate. I used to order from Pizza Hut and get the Edge Veggie Pizza when I was hard core into wwers. One slice is only 2 points. The pizza itself takes some getting used to. But...you can have the whole pizza for what two slices normally would be. I don't know why we ended up ordering Little Ceasar's instead. Did okay...ish. I recorded everthing and only went 7 points over my daily allotment...I have flex points, so all is okay. Did you know that Crazy Bread is only 2 points per slice? Me neither! WOoo!Today is aerobics class...going weither my friend is ill or not. Foot is down. I have no excuse. Maybe do at home yoga this afternoon, I feel I really need to stretch. We'll see how James is feeling about nap time this afternoon.
Week 6 - The Results Blog
Well...it is good new / bad news. The bad news is, as I suspected I gained. Not as much as I thought. I gained 0.6 this week. It seems to me that I am NEVER breaking out of this 190 stuff. Current weight is logged at 191.4. I've come to the conclusion, with the help of a friend, it is time for some external intervention. We will be joining Weight Watchers meetings together tomorrow. The on-line program works great for those who are diciplined. I also found it helped me more with maintaining my goal weight better especially while I was at work. Now, desperate times call for desperate measures...and it'll get me out of the house!
The measurement results are much more encouraging. Drumroll please! Chest: Previous -40" (pre-pregnancy 36) CURRENT 39" (always the first place to loose!)Left upper arm 14" (pre-pregnancy 11 1/2") CURRENT 13"Right upper arm 13 1/3" (pre-pregnancy 11") CURRENT 13"Waist 37" (pre-pregnancy 27" this is the measurement I'm most upset about) CURRENT 35" (2" GONE!!!)Hips 41 1/2" (pre-pregnancy 38") CURRENT 41" (The hardest place to lose and I've got genetics working against me)Left thigh 28" CURRENT 28"Right thigh 28 1/2" CURRENT 28" So...a total of 5" gone. I am obviously most happy about the 2" gone from my waist. My hips and thighs are going to be a challenge. I went on a super long walk yesterday to the college and back. Had a great opportunity to walk and think. I really do think I need to just relax this week and get back to my "life style change" hard core next week. I haven't been "feeling it" since week 3 it appears. That's 3 weeks I've given up on myself. I think once the spring comes and the nicer weather comes, James and I can get to the backyard and get gardening things will be better. Open the windows, let the fresh air in. I can't give in and just accept this is the new me. I'm not happy with that.Happy weekend everyone!
The measurement results are much more encouraging. Drumroll please! Chest: Previous -40" (pre-pregnancy 36) CURRENT 39" (always the first place to loose!)Left upper arm 14" (pre-pregnancy 11 1/2") CURRENT 13"Right upper arm 13 1/3" (pre-pregnancy 11") CURRENT 13"Waist 37" (pre-pregnancy 27" this is the measurement I'm most upset about) CURRENT 35" (2" GONE!!!)Hips 41 1/2" (pre-pregnancy 38") CURRENT 41" (The hardest place to lose and I've got genetics working against me)Left thigh 28" CURRENT 28"Right thigh 28 1/2" CURRENT 28" So...a total of 5" gone. I am obviously most happy about the 2" gone from my waist. My hips and thighs are going to be a challenge. I went on a super long walk yesterday to the college and back. Had a great opportunity to walk and think. I really do think I need to just relax this week and get back to my "life style change" hard core next week. I haven't been "feeling it" since week 3 it appears. That's 3 weeks I've given up on myself. I think once the spring comes and the nicer weather comes, James and I can get to the backyard and get gardening things will be better. Open the windows, let the fresh air in. I can't give in and just accept this is the new me. I'm not happy with that.Happy weekend everyone!
Week 7 - The Non-Blog
I think I'm going to intentionally gain this week.A week off.Which sucks because I'm supposed to record my measurements. I'll still weigh in though and post the results. I just don't have the will this week.
Week 7 - A bathtub, a Bag of Chips and an Empty House
When one is over run, a tad bit depressed, tired and sore, what does one do? Spend an evening in the tub with a bag of chips, her cats and then bed.
Brad took James over to the in-laws last night. While there was so much I could have and maybe should have been doing, I chose to instead spend it reading in the bathtub. Oddly, it is exactly what I needed to find my new resolve. Much more relaxed feeling this morning and with a house full of healthy choice foods, I'm ready to take on the new day. I have a plan for tomorrow. The weather is supposed to be mild, if not a little windy...so James and I are going for a walk to the college. We've got nothing better to do. I had a lot of time to think last night too. Maybe I should work on getting my eating under control and focus on just that for a little while rather than try and kill myself outright with the exercise dvds. I came to this conclusion yesterday during the second TMT dvd. There I am, doing my ab workout, tears running down my face. Not tears of pain. Tears of utter frusturation, anger and self loathing that I allowed myself to get to this point. And for this, I wish I were a man. On TV last night there was a movie trailer on with oddly, Lou Farigno (the original Hulk) and he looks just as good as when he was on King of Queens, and I dare say, the Hulk. He never had to stall his life by giving up 9 months to intentially gain weight, lose the shape and size of body he worked hard to maintain, give birth, then try to crawl through the ashes to get back to where he is happy with himself. Men don't understand how hard this is. Their lives get to go on practically uninterrupted and our lives are never the same again. As a disgusting aside, my hoo-hoo feels like it will NEVER be the same again. The watermelon, grape anology remains intact.Here's another interesting though. Clothing sizes. I am able to wear my old Medium sized pajama/lounge pants that I had before I got pregnant. Even the kind with out stretch...while some of my new after pregnancy pants which are large (and yes, some extra large) don't fit quite so well. Last night as I was putting on some of my newer large sized bottoms, I noticed they aren't tight across the bum anymore (hadn't worn them in a few weeks). Clothing sizes however range greatly from one brand to another. Even before this, I was anything from a size 6 - 10 depending on where I got my clothes. How the heck is someone supposed to know their true size? No wonder women have such a squewed image of themselves. Yet again, why I envy men. Go into store, find something that looks like it'll fit. Try it on. Too small. Get next size up. Not freak out. Purchase and leave store never giving it a second thought.
Brad took James over to the in-laws last night. While there was so much I could have and maybe should have been doing, I chose to instead spend it reading in the bathtub. Oddly, it is exactly what I needed to find my new resolve. Much more relaxed feeling this morning and with a house full of healthy choice foods, I'm ready to take on the new day. I have a plan for tomorrow. The weather is supposed to be mild, if not a little windy...so James and I are going for a walk to the college. We've got nothing better to do. I had a lot of time to think last night too. Maybe I should work on getting my eating under control and focus on just that for a little while rather than try and kill myself outright with the exercise dvds. I came to this conclusion yesterday during the second TMT dvd. There I am, doing my ab workout, tears running down my face. Not tears of pain. Tears of utter frusturation, anger and self loathing that I allowed myself to get to this point. And for this, I wish I were a man. On TV last night there was a movie trailer on with oddly, Lou Farigno (the original Hulk) and he looks just as good as when he was on King of Queens, and I dare say, the Hulk. He never had to stall his life by giving up 9 months to intentially gain weight, lose the shape and size of body he worked hard to maintain, give birth, then try to crawl through the ashes to get back to where he is happy with himself. Men don't understand how hard this is. Their lives get to go on practically uninterrupted and our lives are never the same again. As a disgusting aside, my hoo-hoo feels like it will NEVER be the same again. The watermelon, grape anology remains intact.Here's another interesting though. Clothing sizes. I am able to wear my old Medium sized pajama/lounge pants that I had before I got pregnant. Even the kind with out stretch...while some of my new after pregnancy pants which are large (and yes, some extra large) don't fit quite so well. Last night as I was putting on some of my newer large sized bottoms, I noticed they aren't tight across the bum anymore (hadn't worn them in a few weeks). Clothing sizes however range greatly from one brand to another. Even before this, I was anything from a size 6 - 10 depending on where I got my clothes. How the heck is someone supposed to know their true size? No wonder women have such a squewed image of themselves. Yet again, why I envy men. Go into store, find something that looks like it'll fit. Try it on. Too small. Get next size up. Not freak out. Purchase and leave store never giving it a second thought.
Week 7 - Missing: Motivation Wanted: New Resolve
Once you lose the momentum it picks up again, going downhill fast. Looking over my past few weeks worth of blogs, I should have seen it coming. At least once a week there has been a blog complaining about how I'm just not "feeling it" anymore. This has suddenly become difficult for me. I'm not up for the challenge. It almost feels like acceptance that I will stay this way for the rest of my life at which point I will have a miserable existance.
