Only made it to the gym twice this week unfortunately. Well...three times if you include my aerobics class on Monday. I was ready and more than willing to go today on my lunch, however I forgot my pass card. No card. No go.
My aerobics class has a new instructor, whom I dislike right now. I can't hold it against her, she's just not what I'm used to. In all honestly, she's probably exactly what my aerobic routine needs, a little shake up. She moves at a quicker pace than the class is normally used to. It'll be a push to try and keep up with her. It will mean I'll be back to tripping over my feet again, but hey, that just makes it all the more fun.
I'm getting frustrated with myself on my lunch hour work outs. It seems to me that I was able to accomplish more before. I'm not a patient person. I realize realistically I'm not in the same cardiovascular shape I was before I was pregnant and shouldn't expect to be right back were I was before all this. I know this...I just don't want to accept it. I expect the best from myself at all times and if I can't give my best I get annoyed. Maybe changing my thinking is in order. I'm doing the best I can...for now. It'll come. Just like with my job. It is all slowly coming back to me...all good things come to those who wait. I'm just not helping matters forgetting my card!!!
I'm really missing my walk in the morning. I believe that was a huge factor in my staying in shape. It also means that instead of 70-80 minutes of activity a day, I now only get 20-30. Instead of a basically automatic 2 activity points a day with the walk, and my time at the gym for a total of 4 a day, I'll only get 2. Walking was a great way to keep my butt, thighs and calves in shape. I mourn my morning walks.
At the Weight Watchers meeting on my lunch hour on Wednesday, I was a little discouraged. I knew what the results would be before I weighed in. I did lose. I only lost 0.4 however. I have got to get my weekends under control is I have any hope of losing this weight. Otherwise, I'll just be maintaining and I will not be happy with myself if that scale doesn't move.
I'd like to think this week is going well food wise. I've kept up my journal, even recorded the slip ups (there was a run-in with some Dill Pickle popcorn from Kernels Wednesday night when Brad had to unexpectedly leave the house and I had some points left over...). Last night there was a celebratory dinner at a buffet restaurant (I hate hate hate buffets, as should any self-respecting Weight Watchers member). I think I did well there. Had the soup and salad. Had only small portions of the three things I love (most of the time I can take or leave Chinese food) but blew it with three of those tasty tasty honey twist cookies. But, I recorded it all and tried to estimate my points as accurately as I could.
The weekend looms ahead of me. I have the determination this week to do better and hope for better results on Wednesday.
Till then....
K
Friday, November 13, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
No Rest yadda yadda yadda
I think I've got my poop together...er...now I just have to work on the language issue. This past summer the only time I was able to have adult conversations without little ears around was on the baseball bench...so now I'm swearing like a sailor...tee hee!
Last week I managed to go to the gym three times. Wednesday I didn't go because I attended a Weight Watchers meeting instead. Friday I didn't go because I went shopping instead. Decided I needed to buy some new clothes in a size that will fit me now. I'm not too devastated by doing that though. The tops I bought are medium (same as always) and the pants are an 11 (a little big actually but they didn't have a 10). Not too far away from my previous seemingly impossible to achieve 8's. I'm a happy girl!
Eating is coming easier too being away from home. I can only eat what I bring to work with me. I've started eating frozen entrees (yes Pam, I know...sodium!) for lunch since they are portion controlled and easy to figure out point values. Still need to work on dinners. It isn't so much what we are eating as me controlling the portion sizes, so nothing has changed there.
Today is Monday...this past weekend didn't go so well. We ate out (or ordered delivery) three times. I didn't order a side salad instead of fries at Swiss Chalet Friday night. McDonald's for lunch on Saturday I did have a Thai Chicken Salad (okay, not bad...grilled chicken 7 points) and well...we won't discuss the pizza, garlic bread and wings Sunday night. I have no will power. NONE! AUGH! On going struggle in that regard. Working on it. Weekends are a whole different animal now that I am back at work. I worked like a fiend on the housework Saturday. Sunday we did some running around that needed done that we couldn't do during the week. Hopefully as we figure out a routine there will be less eating out and more cooking.
I didn't get to the gym today on my lunch (obvious since I'm sitting here writing this now). Got half way there and realized I forgot my gym card...so I will be going Tuesday, Thursday and Friday this week. Besides, I have aerobics tonight and Zumba Wednesday...all bases are covered.
Weigh in is in two days. Hopefully I'll still be able to lose considering I've at the very least upped my activity....if not, I'll know why and hopefully that'll be the kick in the ass I need on weekends.