Maybe it is the winter finally getting to me. I spend my days looking at the same four walls and mess. I look out the window and wish there were leaves on the trees. I am sad and a little depressed everytime I think about having to go back to work. I do not want to leave James. I don't want some system and establishment raising my son. I feel that is part of the "problem" with society today. Too many children are raised by daycares. Picking up bad habits from other children and the caretakers in these places. Of course, I'm the product of a stay at home Mom as is Brad and I don't know what the other side is like so it is just speculation. Unfortunately we do not have the option of me staying home as I, much like many females in today's society am the principal earner in the marriage and with the industry Brad is in with no stability at all, living on pins and needles each and every week, waiting for the other foot to fall...it is scary.Then again, I'm anxious to get back to work and my routine of going to the gym at lunch. I don't think I'll be able to walk to work anymore, especially if I can't get James in to the daycare I would like to get him into (shit...I really have to make that call to get him on a wait list...I however am in denial). I look forward to getting back "to my old life" strict schedule. Breakfast, lunch, snack, gym, dinner. Just seems easier.I'm excited about the up-coming softball season, after not being allowed to play last year (for obvious reasons) I can't wait to get back on the bench this year. Again, I'm nervous about that. What about James? Sounds like most of the season will again be double headers...while there weren't many 9:00 games, what happens then? Will my parents be able to watch James for the games? Will my Dad be well enough to come to the games this year? Will my wrist ever get better? I've been putting off calling the doctor. I don't think he'll do anything this time either. The stuff he gave me was for arthritis, made my pain worse and gave me a rash. Of course he didn't even look at it last time...just asked how my drug plan was. The pain is now to the point where I have trouble writing, turning door knobs, knitting and even washing dishes. Any movement that requires turning hurts. Feels like a tendon is catching on bone yeah, real pleasant. Don't know what that means for holding a bat...or pitching underhand. Throwing over hand isn't going to happen.I've got a lot on my mind. I didn't end up going to aerobics last night. I knew my exercise buddy wasn't going even before she told me...and we were out of even the simpliest food staples at home...so we got groceries. At least now it'll be easier for me to stay on track during the day. I've got my carrots and pickles again. Picked up some fresh vegetables and fruit. Plan on making a salad. Will exercise today if it kills me. I haven't in four days. I had planned on at least yoga last night but was so tired (another clue that I may be slipping into depression). I just need to remind myself why I'm doing this...once I figure out why I am doing this!
Maybe it is the winter finally getting to me. I spend my days looking at the same four walls and mess. I look out the window and wish there were leaves on the trees. I am sad and a little depressed everytime I think about having to go back to work. I do not want to leave James. I don't want some system and establishment raising my son. I feel that is part of the "problem" with society today. Too many children are raised by daycares. Picking up bad habits from other children and the caretakers in these places. Of course, I'm the product of a stay at home Mom as is Brad and I don't know what the other side is like so it is just speculation. Unfortunately we do not have the option of me staying home as I, much like many females in today's society am the principal earner in the marriage and with the industry Brad is in with no stability at all, living on pins and needles each and every week, waiting for the other foot to fall...it is scary.Then again, I'm anxious to get back to work and my routine of going to the gym at lunch. I don't think I'll be able to walk to work anymore, especially if I can't get James in to the daycare I would like to get him into (shit...I really have to make that call to get him on a wait list...I however am in denial). I look forward to getting back "to my old life" strict schedule. Breakfast, lunch, snack, gym, dinner. Just seems easier.I'm excited about the up-coming softball season, after not being allowed to play last year (for obvious reasons) I can't wait to get back on the bench this year. Again, I'm nervous about that. What about James? Sounds like most of the season will again be double headers...while there weren't many 9:00 games, what happens then? Will my parents be able to watch James for the games? Will my Dad be well enough to come to the games this year? Will my wrist ever get better? I've been putting off calling the doctor. I don't think he'll do anything this time either. The stuff he gave me was for arthritis, made my pain worse and gave me a rash. Of course he didn't even look at it last time...just asked how my drug plan was. The pain is now to the point where I have trouble writing, turning door knobs, knitting and even washing dishes. Any movement that requires turning hurts. Feels like a tendon is catching on bone yeah, real pleasant. Don't know what that means for holding a bat...or pitching underhand. Throwing over hand isn't going to happen.I've got a lot on my mind. I didn't end up going to aerobics last night. I knew my exercise buddy wasn't going even before she told me...and we were out of even the simpliest food staples at home...so we got groceries. At least now it'll be easier for me to stay on track during the day. I've got my carrots and pickles again. Picked up some fresh vegetables and fruit. Plan on making a salad. Will exercise today if it kills me. I haven't in four days. I had planned on at least yoga last night but was so tired (another clue that I may be slipping into depression). I just need to remind myself why I'm doing this...once I figure out why I am doing this!
Week 7 - Giving into Anxiety
Your chest tightens, your breathing turns first to a pant, then to full blown hyperventalation making it nearly impossible to catch your breath. In most occasions, I have learned to know and feel when one is coming on, take a step away from the situation and just breathe. One I was able to avoid, the other I did not this weekend.
Baby James did NOT have a good Friday. He was sobbing and hard to calm down all day. He cried from 12:30 (when we left him at my parents) until 4:00 when we got back. Even then he wouldn't have a nap or stop crying for longer than ten minute stretches. Growing pains and teething are not a good mix. Didn't get much sleep that night. Not necessarily because he was awake all night, but I am a worrier. "Will the new car sear we just bought fit in my small little car?" "What is wrong with James?" "Will he get over this stage of being fussy at my parents' house?" "Will I ever lose this weight and get my body back?" Friday food wise sucked. Lunch went okay. Turtle Jack's for a fajita wrap with a side salad. Chinese Food for dinner. Whoops. Hey, my parent's bought. We were going to buy them dinner for watching the crank pot...but ya know. Saturday as I was getting ready for the party...I found out a friend wasn't going. Even though other friend's of mine were going, it wasn't part of my plan for the night. I don't like change. I don't like when things don't go the way I thought they would. So I freaked out...had a little panic attack...and stood up the poor host of the party and didn't go. Even though my other friend called and asked if I needed a ride. I said no. I'm a horrible person. So because I was ashamed and embarrased I didn't go to the party even though I said I would, I had Taco Bell for dinner and chased it with a bag of Creamy Dill Pickle chips. Sunday was family day with the in-laws. I did realitively well (ha ha!) avoid the second panic attack by going to the bathroom to calm down from a conversation I didn't want to get into with MIL. Had three peices of veggie pizza from Zarky's (meh...how bad can that be right?). Didn't have any birthday cake...I'm not a big cake person, so that isn't so hard to do. Maybe 10 Ketchup Chips...Brad couldn't find any for me the night before. Of course when we got home...I finished off my bag of Dill chips...*SIGH*!Today am feeling bloated...but that is to be expected. There isn't much food in the house. All my "staples" are gone...baby carrots, yogurt, dill pickles...one egg left...no bread. Should make for an interesting day. Aerobics tonight...so afternoon yoga with the old dvd.Baby is yelling at me.
Baby James did NOT have a good Friday. He was sobbing and hard to calm down all day. He cried from 12:30 (when we left him at my parents) until 4:00 when we got back. Even then he wouldn't have a nap or stop crying for longer than ten minute stretches. Growing pains and teething are not a good mix. Didn't get much sleep that night. Not necessarily because he was awake all night, but I am a worrier. "Will the new car sear we just bought fit in my small little car?" "What is wrong with James?" "Will he get over this stage of being fussy at my parents' house?" "Will I ever lose this weight and get my body back?" Friday food wise sucked. Lunch went okay. Turtle Jack's for a fajita wrap with a side salad. Chinese Food for dinner. Whoops. Hey, my parent's bought. We were going to buy them dinner for watching the crank pot...but ya know. Saturday as I was getting ready for the party...I found out a friend wasn't going. Even though other friend's of mine were going, it wasn't part of my plan for the night. I don't like change. I don't like when things don't go the way I thought they would. So I freaked out...had a little panic attack...and stood up the poor host of the party and didn't go. Even though my other friend called and asked if I needed a ride. I said no. I'm a horrible person. So because I was ashamed and embarrased I didn't go to the party even though I said I would, I had Taco Bell for dinner and chased it with a bag of Creamy Dill Pickle chips. Sunday was family day with the in-laws. I did realitively well (ha ha!) avoid the second panic attack by going to the bathroom to calm down from a conversation I didn't want to get into with MIL. Had three peices of veggie pizza from Zarky's (meh...how bad can that be right?). Didn't have any birthday cake...I'm not a big cake person, so that isn't so hard to do. Maybe 10 Ketchup Chips...Brad couldn't find any for me the night before. Of course when we got home...I finished off my bag of Dill chips...*SIGH*!Today am feeling bloated...but that is to be expected. There isn't much food in the house. All my "staples" are gone...baby carrots, yogurt, dill pickles...one egg left...no bread. Should make for an interesting day. Aerobics tonight...so afternoon yoga with the old dvd.Baby is yelling at me.
Week 6 - THe Results Blog
-1.4 LOST!