Last week I managed to go to the gym three times. Wednesday I didn't go because I attended a Weight Watchers meeting instead. Friday I didn't go because I went shopping instead. Decided I needed to buy some new clothes in a size that will fit me now. I'm not too devastated by doing that though. The tops I bought are medium (same as always) and the pants are an 11 (a little big actually but they didn't have a 10). Not too far away from my previous seemingly impossible to achieve 8's. I'm a happy girl!
Eating is coming easier too being away from home. I can only eat what I bring to work with me. I've started eating frozen entrees (yes Pam, I know...sodium!) for lunch since they are portion controlled and easy to figure out point values. Still need to work on dinners. It isn't so much what we are eating as me controlling the portion sizes, so nothing has changed there.
Today is Monday...this past weekend didn't go so well. We ate out (or ordered delivery) three times. I didn't order a side salad instead of fries at Swiss Chalet Friday night. McDonald's for lunch on Saturday I did have a Thai Chicken Salad (okay, not bad...grilled chicken 7 points) and well...we won't discuss the pizza, garlic bread and wings Sunday night. I have no will power. NONE! AUGH! On going struggle in that regard. Working on it. Weekends are a whole different animal now that I am back at work. I worked like a fiend on the housework Saturday. Sunday we did some running around that needed done that we couldn't do during the week. Hopefully as we figure out a routine there will be less eating out and more cooking.
I didn't get to the gym today on my lunch (obvious since I'm sitting here writing this now). Got half way there and realized I forgot my gym card...so I will be going Tuesday, Thursday and Friday this week. Besides, I have aerobics tonight and Zumba Wednesday...all bases are covered.
Weigh in is in two days. Hopefully I'll still be able to lose considering I've at the very least upped my activity....if not, I'll know why and hopefully that'll be the kick in the ass I need on weekends.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
A Whole New World
The day came. There was nothing I could do about it. I have now been back at work for a whole week as of yesterday. I am getting frustrated that it all isn't coming back to me right away. It bothers me that I forget how to do things and am making mistakes on things I thought I remembered how to do and then have to find out, I should have asked for help after all. The woman who covered for me did an amazing job. I have no complaints. Most of my frustrations is just not in knowing the back stories and where things are. Simple things. Hopefully as the days go on, I'll get good at my job again...managing the phone calls, in-person visits and the e-mails along with the paper work. There is a fine art to juggling your time management and it is something I haven't had to do in a while.
The hard work starts now. I've joined the at work Weight Watchers meeting. I'll be honest. I haven't been to a meeting since October 3rd. As soon as October hit, depression and the realization of going back to work hit me hard. I couldn't care less about how I looked or what I was eating. I didn't want to get up early on Saturday for an 8:00 meeting. At work, I can go on my lunch hour and remain accountable. I'm excited about it! Yesterday was my first meeting and I'm happy to say that even though I haven't followed the program or really made the best food choices in a month, I'd only gained 1.8.
I've been back to the gym twice. I gave myself the first four days back off from the gym. Didn't want to pile it all back into my life all at once. I started back this past Monday. 15 minutes elliptical and 10 minutes on the stationary bike. Wasn't bad. In fact, I think I could have done more had time allowed. Hopefully 25 minutes a day will be enough. I used to walk to work (which I'm really missing) and walking was a great way to keep the backside and hips in shape.
OH! Speaking of hips...I've lost an inch off of 'em! 39" now! I credit that to Zumba. I feel silly and can't bring myself to stand in front of the full length mirror during class...but I go. And it apparently works...and quickly! Who knew moving your hips and dancing with out the help of a security beer would actually help to lose weight?
The hard work starts now. I've joined the at work Weight Watchers meeting. I'll be honest. I haven't been to a meeting since October 3rd. As soon as October hit, depression and the realization of going back to work hit me hard. I couldn't care less about how I looked or what I was eating. I didn't want to get up early on Saturday for an 8:00 meeting. At work, I can go on my lunch hour and remain accountable. I'm excited about it! Yesterday was my first meeting and I'm happy to say that even though I haven't followed the program or really made the best food choices in a month, I'd only gained 1.8.
I've been back to the gym twice. I gave myself the first four days back off from the gym. Didn't want to pile it all back into my life all at once. I started back this past Monday. 15 minutes elliptical and 10 minutes on the stationary bike. Wasn't bad. In fact, I think I could have done more had time allowed. Hopefully 25 minutes a day will be enough. I used to walk to work (which I'm really missing) and walking was a great way to keep the backside and hips in shape.