All my hard work has paid off. I managed to lose 1.4 pounds this week. I've lost body fat (according to my scale) 34.9% which I'm estatic about...body fat is hard to lose...when I started I was at 37.5%. Of course, before I started I was at 27% body fat...can't dwell.My weight is logged in at 190.8 now. Even though I did good this week...considering the weekend I had...why do I still feel so very discouraged? It feels like I've been stuck in the 190's FOREVER. I can't wait until that second number is an "8". Even though it wasn't that long ago if felt like I was never going to get rid of that "2" in the beginning of my weight I can't celebrate those successes. I know I'm all about telling people to focus on the smaller success, don't focus so much on the scale...IT IS SO FREAKING HARD in practice! In my mind I believe if I get rid of that "9" a "7" and "6" and finally "5" and "4" will be easy sailing. Setting myself up for a downfall?
Stopping to think...maybe I'm not eating enough. I try to leave at least 2 points leftover each day. Maybe not such a good idea. I mean...look how I ate this past weekend and still managed to lose in three short days (let's be honest...Monday was still considered my weekend!). Then I considered "cheating". How easy it would be to go to the drugstore and pick up one of the many diet pills on the market. I've tried it previously...way before I got pregnant...didn't like it. Most have caffeine in them and with my current intake of my beverage of choice, my head just spins to the point it feels like I'm going to pass out. Oh I know! Sitting at my desk at work I was tormented for what seemed like forever about the "spackle" or "paste" that lines the wall of my colon...oddly I feel compelled to try it...if only I could remember what the product was called...;)So once again, it is the weekend. Brad has taken half the day off work so we can attend a funeral...and he's already mentioned we should go for lunch. Party this weekend. I've pulled a shoulder muscle. Wrist is so sore to the point I can't write. Have a good weekend all and happy eating!
All my hard work has paid off. I managed to lose 1.4 pounds this week. I've lost body fat (according to my scale) 34.9% which I'm estatic about...body fat is hard to lose...when I started I was at 37.5%. Of course, before I started I was at 27% body fat...can't dwell.My weight is logged in at 190.8 now. Even though I did good this week...considering the weekend I had...why do I still feel so very discouraged? It feels like I've been stuck in the 190's FOREVER. I can't wait until that second number is an "8". Even though it wasn't that long ago if felt like I was never going to get rid of that "2" in the beginning of my weight I can't celebrate those successes. I know I'm all about telling people to focus on the smaller success, don't focus so much on the scale...IT IS SO FREAKING HARD in practice! In my mind I believe if I get rid of that "9" a "7" and "6" and finally "5" and "4" will be easy sailing. Setting myself up for a downfall?
Stopping to think...maybe I'm not eating enough. I try to leave at least 2 points leftover each day. Maybe not such a good idea. I mean...look how I ate this past weekend and still managed to lose in three short days (let's be honest...Monday was still considered my weekend!). Then I considered "cheating". How easy it would be to go to the drugstore and pick up one of the many diet pills on the market. I've tried it previously...way before I got pregnant...didn't like it. Most have caffeine in them and with my current intake of my beverage of choice, my head just spins to the point it feels like I'm going to pass out. Oh I know! Sitting at my desk at work I was tormented for what seemed like forever about the "spackle" or "paste" that lines the wall of my colon...oddly I feel compelled to try it...if only I could remember what the product was called...;)So once again, it is the weekend. Brad has taken half the day off work so we can attend a funeral...and he's already mentioned we should go for lunch. Party this weekend. I've pulled a shoulder muscle. Wrist is so sore to the point I can't write. Have a good weekend all and happy eating!
Week 6 - New People and the Fat Chick
I'm really honestly and truly shy. I don't do small talk well. I'm not good at jumping into conversations. I get nervous and just start talking, talking over others a lot. I know it is rude when I'm doing it but yet I can't seem to stop myself. Verbal diaherra just starts and bluch...out comes something stupid leaving me feeling more anxious than normal. It takes me a while to feel comfortable around new people...sometimes even with the friends I have I get this way. I am stressing over the weekend this time for different reasons.
I have two challenges coming up for this weekend. One more difficult than the other and surprisingly the more challenging one has nothing to do with food. I am going to a party. A wine tasting party. Yes, there will be food and people I don't know...the party thrown by someone I'm just starting to get to know. The hostess is sweet. Actually asked if there was anything food wise she could do for me! I really don't think that is going to be a problem. I don't like eating in front of new people.I am finding my second challenge will be more difficult. I do not like meeting new people at the best of times. And now that I am 50 pounds over weight, it'll be even more difficult for me. I can't very well say..."Hi, I'm Kim. I'm not really fat honestly. I'm hoping this appearance is just temporary while I get my shit together and try desperately to lose 50 pounds. Here, look! Here's the proof...here's a picture of me in a two piece bathing suit taken just two years ago...here's a picutre of me two days after I found out I was pregnant...see...not fat..." Would people believe me? More over than that...would they even care? Probably not. I'm so worried about my image and what others think of me. I've never really thought that much about myself. In highschool I was invisable. I'm astounded when people actually remember who I was...probably more for my stomach growling in french class as some asshole laughs and calls me Animal and I turn red and try to ignore the comments...yeah...I knew what was going on behind my back...it made it all the worse. College, I made all of 4 friends (of course in college I gained the freshman 50 originally). 2 of those friends didn't make it past the first year and the other 2...were just class friends...one of which I maintained a relationship while I was working in Toronto and we'd go out for dinner on occasion. This is why I value the friends I have. Many...no...most of them are long term friends. Fiona I've known since grade nine and with her, the others came along. Kristen, Lisa, Donna...my cousin Jenny and now Ali, their friendship isn't based on apperances. I could look like a whale and they'd still be my friend. They know my struggle. They know how I feel about myself and accept me for me no matter what stupid thing I say or do. New people..? First impressions? I'll be too nervous to eat! What have I gotten myself into? So tomorrow is results day. While I still don't think I've broken out of the 190's...I don't think I'll have gained THANK GOD. After this past weekend...ouch. I'm working hard...headache that is threatening to become a migraine or not. Work through it.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Source Yogurt
1c 1% Milk (yay me!)
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 Calorie Snack Pack of Doritos
Water
Snack
Apple
Dinner
Um............uh-oh. Here we go. I'll tell you what it WON'T be. Stupid frozen pizza before a weigh in day. I'll figure something out.Wish me luck for tomorrow!
I have two challenges coming up for this weekend. One more difficult than the other and surprisingly the more challenging one has nothing to do with food. I am going to a party. A wine tasting party. Yes, there will be food and people I don't know...the party thrown by someone I'm just starting to get to know. The hostess is sweet. Actually asked if there was anything food wise she could do for me! I really don't think that is going to be a problem. I don't like eating in front of new people.I am finding my second challenge will be more difficult. I do not like meeting new people at the best of times. And now that I am 50 pounds over weight, it'll be even more difficult for me. I can't very well say..."Hi, I'm Kim. I'm not really fat honestly. I'm hoping this appearance is just temporary while I get my shit together and try desperately to lose 50 pounds. Here, look! Here's the proof...here's a picture of me in a two piece bathing suit taken just two years ago...here's a picutre of me two days after I found out I was pregnant...see...not fat..." Would people believe me? More over than that...would they even care? Probably not. I'm so worried about my image and what others think of me. I've never really thought that much about myself. In highschool I was invisable. I'm astounded when people actually remember who I was...probably more for my stomach growling in french class as some asshole laughs and calls me Animal and I turn red and try to ignore the comments...yeah...I knew what was going on behind my back...it made it all the worse. College, I made all of 4 friends (of course in college I gained the freshman 50 originally). 2 of those friends didn't make it past the first year and the other 2...were just class friends...one of which I maintained a relationship while I was working in Toronto and we'd go out for dinner on occasion. This is why I value the friends I have. Many...no...most of them are long term friends. Fiona I've known since grade nine and with her, the others came along. Kristen, Lisa, Donna...my cousin Jenny and now Ali, their friendship isn't based on apperances. I could look like a whale and they'd still be my friend. They know my struggle. They know how I feel about myself and accept me for me no matter what stupid thing I say or do. New people..? First impressions? I'll be too nervous to eat! What have I gotten myself into? So tomorrow is results day. While I still don't think I've broken out of the 190's...I don't think I'll have gained THANK GOD. After this past weekend...ouch. I'm working hard...headache that is threatening to become a migraine or not. Work through it.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Source Yogurt
1c 1% Milk (yay me!)
Black Coffee
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
1 lrg Egg
100 Calorie Snack Pack of Doritos
Water
Snack
Apple
Dinner
Um............uh-oh. Here we go. I'll tell you what it WON'T be. Stupid frozen pizza before a weigh in day. I'll figure something out.Wish me luck for tomorrow!
Week 6 - Work, Work, Work
Yesterday I got to work hard. James and I went for an hour an a half walk. It was such a nice day and the forecast for the rest of the week was dreary...I took the opportunity to break free from the four walls of my prison.
No rest for the wicked though. Still did the same exercise routine when I got home with the addition of a 60 minute yoga workout. God, I hope James' afternoon naps of at least an hour continue. What am I going to do when he grows out of that nap. We could do without the morning nap...I'd just write my blog later in the day...that afternoon one right now is my saviour. Which gets me thinking about a second baby. Obviously WAY to early for actual planning or even deciding if there will be one or not. However...right now it is easy for me. Having just one I can do a lot of things a mother of two (or 4 !) can do. But a friend is proving to me you can produce big weight loss numbers without exercise. So PROUD and I'll admit...a little jealous!
There is no way I'd consider having a second child until I'm close to or at my original weight. IF there is a second time around, the first thing I'm doing at the doctor is requesting a nutritionalist. I am full of regret not being able to maintain only a 35 pound weight gain. If only I had managed that, I wouldn't need to work as hard for as long as I need to.Last night I discovered I have a new food aversion. The night my water broke we went to the hospital and were sent home because contractions hadn't started yet. We hadn't eaten yet so we had the dinner we were planning on having before all hell broke loose. Cabbage rolls. Only 2 points each....and I only managed to eat 1 and a half last night for dinner. God, they turned my stomach. I guess it stirs up memories deep in the brain. Looks like that meal is off the menu for a while...even thinking of them today is making me sick. BLUCH! Interesting how that happens.Today's meal plan same old same old.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Only 1/2c Coffee...tastes like ass for some reason this morning...which would account for the headache
Lunch
Egg
2 slices Whole Wheat bread
100 calorie Snack pack of Dortios (out of carrots and pickles!)
Snack
Apple w/ cinnomon sugar
Dinner
Chicken w/ Cream of broccoli soup sauce
Broccoli (seamed 5 min with chicken and soup)
1/2c Coucous
1 c 1% Milk
Snack
Craisins
No rest for the wicked though. Still did the same exercise routine when I got home with the addition of a 60 minute yoga workout. God, I hope James' afternoon naps of at least an hour continue. What am I going to do when he grows out of that nap. We could do without the morning nap...I'd just write my blog later in the day...that afternoon one right now is my saviour. Which gets me thinking about a second baby. Obviously WAY to early for actual planning or even deciding if there will be one or not. However...right now it is easy for me. Having just one I can do a lot of things a mother of two (or 4 !) can do. But a friend is proving to me you can produce big weight loss numbers without exercise. So PROUD and I'll admit...a little jealous!
There is no way I'd consider having a second child until I'm close to or at my original weight. IF there is a second time around, the first thing I'm doing at the doctor is requesting a nutritionalist. I am full of regret not being able to maintain only a 35 pound weight gain. If only I had managed that, I wouldn't need to work as hard for as long as I need to.Last night I discovered I have a new food aversion. The night my water broke we went to the hospital and were sent home because contractions hadn't started yet. We hadn't eaten yet so we had the dinner we were planning on having before all hell broke loose. Cabbage rolls. Only 2 points each....and I only managed to eat 1 and a half last night for dinner. God, they turned my stomach. I guess it stirs up memories deep in the brain. Looks like that meal is off the menu for a while...even thinking of them today is making me sick. BLUCH! Interesting how that happens.Today's meal plan same old same old.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Only 1/2c Coffee...tastes like ass for some reason this morning...which would account for the headache
Lunch
Egg
2 slices Whole Wheat bread
100 calorie Snack pack of Dortios (out of carrots and pickles!)
Snack
Apple w/ cinnomon sugar
Dinner
Chicken w/ Cream of broccoli soup sauce
Broccoli (seamed 5 min with chicken and soup)
1/2c Coucous
1 c 1% Milk
Snack
Craisins
Week 6 - Trailing Behind the Wagon
Glad that weekend is over and done with. PHEW. I think I got out of it alive. This bloatedness will go away once I down about two litres of water. No easy feat but do-able. I found some Crystal Lite downstairs in the panty yesterday when I was figuring out what to make for dinner.
Which leads me into today's rant. "Health Check" symbols and food. The other day I was wandering around Shopper's Drugmart waiting for my prescription to be filled. While waiting at the cash I noticed a box of Craisin 100 Calorie snacks. It had the "Health Check" symbol on the front. I know Cranberries are good for you and beneficial to a healthy lifestyle so I thought I'd give them a go...not thinking anything of it as I threw them on the counter.At home I then decide to check out the package a little bit better. At the grocery store I am very aware of the nutitional content of foods. That's how you figure out the point value for Weight Watchers. I always check the serving size, calories, fat content and fiber. The Craisins are in 100 calories snack packs...and that is about all they have going for them. The box indicates they are a source of fiber...only 7% of your daily intake. No vitamins at all. 23g of Carbs. Basically no point in eating this snack at all. MAYBE if you're creative and throw it into your morning cereal for some added "oomph". The snack packs of 100 calorie Doritos even have some calcium and iron in them. Plus I've learned not to buy certain cereals. I LOVE cereal. I sometimes have a bowl for a snack. Most cereals are only 2 points as long as you stick the the serving size. I absolutely love Frosted Mini Wheats. But I tend to dump the box in my bowl and not count out the 25 that is a serving size. Sometimes I'd buy a more exciting cereal as my "weekend" cereal. Don't think I can do that anymore. That 3/4c of Golden Grahams suddenly is actually 2c and I still only count it as a 3 pointer. Serving size...all about serving size and only cheating yourself.Moral of this story? Stick with the "natural" snack foods. Raw vegetables and fruit. Yogurt. I am learning that food is to help substain a body. If there is no point in eating it...why bother?Today I'm getting back on track. The menu is all planned out. Once James wakes up we're going for a walk. It looks like a beautiful day and I want out of this house before the rain starts again tomorrow. So walk and TMT is in store for today. Need to make up ground. Due to the holiday yesterday there wasn't an aerobics class.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack
Craisins
Lunch
2 Slices Whole Wheat Bread
1/4c Tuna & Lite Mayo
10 Baby Carrots
Calorie Wise Poppy Seed Dressing
Snack
Apple & Cinnomon Sugar
Dinner
5 Cabbage Rolls
1c 1% Milk
Which leads me into today's rant. "Health Check" symbols and food. The other day I was wandering around Shopper's Drugmart waiting for my prescription to be filled. While waiting at the cash I noticed a box of Craisin 100 Calorie snacks. It had the "Health Check" symbol on the front. I know Cranberries are good for you and beneficial to a healthy lifestyle so I thought I'd give them a go...not thinking anything of it as I threw them on the counter.At home I then decide to check out the package a little bit better. At the grocery store I am very aware of the nutitional content of foods. That's how you figure out the point value for Weight Watchers. I always check the serving size, calories, fat content and fiber. The Craisins are in 100 calories snack packs...and that is about all they have going for them. The box indicates they are a source of fiber...only 7% of your daily intake. No vitamins at all. 23g of Carbs. Basically no point in eating this snack at all. MAYBE if you're creative and throw it into your morning cereal for some added "oomph". The snack packs of 100 calorie Doritos even have some calcium and iron in them. Plus I've learned not to buy certain cereals. I LOVE cereal. I sometimes have a bowl for a snack. Most cereals are only 2 points as long as you stick the the serving size. I absolutely love Frosted Mini Wheats. But I tend to dump the box in my bowl and not count out the 25 that is a serving size. Sometimes I'd buy a more exciting cereal as my "weekend" cereal. Don't think I can do that anymore. That 3/4c of Golden Grahams suddenly is actually 2c and I still only count it as a 3 pointer. Serving size...all about serving size and only cheating yourself.Moral of this story? Stick with the "natural" snack foods. Raw vegetables and fruit. Yogurt. I am learning that food is to help substain a body. If there is no point in eating it...why bother?Today I'm getting back on track. The menu is all planned out. Once James wakes up we're going for a walk. It looks like a beautiful day and I want out of this house before the rain starts again tomorrow. So walk and TMT is in store for today. Need to make up ground. Due to the holiday yesterday there wasn't an aerobics class.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack
Craisins
Lunch
2 Slices Whole Wheat Bread
1/4c Tuna & Lite Mayo
10 Baby Carrots
Calorie Wise Poppy Seed Dressing
Snack
Apple & Cinnomon Sugar
Dinner
5 Cabbage Rolls
1c 1% Milk
Week 6 - The L-O-N-G Weekend Challenge
Once again, weekends are my downfall. This time I knowingly and willfully ate more than I should in an effort to dull the pit of anger and rage that was swelling in my gut. Better to fill it with pizza and crazy bread than to say something completely and utterly disrespectful and rude...more so than the snide responses I managed to get off.