OH! Speaking of hips...I've lost an inch off of 'em! 39" now! I credit that to Zumba. I feel silly and can't bring myself to stand in front of the full length mirror during class...but I go. And it apparently works...and quickly! Who knew moving your hips and dancing with out the help of a security beer would actually help to lose weight?
Thursday, October 1, 2009
27 Days
The count down is on. And after a long break from blogging and obsessing over my weight. I'm back on the wagon. It was a long run. Since my last blog I've only lost 2 pounds. I'm okay with that. It was a long summer and fall is now here. It is almost time for me to go back to work.
I'm looking forward to my return to work for some reasons. First and foremost, the opportunity to use my brain again. Having a more structured day. Not as easily accessable to the kitchen. Being able to get back to the gym during my lunch hours and of course, adult interaction. I am not looking forward to leaving the new life I have carved out for my little family. Seeing James grow up has been the best thing to date in my life. I will miss being able to hug him and kiss him all day long. I'll miss playing with him and seeing him smile and hearing him laugh. I know he'll be in good hands at my parents' house and he loves his grandparents to bits. Even though they are my parents it is still like handing him over to someone else to raise. This part of being a working parent sucks. And I've hidden from the world because of it. Not answering my e-mails. Not wanting to leave the house other than with my family. I'll get over it. I just take some time to adjust to change. Who knows. I may enjoy my newer new life just as much if not more.
Developments on the weight loss side? I'm able to wear a pair of my pre-pregnancy dress pants (still a little tight around the butt and thigh area...always been the "problem zone") and have two pairs of pre-pregnacy casual pants (a pair of cords and a pair of jeans) that get easier and more comfortable to wear each week...both a size 9. That's exciting.
Haven't been exercising this summer much at all. Aerobics ended way back in June or July...and do not start again until mid October. Last night however was my first Zumba class and OH MY GOD! What fun! I have no rhythm and these hips don't talk much but it is worth it. Can't wait to do it again. Zumba may be the latest "fab" but this is one fad I can get on to!
I've been going to Weight Watchers meetings every Saturday morning. These last 25 pounds are going to be a bitch...but should be a heck of a lot easier once I'm back to work.
I'm looking forward to my return to work for some reasons. First and foremost, the opportunity to use my brain again. Having a more structured day. Not as easily accessable to the kitchen. Being able to get back to the gym during my lunch hours and of course, adult interaction. I am not looking forward to leaving the new life I have carved out for my little family. Seeing James grow up has been the best thing to date in my life. I will miss being able to hug him and kiss him all day long. I'll miss playing with him and seeing him smile and hearing him laugh. I know he'll be in good hands at my parents' house and he loves his grandparents to bits. Even though they are my parents it is still like handing him over to someone else to raise. This part of being a working parent sucks. And I've hidden from the world because of it. Not answering my e-mails. Not wanting to leave the house other than with my family. I'll get over it. I just take some time to adjust to change. Who knows. I may enjoy my newer new life just as much if not more.
Developments on the weight loss side? I'm able to wear a pair of my pre-pregnancy dress pants (still a little tight around the butt and thigh area...always been the "problem zone") and have two pairs of pre-pregnacy casual pants (a pair of cords and a pair of jeans) that get easier and more comfortable to wear each week...both a size 9. That's exciting.
Haven't been exercising this summer much at all. Aerobics ended way back in June or July...and do not start again until mid October. Last night however was my first Zumba class and OH MY GOD! What fun! I have no rhythm and these hips don't talk much but it is worth it. Can't wait to do it again. Zumba may be the latest "fab" but this is one fad I can get on to!
I've been going to Weight Watchers meetings every Saturday morning. These last 25 pounds are going to be a bitch...but should be a heck of a lot easier once I'm back to work.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Week 23 - Reality Check
Another successful day on program. I actually used my scale to measure and check the point value of the pork chop that I had for dinner. Turns out it was a good thing I did. Darn thing was 8 points...AFTER I took about an ounce off to give to James. My husband is a meat man. He loves his meat. The bigger the slab, the better. Don't get me wrong. I love myself the occasional pork butt (not too keen on the red meat thing) however, it is time to get real about portion size. Normally I would have given the chop a point value of 5 and not think twice about it. Just goes to show you the importance of actually stopping to measure and weigh what it is you are eating. Goes along with the whole lying to yourself thing. You can only lie for so long then be confused and fusturated as to why the weight isn't coming off. Reality check time for me.