Enough about that. It matters not what caused it. What matters now is what it'll cause. Friday was supposed to be "me" day. Forget about points and enjoy my Valentine's Dinner with the husband. We went to Mexicali Rosa's where I had a chimichonga (chicken), fiesta rice and beans. Passed on dessert...the whole reason we went their in the first place! YAY me...oh...does anyone know how many points are in a Margarita?Saturday started off planned like everyday. Had my normal good girl breakfast and lunch...complete with carrot sticks. Then in one fell swoop it all went to shit. By the time my visitors left we didn't feel like cooking and by chance had recieved a flier for Little Ceasar's Pizza just that day...so we had pizza, garlic sticks (with cheese) and crazy bread. I had half the order of garlic sticks, three crazy breads...and hey...only 2 slices of a medium pizza...vegetarian pizza...that's gotta count for something right? Oh...and I made cup cakes for Brad for Valentine's Day...had a few of those.Sunday was no better. Di dn't measure my miniwheats. Had another cupcake...three (possibly four) pieces of the left over pizza for lunch...countless 2 point snacks...and three weiner wraps for dinner. Obviously I was still stewing. Why I let someone effect me in such a way is beyond me. I'm letting them win by doing this to myself. But since I'm not "THAT" fat...GAH!Today is back on the wagon. Day starting off typical. Typical breakfast. Filling myself with coffee. At noon will switch to water. My parents are coming for dinner. Don't know what we're having but I do know it involves pork chops. My parents are very picky eaters...so this should be interesting. Lunch will be typical without my dill pickle...I'm out! And almost out of carrots...what will I do! Must go shopping.I'm going to have to be very diciplined this week to try to minimize the damage I did these past three days. If I have another week of gain, I will not be surprised. I will just have to work harder next week and figure out how to handle weekends. Happy Family Day fellow Ontarians! May your family NOT drive you to eat and drink.
Enough about that. It matters not what caused it. What matters now is what it'll cause. Friday was supposed to be "me" day. Forget about points and enjoy my Valentine's Dinner with the husband. We went to Mexicali Rosa's where I had a chimichonga (chicken), fiesta rice and beans. Passed on dessert...the whole reason we went their in the first place! YAY me...oh...does anyone know how many points are in a Margarita?Saturday started off planned like everyday. Had my normal good girl breakfast and lunch...complete with carrot sticks. Then in one fell swoop it all went to shit. By the time my visitors left we didn't feel like cooking and by chance had recieved a flier for Little Ceasar's Pizza just that day...so we had pizza, garlic sticks (with cheese) and crazy bread. I had half the order of garlic sticks, three crazy breads...and hey...only 2 slices of a medium pizza...vegetarian pizza...that's gotta count for something right? Oh...and I made cup cakes for Brad for Valentine's Day...had a few of those.Sunday was no better. Di dn't measure my miniwheats. Had another cupcake...three (possibly four) pieces of the left over pizza for lunch...countless 2 point snacks...and three weiner wraps for dinner. Obviously I was still stewing. Why I let someone effect me in such a way is beyond me. I'm letting them win by doing this to myself. But since I'm not "THAT" fat...GAH!Today is back on the wagon. Day starting off typical. Typical breakfast. Filling myself with coffee. At noon will switch to water. My parents are coming for dinner. Don't know what we're having but I do know it involves pork chops. My parents are very picky eaters...so this should be interesting. Lunch will be typical without my dill pickle...I'm out! And almost out of carrots...what will I do! Must go shopping.I'm going to have to be very diciplined this week to try to minimize the damage I did these past three days. If I have another week of gain, I will not be surprised. I will just have to work harder next week and figure out how to handle weekends. Happy Family Day fellow Ontarians! May your family NOT drive you to eat and drink.
Week 5 - The Results Blog
*SIGH* Can you say "holding pattern"? I knew you could!
I knew the outcome before I got on the scale this morning. Yes. I gained. I gained 0.4 this week. 0.4. That's like an article of clothing...too bad I was naked...I know, I know...TMI. +0.4 that's like nothing right? So why does it feel like I gained a mountain? I knew after yesterday's indiscressions it wasn't going to be pretty. I am more mad at myself than anything. I worked hard all week. I didn't go into my flex points once in anticipation of going out for dinner tonight. But for alas...0.4 gained. AND I'm still waiting for your know what to start...freaking out just a little bit...I mean, after a year of trying the first time, forgetting a pill now and then the first month back on the pill won't make the magic happen again would it? Nah, this is just normal bloating. Everything is perfectly normal...forget the fact that this EXACT day last year I found out I was pregnant. Nope. Not happening. This was just my monthly gain and 0.4 isn't bad at all.Paranoia aside, let us focus on the positives shall we? Clothes fitting better. Check. Ate more fruit and vegetables this week. Check. Started drinking lots and lots of water again. Check. Energy level is up. Check. So with all these positives, how can I be upset with myself? I'll just have to work twice as hard next week.So tune in next Friday when I FINALLY break out of the 190's. Hey, I've come along way already. I was 204 when I rejoined Weight Watchers in November. Total loss to date of 11.8 pounds. 45.8 pounds since I gave birth. I can't complain about that right? RIGHT. GO ME. Woooooooooooooooooo (the preceeding comment was dripping in sarcasm which doesn't play well in writing).
I knew the outcome before I got on the scale this morning. Yes. I gained. I gained 0.4 this week. 0.4. That's like an article of clothing...too bad I was naked...I know, I know...TMI. +0.4 that's like nothing right? So why does it feel like I gained a mountain? I knew after yesterday's indiscressions it wasn't going to be pretty. I am more mad at myself than anything. I worked hard all week. I didn't go into my flex points once in anticipation of going out for dinner tonight. But for alas...0.4 gained. AND I'm still waiting for your know what to start...freaking out just a little bit...I mean, after a year of trying the first time, forgetting a pill now and then the first month back on the pill won't make the magic happen again would it? Nah, this is just normal bloating. Everything is perfectly normal...forget the fact that this EXACT day last year I found out I was pregnant. Nope. Not happening. This was just my monthly gain and 0.4 isn't bad at all.Paranoia aside, let us focus on the positives shall we? Clothes fitting better. Check. Ate more fruit and vegetables this week. Check. Started drinking lots and lots of water again. Check. Energy level is up. Check. So with all these positives, how can I be upset with myself? I'll just have to work twice as hard next week.So tune in next Friday when I FINALLY break out of the 190's. Hey, I've come along way already. I was 204 when I rejoined Weight Watchers in November. Total loss to date of 11.8 pounds. 45.8 pounds since I gave birth. I can't complain about that right? RIGHT. GO ME. Woooooooooooooooooo (the preceeding comment was dripping in sarcasm which doesn't play well in writing).
Week 5 - Does One Day Make a Difference?
Whoops. A known fact about me. I am anal retentive. I like routine. I like to stick to a strict schedule. I do not adapt well to change. I enjoy being a hermit. I know what works for me. Today was one of those days where life must happen regardless of what your goals are and what your plans for a normal day usually are.
My days are pretty much the same. James wakes up anywhere between 7:00am and 8:30am. We get out of bed. Watch the morning news. Ellen comes on at 9 (anal to the point where I have the satellite to come on automatically) 10:00 satellite switches to Seasame Street usually at this time James will have his nap. I will put the baby down, get dressed (hopefully remember to brush my teeth) and sit down to write my daily blog. Baby will wake up. Feed baby. I have lunch. We play. James will have his second nap between 1 and 3. At this time I exercise. Brad comes home. Dinner. Feed baby. Watch tv. Put baby to bed, shower and go to sleep. Pretty straight forward. I have set times for breakfast, snacks, lunch and dinner. So what happens when James must go for his 2nd Booster Shots and I'm not home all day?The day started off routine. Breakfast was the usual. Stopped off at Tim Horton's and got a black coffee and double doubles for the parents. Mom opened her Valentine's Chocolates....I refused any...Mom went to make lunch...turkey salad sandwich (on white bread eek!) and when no one was in the room with me I had a turtle. No problem...one won't hurt. Had lunch. Took James to doctor...we to Walmart...back to parent's. Mom opened Sun Chips. Initally told myself I wasn't going to have any...but ended up eating them any way. Had a cookie at my parents. Mom and Dad have a tradition of giving us kids valentine's chocolates...nothing big, just a small heart of 5 chocolates...ate those and a Nature Valley bar (for 4 points) when I got home. Went a little crazy today I think. Dinner was healthy bake fish fillets and french fries.Currently at 7:30pm I am trying to drink my entire day's water in three hours hoping and praying it will cleans my system for tomorrow's weigh in. I was expecting and hoping to break out of the 190's tomorrow. Probably not going to happen now. Just another one of life's lessons that there are no days off. "Just one little..." will make a difference and I have no one to blame but myself. I'll tell myself one thing then the food goes out and I can't seem to stop myself.On a positve note, I must tell of my small victory from yesterday. I had planned on going over points at dinner yesterday. Dinner wasn't planned and we were just going to have frozen pizza. Each slice is five points. I only had 10 points left for the day. I PLANNED on having four slices like I usually do (Brad and I split the pizza evenly). While dinner was cooking, I checked my e-mail. Waiting for me was an e-mail from another one of my close and special friends. We're struggling though this weight thing together. She e-mailed me her daily journal. In reading her journal and thoughts for that day I felt guilty. And was reminded why I'm doing this. I cheat on Weight Watchers for just one day and it'll come back to haunt me. The amount of sodium alone in frozen pizza is enough to gain a pound! So thanks to her...I only had the two slices and NOTHING else to eat for the rest of the night. Oddly...I was satified with eating only the two. I didn't need the four to not be hungry. Proof that it is all in the head. Thank you and Happy Birthday my friend...I didn't forget...life happens. See you on the 28th to celebrate :DTomorrow is results day...stay tuned...I already know how it'll end....TOM and stupid bad day today.
My days are pretty much the same. James wakes up anywhere between 7:00am and 8:30am. We get out of bed. Watch the morning news. Ellen comes on at 9 (anal to the point where I have the satellite to come on automatically) 10:00 satellite switches to Seasame Street usually at this time James will have his nap. I will put the baby down, get dressed (hopefully remember to brush my teeth) and sit down to write my daily blog. Baby will wake up. Feed baby. I have lunch. We play. James will have his second nap between 1 and 3. At this time I exercise. Brad comes home. Dinner. Feed baby. Watch tv. Put baby to bed, shower and go to sleep. Pretty straight forward. I have set times for breakfast, snacks, lunch and dinner. So what happens when James must go for his 2nd Booster Shots and I'm not home all day?The day started off routine. Breakfast was the usual. Stopped off at Tim Horton's and got a black coffee and double doubles for the parents. Mom opened her Valentine's Chocolates....I refused any...Mom went to make lunch...turkey salad sandwich (on white bread eek!) and when no one was in the room with me I had a turtle. No problem...one won't hurt. Had lunch. Took James to doctor...we to Walmart...back to parent's. Mom opened Sun Chips. Initally told myself I wasn't going to have any...but ended up eating them any way. Had a cookie at my parents. Mom and Dad have a tradition of giving us kids valentine's chocolates...nothing big, just a small heart of 5 chocolates...ate those and a Nature Valley bar (for 4 points) when I got home. Went a little crazy today I think. Dinner was healthy bake fish fillets and french fries.Currently at 7:30pm I am trying to drink my entire day's water in three hours hoping and praying it will cleans my system for tomorrow's weigh in. I was expecting and hoping to break out of the 190's tomorrow. Probably not going to happen now. Just another one of life's lessons that there are no days off. "Just one little..." will make a difference and I have no one to blame but myself. I'll tell myself one thing then the food goes out and I can't seem to stop myself.On a positve note, I must tell of my small victory from yesterday. I had planned on going over points at dinner yesterday. Dinner wasn't planned and we were just going to have frozen pizza. Each slice is five points. I only had 10 points left for the day. I PLANNED on having four slices like I usually do (Brad and I split the pizza evenly). While dinner was cooking, I checked my e-mail. Waiting for me was an e-mail from another one of my close and special friends. We're struggling though this weight thing together. She e-mailed me her daily journal. In reading her journal and thoughts for that day I felt guilty. And was reminded why I'm doing this. I cheat on Weight Watchers for just one day and it'll come back to haunt me. The amount of sodium alone in frozen pizza is enough to gain a pound! So thanks to her...I only had the two slices and NOTHING else to eat for the rest of the night. Oddly...I was satified with eating only the two. I didn't need the four to not be hungry. Proof that it is all in the head. Thank you and Happy Birthday my friend...I didn't forget...life happens. See you on the 28th to celebrate :DTomorrow is results day...stay tuned...I already know how it'll end....TOM and stupid bad day today.
Week 5 - All in All it's Just Another Notch in the Belt
I was really hoping to get out for a walk today. Stuipd rain. Gah...if it's not snowing, it is raining. Yesterday was beautiful but decided yesterday was laundry day and today would be out in the world day. Bah. James and I are having a lazy day. Neither of us appear to be anxious to do much of anything today. Should be great times getting movtivated later today to get off my ass and hit play on the good ol' dvd.
Speaking of dvd. Yesterday on Ten Mintue Trainer (TMT) was only cardio day so I went back to Jillian for a full 20 minutes rather than just the 10. I think once I'm done with the 30 days of TMT I'm going back to Jillian. I feel like I get a better work out. She's more encouraging and shows what not to do when completing moves. Today I'm sore in places I'm not usually. Now that my knee is better I can do the moves and my endurance is better. Since I paid a lot of money out for TMT I'm going to stick it out for another three weeks.
When I finally was able to get dressed this morning, put on my jeans and belt. Low and behold, another notch down! Whoooo! I am SOOOO tempted to sneak a peak at my measurements. Have resisted up until this point. I already obsess about the scale, I don't need to be obsessing about this too. That is just a step away from what you see in tv movies, I'm putting my poop in a food scale, purging and weighing that and tracking it in a journal. As it is I find myself on my scale at 2:30 in the morning while I'm waiting for a bottle to warm up for James.
Yesterday I ate a LOT...but it was all within point range. It is hard to believe that eating more will help you lose weight. We'll see if it is true on Friday.
Yesterday looked like:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Lunch
1 lrg Egg (lots of ketchup)
2 Slices Whole Wheat bread
Dill Pickle
10 baby carrots
1/2 c Calorie Wise Lemon Poppy Seed dressing for dip
1c 1% Milk(was very satisfied feeling after this lunch!)
Dinner
Vegetable Lasagna
Snack
Nature Valley Sweet & Salty Bar
Speaking of dvd. Yesterday on Ten Mintue Trainer (TMT) was only cardio day so I went back to Jillian for a full 20 minutes rather than just the 10. I think once I'm done with the 30 days of TMT I'm going back to Jillian. I feel like I get a better work out. She's more encouraging and shows what not to do when completing moves. Today I'm sore in places I'm not usually. Now that my knee is better I can do the moves and my endurance is better. Since I paid a lot of money out for TMT I'm going to stick it out for another three weeks.
When I finally was able to get dressed this morning, put on my jeans and belt. Low and behold, another notch down! Whoooo! I am SOOOO tempted to sneak a peak at my measurements. Have resisted up until this point. I already obsess about the scale, I don't need to be obsessing about this too. That is just a step away from what you see in tv movies, I'm putting my poop in a food scale, purging and weighing that and tracking it in a journal. As it is I find myself on my scale at 2:30 in the morning while I'm waiting for a bottle to warm up for James.
Yesterday I ate a LOT...but it was all within point range. It is hard to believe that eating more will help you lose weight. We'll see if it is true on Friday.
Yesterday looked like:
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Lunch
1 lrg Egg (lots of ketchup)
2 Slices Whole Wheat bread
Dill Pickle
10 baby carrots
1/2 c Calorie Wise Lemon Poppy Seed dressing for dip
1c 1% Milk(was very satisfied feeling after this lunch!)
Dinner
Vegetable Lasagna
Snack
Nature Valley Sweet & Salty Bar
Week 5 - Exercise Buddies and the Unsuspecting Motivators
Last night was aerobics class. I'll admit. I'm not the most co-ordinated person there. I'm certainly not the hardest working. There are times I'm sure I've made the instructor laugh as I'm facing the class doing exactly the opposite of what I'm supposed to be doing. I do however try and sometimes that is all that matters.
When doing something like this that you hate, it is best to have a friend to struggle right along with you. I did NOT want to go to aerobics last night. I had a "challenging" day with James to say the least. I'm not sure what is going on with him. It may be a growth spurt. He was hungry every three hours and cranky the other two. We've even started him on a little bit of rice cereal to see if that will keep him fuller longer. They grow up so fast and it is really rather depressing....but again, that is another blog. Laying on the couch waiting to leave for the class I said to Brad I really didn't want to go tonight. He said, don't go. That was not an option. I knew my exercise buddy would be there. She was the only reason I went last night. I didn't want to let her down. I know I wouldn't want to be "stood up" at exercise class so I got up off my ass and out the door. While my energy level is up I think my co-ordination issues are holding me back. Of course when Kristen (aka exercise buddy) got there I tried to convince her to ditch the session with me and head over to Starbucks. She was all for it...but in the end we ended up staying and working our asses off. Gotta love those lunges back and forth across the gym.The other kind of motivator are the unsuspecting and somewhat rude people. You want to piss me off? Tell me I can't do something. I'm stubborn that way...or maybe I just have issue with being told what to do...always have and always will. Hmmm...guess I was "challenging" for my parents. *SIGH* some of the fights we used to have...good times...good times.