On that quick note James is stirring. I think we'll go for a walk. It is a beautiful day...plus baseball night! Pray once again to the baseball gods I don't get hit in the face.
1c Shreddies 3
1/2c Blueberries
Black Coffee (x3 or 6) 0
1c Fresh Cherries 1
1 slice Weight Watchers recipe Banana Bread 2
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread 2
3 slices Turkey Deli Meat 2
1 slice Kraft FF single 1
Mustard 0
2 Silhouette Yogurts 1.5
24oz Crystal Light
Pork Chop 8
1c Frozen Peas and Carrots (BLUCH) 0
1 Smile Fry 1
Diet Pepsi Max 0
On that quick note James is stirring. I think we'll go for a walk. It is a beautiful day...plus baseball night! Pray once again to the baseball gods I don't get hit in the face.
1c Shreddies 3
1/2c Blueberries
Black Coffee (x3 or 6) 0
1c Fresh Cherries 1
1 slice Weight Watchers recipe Banana Bread 2
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread 2
3 slices Turkey Deli Meat 2
1 slice Kraft FF single 1
Mustard 0
2 Silhouette Yogurts 1.5
24oz Crystal Light
Pork Chop 8
1c Frozen Peas and Carrots (BLUCH) 0
1 Smile Fry 1
Diet Pepsi Max 0
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Week 23 - Combating Laziness
Had an "A-HA" moment yesterday. Tracking points isn't hard. It just takes a teeny tiny bit of effort and planning on my part. I think I was expecting whatever I was eating to just keep track of itself and at the end of the day everything would magically adjust to fit within my daily point range. News Flash there Kim. It doesn't.
I have to be the one and only one to be accountable for myself. Sure I can lie to myself about portion sizes but the scale is a lie detector test. It won't lie for me. Yesterday I managed to stay within my points. There was a minor incident with some ice cream. I said no to a bowl full then ended up in the kitchen while Brad with in the shower with a spoon and peanut butter chocolate ice cream melting on my tongue.
Another realization is no one is perfect. In my head I picture everyone as perfect. I picture everyone better than me. A group of friends e-mail each other to keep each other in check. We had all gotten off track and the e-mails stopped for a while and they've just recently started up again. I need them to see that I am not the only one who has some slips here and there. Those slips do not mean the rest of my week is screwed. It means the next day I start over again. I need to see that. I hate feeling like everyone is better at this than me. We're all in this together. Once I realize this isn't a race and there is no prize at the end other than a longer, healthier lifestyle...I'll be alright.
This morning I baked banana loaf. It was a Weight Watchers recipe which means to the normal person it is going to taste like poop. To me it is a reasonable facsimile. Now the trick is to only have one PORTION SIZED piece a day. Then again...2 points per PORTION SIZED slice isn't bad. Wish me luck! I love baking...I just HATE HATE HATE having it in the house. Ask me about my chocolate chip mint cookies. I ended up bribing an umpire with some of those!
Yesterday:
3/4c Life Cereal 2
1/2 Banana 2
Black Coffee 0
1c Fresh Cherries 1
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread 2
3 slices Deli Turkey Breast meat 2
1oz Havarti cheese 3
2 Silhouette Yogurts 1.5
24oz Crystal Light 0
3oz Boneless skinless chicken breast 4
1c Roasted Potato 3
Frozen Broccoli Cauliflower mix 0
1c 1% Milk 2
Used 23.5
I have to be the one and only one to be accountable for myself. Sure I can lie to myself about portion sizes but the scale is a lie detector test. It won't lie for me. Yesterday I managed to stay within my points. There was a minor incident with some ice cream. I said no to a bowl full then ended up in the kitchen while Brad with in the shower with a spoon and peanut butter chocolate ice cream melting on my tongue.
Another realization is no one is perfect. In my head I picture everyone as perfect. I picture everyone better than me. A group of friends e-mail each other to keep each other in check. We had all gotten off track and the e-mails stopped for a while and they've just recently started up again. I need them to see that I am not the only one who has some slips here and there. Those slips do not mean the rest of my week is screwed. It means the next day I start over again. I need to see that. I hate feeling like everyone is better at this than me. We're all in this together. Once I realize this isn't a race and there is no prize at the end other than a longer, healthier lifestyle...I'll be alright.
This morning I baked banana loaf. It was a Weight Watchers recipe which means to the normal person it is going to taste like poop. To me it is a reasonable facsimile. Now the trick is to only have one PORTION SIZED piece a day. Then again...2 points per PORTION SIZED slice isn't bad. Wish me luck! I love baking...I just HATE HATE HATE having it in the house. Ask me about my chocolate chip mint cookies. I ended up bribing an umpire with some of those!