About a month before I had the baby Brad and I attended a wedding. I was large and uncomfortable and sat in a corner for all of it but someone who has (surprising to me) become someone special to me was getting married and I had to be there. There wasn't any assigned seating and by the time we waddled down to see if there were any seats they only ones available were with a couple we didn't know. I'm not good with new people and horrible at small talk so most of the conversation revoloved around my obvious pregnancy. I of course bitched about the weight I had gained throughout and that I couldn't wait to lose it. I was rather taken aback when the lady told me I never would. It would never go away. Clearly she didn't know me. I didn't take it personally. Throughout my pregnancy I've had various women tell me to kiss my body good bye. I'd like to see in what manual does it say that you can say anything no matter how rude the question or comment to a pregnant woman. I'm surprised there aren't more homicides perputrated by pregnant women against some unfortunate asshole who asks a random stranger in the grocery store if she was having twins. Um lady, hey, at least I had an excuse for being fat...what was YOURS? Tell me I can't do something and I'll prove you wrong. Everytime.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack
Baby Carrots
Lunch
Egg
2 slices whole wheat bread
Milk
Fiber One Bar
Snack
Small Apple
Dinner
Vegetable Lasagna
Milk
When doing something like this that you hate, it is best to have a friend to struggle right along with you. I did NOT want to go to aerobics last night. I had a "challenging" day with James to say the least. I'm not sure what is going on with him. It may be a growth spurt. He was hungry every three hours and cranky the other two. We've even started him on a little bit of rice cereal to see if that will keep him fuller longer. They grow up so fast and it is really rather depressing....but again, that is another blog. Laying on the couch waiting to leave for the class I said to Brad I really didn't want to go tonight. He said, don't go. That was not an option. I knew my exercise buddy would be there. She was the only reason I went last night. I didn't want to let her down. I know I wouldn't want to be "stood up" at exercise class so I got up off my ass and out the door. While my energy level is up I think my co-ordination issues are holding me back. Of course when Kristen (aka exercise buddy) got there I tried to convince her to ditch the session with me and head over to Starbucks. She was all for it...but in the end we ended up staying and working our asses off. Gotta love those lunges back and forth across the gym.The other kind of motivator are the unsuspecting and somewhat rude people. You want to piss me off? Tell me I can't do something. I'm stubborn that way...or maybe I just have issue with being told what to do...always have and always will. Hmmm...guess I was "challenging" for my parents. *SIGH* some of the fights we used to have...good times...good times.
About a month before I had the baby Brad and I attended a wedding. I was large and uncomfortable and sat in a corner for all of it but someone who has (surprising to me) become someone special to me was getting married and I had to be there. There wasn't any assigned seating and by the time we waddled down to see if there were any seats they only ones available were with a couple we didn't know. I'm not good with new people and horrible at small talk so most of the conversation revoloved around my obvious pregnancy. I of course bitched about the weight I had gained throughout and that I couldn't wait to lose it. I was rather taken aback when the lady told me I never would. It would never go away. Clearly she didn't know me. I didn't take it personally. Throughout my pregnancy I've had various women tell me to kiss my body good bye. I'd like to see in what manual does it say that you can say anything no matter how rude the question or comment to a pregnant woman. I'm surprised there aren't more homicides perputrated by pregnant women against some unfortunate asshole who asks a random stranger in the grocery store if she was having twins. Um lady, hey, at least I had an excuse for being fat...what was YOURS? Tell me I can't do something and I'll prove you wrong. Everytime.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack
Baby Carrots
Lunch
Egg
2 slices whole wheat bread
Milk
Fiber One Bar
Snack
Small Apple
Dinner
Vegetable Lasagna
Milk
Week 5 - Old Habits Die HARD
I'm at it again. I started out with good intentions on Saturday. Wrote breakfast down...and that's where it ended. We were busy Saturday. Our day to go out and do stuff...but doing it while fitting in to the baby's schedule. He's been getting cranky lately. He'll be 4 months (already!) on Wednesday and he has his schedule set. Lately he's been really cranky at Grandma and Grandpa's house especially when he misses a nap. All that running around and I was HUNGRY...what to have for lunch? Wendy's.
I think I made smart choices at Wendy's. Instead of fries I had the baked potato, no butter, sour cream and chives and the Chicken Grill sandwich. 6 points for the chicken and 7 for the potato. Not much snacking Saturday. Dinner was spaghetti without meatballs. Sunday I snacked on two sweet and salty bars 4 points each and we went to my parents for a turkey dinner...chocolate cake for dessert. Today I'm bloated gah...I HATE being a girl.
Exercise wise today is at home yoga and aerobics class day. I've got to start drinking more water again. I put it off last week. Didn't have any motivation and was very hungry (I'm sure it was all in my head) all weekend (PMSing like crazy mad). I'm just doing the best I can, struggling to keep my head above water, sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I wish our area had a "Mommy and Me" Weight Watchers meeting. Sometimes it is easier knowing you are not alone in your struggle.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Source Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack
Nature Valley Sweet and Salty bar
Lunch
Egg English Muffin
1/2 oz Cheese (tip 4 "dice sized" cubes of cheese = 1oz)
Milk
Water
Dinner
1c Left over Spaghetti
1c Milk
Snack Apple
I think I made smart choices at Wendy's. Instead of fries I had the baked potato, no butter, sour cream and chives and the Chicken Grill sandwich. 6 points for the chicken and 7 for the potato. Not much snacking Saturday. Dinner was spaghetti without meatballs. Sunday I snacked on two sweet and salty bars 4 points each and we went to my parents for a turkey dinner...chocolate cake for dessert. Today I'm bloated gah...I HATE being a girl.
Exercise wise today is at home yoga and aerobics class day. I've got to start drinking more water again. I put it off last week. Didn't have any motivation and was very hungry (I'm sure it was all in my head) all weekend (PMSing like crazy mad). I'm just doing the best I can, struggling to keep my head above water, sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I wish our area had a "Mommy and Me" Weight Watchers meeting. Sometimes it is easier knowing you are not alone in your struggle.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Source Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack
Nature Valley Sweet and Salty bar
Lunch
Egg English Muffin
1/2 oz Cheese (tip 4 "dice sized" cubes of cheese = 1oz)
Milk
Water
Dinner
1c Left over Spaghetti
1c Milk
Snack Apple
Week 4 - The Results Blog
With mixed emotions I am reporting on my progress for this week. Wasn't sure how it was going to turn out. I even had my "excuses" ready for a gain. I'm bloated. Stupid birth control pill. Retaining water. PMS like you wouldn't believe blah blah blah.
I did manage to lose 1.6 pounds this week. Not sure how I feel about that. Last week's loss was huge. Mostly water weight I would assume. I knew rationally that I wouldn't be able to maintain that kind of loss week after week. 1.6 is still pretty good. It is a "healthy" weight loss amount for a week. Can I be frank? I WANT OUT OF MY GRANNY PANTIES AND BACK INTO MY THONG!
Okay, let's look at the bright side. My energy level is way up. I can able to go through my entire cardio dvd without stopping once. I am able to do all the moves (on cardio...abs is another story). When I first started, the last move on the Cardio dvd is hopping backward for four hops, then run forward to your starting position. Oddly, I could NOT hop back. I could only manage pathetic little skips back. Now I am able to get back a foot at a time. My the pain in my knees has disappeared completly. I attribute that to yoga...for those who say it isn't exercise...give it a week. As I mentioned before, the jeans are fitting better. I am just really impatient. I want what I want and I want it NOW. No...what I really want is Golden's Fish and Chips...mmmmm...pure greasy goodness. Deep fried and tasty. Oh...Taco Bell how I want you. Fries Supreme. Come to me you dirty bitch! No...no no no no! Fight it. Must fight it.Anyway the weight this week is 191.8. Did not reach my goal of breaking out of the 190's. I'll hold that goal over for next week. No rest for the wicked apparently. No rest or Gordita crunch apparently.
Last night's dinner ended up being 5 Healthy Bake Fish "Fingers" from Highliner 5 for 3 points. Plus homemade "french fries". Just potatoes cut up and done in the oven for 45 mintues at 425 to make them nice and crunchy for an almost "deep fried" taste. This time I went crazy though. I sprinkled them with a little olive oil, lite parmasgean cheese and garlic powder. TO DIE FOR!
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Coffee
Lunch
I'm contemplating a Lean Cusine Dinner
Snack
Fiber One Bar (hey, gotta stay regular)
Dinner I'm thinking ready made meat lasagna
Happy weekend! OH SHIT! THE WEEKEND IS HERE AGAIN.
I did manage to lose 1.6 pounds this week. Not sure how I feel about that. Last week's loss was huge. Mostly water weight I would assume. I knew rationally that I wouldn't be able to maintain that kind of loss week after week. 1.6 is still pretty good. It is a "healthy" weight loss amount for a week. Can I be frank? I WANT OUT OF MY GRANNY PANTIES AND BACK INTO MY THONG!
Okay, let's look at the bright side. My energy level is way up. I can able to go through my entire cardio dvd without stopping once. I am able to do all the moves (on cardio...abs is another story). When I first started, the last move on the Cardio dvd is hopping backward for four hops, then run forward to your starting position. Oddly, I could NOT hop back. I could only manage pathetic little skips back. Now I am able to get back a foot at a time. My the pain in my knees has disappeared completly. I attribute that to yoga...for those who say it isn't exercise...give it a week. As I mentioned before, the jeans are fitting better. I am just really impatient. I want what I want and I want it NOW. No...what I really want is Golden's Fish and Chips...mmmmm...pure greasy goodness. Deep fried and tasty. Oh...Taco Bell how I want you. Fries Supreme. Come to me you dirty bitch! No...no no no no! Fight it. Must fight it.Anyway the weight this week is 191.8. Did not reach my goal of breaking out of the 190's. I'll hold that goal over for next week. No rest for the wicked apparently. No rest or Gordita crunch apparently.
Last night's dinner ended up being 5 Healthy Bake Fish "Fingers" from Highliner 5 for 3 points. Plus homemade "french fries". Just potatoes cut up and done in the oven for 45 mintues at 425 to make them nice and crunchy for an almost "deep fried" taste. This time I went crazy though. I sprinkled them with a little olive oil, lite parmasgean cheese and garlic powder. TO DIE FOR!
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Coffee
Lunch
I'm contemplating a Lean Cusine Dinner
Snack
Fiber One Bar (hey, gotta stay regular)
Dinner I'm thinking ready made meat lasagna
Happy weekend! OH SHIT! THE WEEKEND IS HERE AGAIN.
Week 4 - Feeling Discouraged
Yesterday was exhausting. James was a crank pot. I attempted cleaning the bathroom. I feel horrible for having a filthy house and even worse for taking the time to clean when I could be playing with the baby. Plus I did his laundry, our laundry. Entertained James, who did not take a nap. And made dinner. I could have skipped out on my dvd yesterday. Almost did. Instead told the husband he was watching the baby and at 7:30 at night did my "thang".
No rest for the wicked. After was done my 20 minutes of 10 Mintue Trainer (again, wtf is that?) did the dishes and started to sterilize the bottles...old school...in a pot of boiling water. Brad fed James we put him to bed then FINALLY at 10:30 I got a shower. The driveway didn't get shovelled. Don't know if Brad ended up doing it. That's just one more thing I refuse to do. I DO NOT 1. Clean the litter box 2. Take garbage our 3. Shovel any more...did it for the first three years and am now done.Feeling run down and I think a little bit of depression is leaching in. I don't think I'm going to see any movement this week. And I'm not sure why. Normally I'll say that and I'll know the exact reason why the scale either didn't move or went up. I think I've been good this week. No un-recorded snacking. Been doing the exercise thing all week. Maybe it is the water. I do feel a little bloated. Hopefully it is all just in my head and I'll be surprised tomorrow. One pound gone and I'll be a happy girl. Lots and lots of water is in order for today. Plus...I think I'm getting the cold James has.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack 1/2c Pineapple Chunks
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
Tuna & 1tsp lite Mayo
Dill Pickle
1c 1% Milk
DinnerNo plan for dinner. Crap. This never ends well
No rest for the wicked. After was done my 20 minutes of 10 Mintue Trainer (again, wtf is that?) did the dishes and started to sterilize the bottles...old school...in a pot of boiling water. Brad fed James we put him to bed then FINALLY at 10:30 I got a shower. The driveway didn't get shovelled. Don't know if Brad ended up doing it. That's just one more thing I refuse to do. I DO NOT 1. Clean the litter box 2. Take garbage our 3. Shovel any more...did it for the first three years and am now done.Feeling run down and I think a little bit of depression is leaching in. I don't think I'm going to see any movement this week. And I'm not sure why. Normally I'll say that and I'll know the exact reason why the scale either didn't move or went up. I think I've been good this week. No un-recorded snacking. Been doing the exercise thing all week. Maybe it is the water. I do feel a little bloated. Hopefully it is all just in my head and I'll be surprised tomorrow. One pound gone and I'll be a happy girl. Lots and lots of water is in order for today. Plus...I think I'm getting the cold James has.
Breakfast
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Yogurt
Black Coffee
Snack 1/2c Pineapple Chunks
Lunch
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread
Tuna & 1tsp lite Mayo
Dill Pickle
1c 1% Milk
DinnerNo plan for dinner. Crap. This never ends well
Week 4 - Food Boredom and the Standstill
Looking over my food journal entries, my "menu" seems pretty predictable. Morning, Cheerios, coffee and yougurt. Snack Fiber One Bar. Lunch Egg on an English Muffin, occasionally a potato. Dinner, is the only thing that changes however there is not a vegetable in sight. Nor are there many dairy servings. I can explain that...I HATE drinking my points which explains my addiction to black coffee (I honestly really do hate the taste of coffee!) and diet pop.
Having the same thing constantly isn't good for weight loss. Your body becomes accustom to the same meals all the time. I noticed yesterday that my usual lunch that at first was really rather quite filling, was unsatisfing. Next week I am going to try and challenge myself to expanding my menu options. It has always been challenging to try and eat vegetables...next week every dinner will include at least one serving of vegetables. And I'll have one glass of milk with lunch from this point forward.
I don't think I'm going to hit my goal of losing 3 pounds this week. I've been sneaking peaks and it doesn't appear the scale is moving at all. I'm getting discouraged. I had this problem last time I lost 40 pounds. I'd have a great week then slack the week after. I don't have the fury motivation I had last week either. It is almost like I need to gain a week to be able to lose the week after. We'll see how it goes. It is only the middle of the week. A lot can happen in two days. I need to up my water intake as well.10 Mintue Trainer is going well. Getting better at some of the moves. I'm still skeptical. I miss days (like the weekends and Mondays because I know I've got my aerobics class at night I'll do my weight loss yoga instead) so I'm only on day 6 today. I took a moment yesterday to just stand in my clothes and evaluate how I was feeling. Yep...the clothes are starting to fit better. Maybe at the end of February I'll pull out the size 12's to see if they fit yet. I've taken down the size 8's from the kitchen. I really didn't need the constant reminder in my face all the time. If anything it was making me more discouraged than helping. I kept thinking I was just going to wake up one morning and POOF! They fit! I think what will really help me is to go out and buy some clothes that do fit my new body. Bite the bullet and buy the larger sizes. My sweaters from my previous body and tank tops excentuate the fat rolls because they are tight and I can only fool myself for so long that I look presentable in them. Once this snow melts, I'm talking my Mother on a shopping trip of a life time...of course I'll have to save now...all my money goes to the up keep of the house but that is another issue and another blog all together.
Breakfast (say it with me!)
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Source
Yogurt 100ml
Black Coffee
Lunch (changing it up here a little)
Tuna w/ 1 tbsp lite mayo
2 slices Whole Wheat bread
Dill Pickle
Depending on what we have 1c Soup
1c 1% Milk
Dinner
Lite version of Fetticini Alfredo - Kraft Kitchen receipe.
Having the same thing constantly isn't good for weight loss. Your body becomes accustom to the same meals all the time. I noticed yesterday that my usual lunch that at first was really rather quite filling, was unsatisfing. Next week I am going to try and challenge myself to expanding my menu options. It has always been challenging to try and eat vegetables...next week every dinner will include at least one serving of vegetables. And I'll have one glass of milk with lunch from this point forward.
I don't think I'm going to hit my goal of losing 3 pounds this week. I've been sneaking peaks and it doesn't appear the scale is moving at all. I'm getting discouraged. I had this problem last time I lost 40 pounds. I'd have a great week then slack the week after. I don't have the fury motivation I had last week either. It is almost like I need to gain a week to be able to lose the week after. We'll see how it goes. It is only the middle of the week. A lot can happen in two days. I need to up my water intake as well.10 Mintue Trainer is going well. Getting better at some of the moves. I'm still skeptical. I miss days (like the weekends and Mondays because I know I've got my aerobics class at night I'll do my weight loss yoga instead) so I'm only on day 6 today. I took a moment yesterday to just stand in my clothes and evaluate how I was feeling. Yep...the clothes are starting to fit better. Maybe at the end of February I'll pull out the size 12's to see if they fit yet. I've taken down the size 8's from the kitchen. I really didn't need the constant reminder in my face all the time. If anything it was making me more discouraged than helping. I kept thinking I was just going to wake up one morning and POOF! They fit! I think what will really help me is to go out and buy some clothes that do fit my new body. Bite the bullet and buy the larger sizes. My sweaters from my previous body and tank tops excentuate the fat rolls because they are tight and I can only fool myself for so long that I look presentable in them. Once this snow melts, I'm talking my Mother on a shopping trip of a life time...of course I'll have to save now...all my money goes to the up keep of the house but that is another issue and another blog all together.
Breakfast (say it with me!)
1c Multigrain Cheerios
Source
Yogurt 100ml
Black Coffee
Lunch (changing it up here a little)
Tuna w/ 1 tbsp lite mayo
2 slices Whole Wheat bread
Dill Pickle
Depending on what we have 1c Soup
1c 1% Milk
Dinner
Lite version of Fetticini Alfredo - Kraft Kitchen receipe.
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