Yesterday:
3/4c Life Cereal 2
1/2 Banana 2
Black Coffee 0
1c Fresh Cherries 1
2 slices Whole Wheat Bread 2
3 slices Deli Turkey Breast meat 2
1oz Havarti cheese 3
2 Silhouette Yogurts 1.5
24oz Crystal Light 0
3oz Boneless skinless chicken breast 4
1c Roasted Potato 3
Frozen Broccoli Cauliflower mix 0
1c 1% Milk 2
Used 23.5
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Week 20 - Eff Me Sideways Again
I'm a colourful swearer...what can I say?
After having not been to a meeting or officially weighing in for two weeks, I did both this past Saturday. I lost. I lost 0.6. Total officially gone with Weight Watchers 20 pounds even. Officially since October 11, 2008 63.8 pounds. New official "end date" is October 11th, 2008. I'd better have 85 pounds lost by then so all I have to deal with is saggy, flabby skin at the gym. 24.2 left to go.
I started off Saturday with a renewed vigor. Excited to once again be back on track. That resolve ended roughly 6 hours later. I just don't know why I can't wrap my head around this. I'm not taking it seriously at all. I'm sick of it all really. I've been doing this for 8 years. It should be second nature to me. Before the baby it really was a way of life for me. Most days I didn't even have to write things down. I just knew what I should or shouldn't eat and how much. It was common sense. Now I can't be bothered. I'm not even eating things that I did before I joined back in 2001. I'm not eating a bag of chips, chocolate bars like water. But I do indulge in things I shouldn't maybe more than once a week. Eating out is big. Even when we don't have food in the house I manage to over eat and find something.
I'm trying for will power and trying not to make this a competition. I'm a little depressed for what I did to myself. I kept saying for 9 months I'll deal with this weight after the baby comes. I just honestly thought it would be easier than this. I really did. I thought I'd fall right back into Weight Watchers. If only I could get into my head and figure it out...I'd sell the secret. I'd be freaking rich. For now. I vow and PROMISE myself I will stay with in 23 points each and EVERY day for the rest of this week. And when I promise myself something...I keep it.
I PROMISE.
After having not been to a meeting or officially weighing in for two weeks, I did both this past Saturday. I lost. I lost 0.6. Total officially gone with Weight Watchers 20 pounds even. Officially since October 11, 2008 63.8 pounds. New official "end date" is October 11th, 2008. I'd better have 85 pounds lost by then so all I have to deal with is saggy, flabby skin at the gym. 24.2 left to go.
I started off Saturday with a renewed vigor. Excited to once again be back on track. That resolve ended roughly 6 hours later. I just don't know why I can't wrap my head around this. I'm not taking it seriously at all. I'm sick of it all really. I've been doing this for 8 years. It should be second nature to me. Before the baby it really was a way of life for me. Most days I didn't even have to write things down. I just knew what I should or shouldn't eat and how much. It was common sense. Now I can't be bothered. I'm not even eating things that I did before I joined back in 2001. I'm not eating a bag of chips, chocolate bars like water. But I do indulge in things I shouldn't maybe more than once a week. Eating out is big. Even when we don't have food in the house I manage to over eat and find something.
I'm trying for will power and trying not to make this a competition. I'm a little depressed for what I did to myself. I kept saying for 9 months I'll deal with this weight after the baby comes. I just honestly thought it would be easier than this. I really did. I thought I'd fall right back into Weight Watchers. If only I could get into my head and figure it out...I'd sell the secret. I'd be freaking rich. For now. I vow and PROMISE myself I will stay with in 23 points each and EVERY day for the rest of this week. And when I promise myself something...I keep it.
I PROMISE.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Week um.....
To make my life easier...let's go with whatever week I'm in officiall with Weight Watchers and since I'm too lazy to look that up right now...I don't give a poop.
Let's see what is new this week? Trying to get back on track. After my last blog I got a really encouraging message on facebook from one of my professors from college. I now work in the same college by a turn of the fates. I saw my return to work there as one of my biggest failures in my life. I graduated from a program, lasted two years in the advertising industry and came running back home. It was there that I got one of the best compliments from one of my newspaper sales reps. She told me I was "too sweet" to make it but insisted on giving me a letter of reference. For the longest time I saw my new career as a failure. Now thanks to your message Cathy, I am able to see it for what it is; one of my biggests successes of my life. I am happy in my job. I love working at the college. It had been a part of my life for going on 25 years (my father worked there too) and I am happy to be giving back in some small way. I'm trying to be more easy going, giving into chaos. Who cares if things aren't as I planned (even though I am anal to the point of OCD...I even make phone scripts for some calls)...I'll get to where I want and be happy...eventually. Sometimes you forget that. I will get back to the gym and maybe I won't look like I once did but I'll be happy.
Had only one day of "oopsy" this week. Went out for lunch with Mom and even though we went to Swiss Chalet and I ordered the chicken on a kaiser and salad, said no to dessert....later in the day I allowed my Mom to buy me a chocolate bar. In my defence...do you know how long it has been since I've had a Wunderbar?!? I said no later to an iced coffee. Baby steps.
Speaking of baby steps. Getting my exercise in chasing James everywhere. He's walking around the perimiter of rooms. He's crawling across them and giving me heart attacks everywhere we go. I'm in trouble in the future I think. What does it mean when you say "No-no James" and in return you get a look over the shoulder with a grin? Oh crap.
Here's yesterday's journal. I may have missed some BLT's (bites, licks and tastes of James's snacks) here and there working on dropping those out of my daily eating.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Morning
1 serving(s) Shreddies 3
1 cup(s) fresh blueberries 1
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 cup(s) green cabbage 0
2 tbsp Kraft Free Coleslaw Dressing - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 1
Evening
2 slices Dr. Okter Spinach Thin Crust Pizza - Quick-added food 10
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 10
Anytime
2 serving(s) Silhouette 0+_Yogurt 1.5
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
2 tbsp reduced-fat peanut butter 4.5
2 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1.5
Subtotal 9.5
Food POINTS values total used 24.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
90 min softball 5
Let's see what is new this week? Trying to get back on track. After my last blog I got a really encouraging message on facebook from one of my professors from college. I now work in the same college by a turn of the fates. I saw my return to work there as one of my biggest failures in my life. I graduated from a program, lasted two years in the advertising industry and came running back home. It was there that I got one of the best compliments from one of my newspaper sales reps. She told me I was "too sweet" to make it but insisted on giving me a letter of reference. For the longest time I saw my new career as a failure. Now thanks to your message Cathy, I am able to see it for what it is; one of my biggests successes of my life. I am happy in my job. I love working at the college. It had been a part of my life for going on 25 years (my father worked there too) and I am happy to be giving back in some small way. I'm trying to be more easy going, giving into chaos. Who cares if things aren't as I planned (even though I am anal to the point of OCD...I even make phone scripts for some calls)...I'll get to where I want and be happy...eventually. Sometimes you forget that. I will get back to the gym and maybe I won't look like I once did but I'll be happy.
Had only one day of "oopsy" this week. Went out for lunch with Mom and even though we went to Swiss Chalet and I ordered the chicken on a kaiser and salad, said no to dessert....later in the day I allowed my Mom to buy me a chocolate bar. In my defence...do you know how long it has been since I've had a Wunderbar?!? I said no later to an iced coffee. Baby steps.
Speaking of baby steps. Getting my exercise in chasing James everywhere. He's walking around the perimiter of rooms. He's crawling across them and giving me heart attacks everywhere we go. I'm in trouble in the future I think. What does it mean when you say "No-no James" and in return you get a look over the shoulder with a grin? Oh crap.
Here's yesterday's journal. I may have missed some BLT's (bites, licks and tastes of James's snacks) here and there working on dropping those out of my daily eating.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Morning
1 serving(s) Shreddies 3
1 cup(s) fresh blueberries 1
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 cup(s) green cabbage 0
2 tbsp Kraft Free Coleslaw Dressing - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 1
Evening
2 slices Dr. Okter Spinach Thin Crust Pizza - Quick-added food 10
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 10
Anytime
2 serving(s) Silhouette 0+_Yogurt 1.5
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
2 tbsp reduced-fat peanut butter 4.5
2 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1.5
Subtotal 9.5
Food POINTS values total used 24.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
90 min softball 5
Friday, July 24, 2009
Week 23 - Giving up?
I have no motivation. I am bloated this week by three pounds. Scale at home is showing my weight at 177. Not fun. I am trying not to let it get me down but of course it is. I am convinced I am destined to have a "Mom Body" the rest of my life and will be relegated to "Mom Jeans" with the nice pouch in the front and the junk in the trunk. Well...okay, I like the junk in the trunk...but only when it stops doing jumping jacks within 15 seconds of me doing jumping jacks. Oh hell...who am I kidding?? I don't do jumping jacks!
I tried jumping jacks at aerobics on Monday and let us just say the bladder control isn't exactly up to par. Glad to share with you.
I'm trying to look within myself and determine if I have indeed given up. At least temporarily. I see my return to work in a few short months as another new beginning. The plan (HA! *) is to start right back up at the gym for three days a week on my lunch hour for the first month and then get back up to five days like I was before. I stopped going to the gym early on in my pregnancy unfortunately due to horrible morning sickness that lasted into my 6 month of being pregnant and by that time I was too fat to care.
* I say HA because so far any and all of my plans since becoming pregnant and having James haven't exactly panned out. The only thing I managed to do was continue to walk to work (for the most part) until I was 7 months. I planned on going to the gym throughout...didn't happen. I planned on walking daily with James while on Maternity leave. Clearly didn't happen. Why should this final plan go was I expect? And it is with THAT attitude I am setting myself up for failure.
Why is this so important to me? Why am I sabotaging myself when it is bringing me down and clearly the focus of my entire time off and sometimes gets in the way of enjoying my baby? Vanity. Selfishness. Conceitedness (is that a word?). At the risk of losing "friends" on Facebook (ha ha ha!) how do I word this? Facebook pushed me to work hard at my body before I got pregnant. In highschool I was a non-person. I honestly do not think people noticed me or knew who I was. I of course (like many girls 15-19) thought I was hideously overweight (looking back at pictures I wasn't). I wanted to at least maintain and tone my body so as each new friend I gained on Facebook from highschool would see me and think, damn, she looks good. It was for some reason important to me that I didn't have a Mom Body (at that point of course I didn't, I didn't have a child!) when so many of the others had (IMO...) "let themselves go". Now I am in that category. Then again, in college I was fat...which prompted me to join Weight Watchers in the first place. I was an odd kind of person in college. Didn't really want to be there. Wasn't allowed to go to the college or program I wanted and just sort of fell into where I was. My weight soared then too. When I am unhappy in my situation in life, I let things get away from me then I struggle back.
I tried jumping jacks at aerobics on Monday and let us just say the bladder control isn't exactly up to par. Glad to share with you.
I'm trying to look within myself and determine if I have indeed given up. At least temporarily. I see my return to work in a few short months as another new beginning. The plan (HA! *) is to start right back up at the gym for three days a week on my lunch hour for the first month and then get back up to five days like I was before. I stopped going to the gym early on in my pregnancy unfortunately due to horrible morning sickness that lasted into my 6 month of being pregnant and by that time I was too fat to care.
* I say HA because so far any and all of my plans since becoming pregnant and having James haven't exactly panned out. The only thing I managed to do was continue to walk to work (for the most part) until I was 7 months. I planned on going to the gym throughout...didn't happen. I planned on walking daily with James while on Maternity leave. Clearly didn't happen. Why should this final plan go was I expect? And it is with THAT attitude I am setting myself up for failure.
Why is this so important to me? Why am I sabotaging myself when it is bringing me down and clearly the focus of my entire time off and sometimes gets in the way of enjoying my baby? Vanity. Selfishness. Conceitedness (is that a word?). At the risk of losing "friends" on Facebook (ha ha ha!) how do I word this? Facebook pushed me to work hard at my body before I got pregnant. In highschool I was a non-person. I honestly do not think people noticed me or knew who I was. I of course (like many girls 15-19) thought I was hideously overweight (looking back at pictures I wasn't). I wanted to at least maintain and tone my body so as each new friend I gained on Facebook from highschool would see me and think, damn, she looks good. It was for some reason important to me that I didn't have a Mom Body (at that point of course I didn't, I didn't have a child!) when so many of the others had (IMO...) "let themselves go". Now I am in that category. Then again, in college I was fat...which prompted me to join Weight Watchers in the first place. I was an odd kind of person in college. Didn't really want to be there. Wasn't allowed to go to the college or program I wanted and just sort of fell into where I was. My weight soared then too. When I am unhappy in my situation in life, I let things get away from me then I struggle back.
I am living vicariously through two year old pictures of me on my profile and online photo albums. I am living a lie on line. I'm like a creepy on line dater who posts pictures of models to pass off as myself. I could post current pictures...I just don't have any. I haven't allowed many pictures of me with James. So if any of my close friends do have some or of me while pregnant, please send them my way. I would like to see them...if only to know that I have come a long way and really don't have far to go...it is just this elephant skin on my midsection that is going to be a bitch to tame.
Vanity be thy name.
Here's James and I now...self portraits...no body shots ;)
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Week 23 - Damned if you do...
Riddle me this...
How is it that I can feel guilty that I haven't taken James out for as many walks as I intended yet when I do take him for a walk I feel guilty that he's spent that much time in the stroller?
That is time he could be playing and learning. I intentionally took him during his nap time thinking (like when he was little) he'd fall asleep on our walk. No dice. He was alert and looking all around. Talking and cooing. He finished off his juice (it was a heck of a lot hotter than I thought it was outside). We stopped at a park and played on the swings which, he loved. It was a nice long 90 minute walk. Good for us both I suppose. Now I just have to stop feeling guilty about every little thing I do with him!!
Part of my insecurity and stress comes with feeding him. And oddly, I think it has a lot to do with my self image and eating issues. I know that if I'm not careful, my weight will get way out of control. That is the reason I joined Weight Watchers the first time at 21. I saw my weight sky rocketing and I wanted to put a stop to it and reverse it before it got too bad. Even now. As lackadaisical (is that how you spell it?) as I am following the program, at least my weight isn't getting worse than it is. With that in mind and all the studies pointing to obese children, I do not want that for my son. I've got weight issues, his Father is a big man, I want James to be a happy, confident healthy little boy. Isn't that what all Mothers want for their babies? But...how do I do that? I'm still feeding James baby foods...we seem stuck at foods for 6 month olds. He won't eat the junior food. I've read somewhere that babies don't like tasting too many things at once and they are better off eating people food separately. I would like to move away from the baby food and jars (it is getting darn expensive) but Brad and I don't exactly eat the healthiest. To feed James properly and to lay good food and healthy foundations in him, Brad and I are going to have to change our lifestyle. I'm already trying to get away from processed food and too many carbs and foods out of boxes. This means I am at a loss when it comes to eating and feeding my baby.
It means I am going to have to plan meals in advance...have food (fresh foods) in the house and available to eat and cook with. I've never been very good at planning meals in advance. They recommend it for Weight Watchers and I know it'll help me to lose weight quicker...I just can't seem to get my head around it all. So instead of figuring out dinner and doing the right thing, I get frustrated, give up and we end up eating out of a box. ARUGH!
I have fed James a few things here and there. When he isn't napping, which usually falls around our dinner time, I give him what I think are "healthy" things for him to eat...homemade baked french fries, chicken, roast beef, vegetables.
It is a struggle and just one more thing I'm going to have to figure out for the health of my family, myself and most importantly my baby. This is when it matters most. Teaching him skills that he will use for the rest of his life and it scares me shitless.
How is it that I can feel guilty that I haven't taken James out for as many walks as I intended yet when I do take him for a walk I feel guilty that he's spent that much time in the stroller?
That is time he could be playing and learning. I intentionally took him during his nap time thinking (like when he was little) he'd fall asleep on our walk. No dice. He was alert and looking all around. Talking and cooing. He finished off his juice (it was a heck of a lot hotter than I thought it was outside). We stopped at a park and played on the swings which, he loved. It was a nice long 90 minute walk. Good for us both I suppose. Now I just have to stop feeling guilty about every little thing I do with him!!
Part of my insecurity and stress comes with feeding him. And oddly, I think it has a lot to do with my self image and eating issues. I know that if I'm not careful, my weight will get way out of control. That is the reason I joined Weight Watchers the first time at 21. I saw my weight sky rocketing and I wanted to put a stop to it and reverse it before it got too bad. Even now. As lackadaisical (is that how you spell it?) as I am following the program, at least my weight isn't getting worse than it is. With that in mind and all the studies pointing to obese children, I do not want that for my son. I've got weight issues, his Father is a big man, I want James to be a happy, confident healthy little boy. Isn't that what all Mothers want for their babies? But...how do I do that? I'm still feeding James baby foods...we seem stuck at foods for 6 month olds. He won't eat the junior food. I've read somewhere that babies don't like tasting too many things at once and they are better off eating people food separately. I would like to move away from the baby food and jars (it is getting darn expensive) but Brad and I don't exactly eat the healthiest. To feed James properly and to lay good food and healthy foundations in him, Brad and I are going to have to change our lifestyle. I'm already trying to get away from processed food and too many carbs and foods out of boxes. This means I am at a loss when it comes to eating and feeding my baby.
It means I am going to have to plan meals in advance...have food (fresh foods) in the house and available to eat and cook with. I've never been very good at planning meals in advance. They recommend it for Weight Watchers and I know it'll help me to lose weight quicker...I just can't seem to get my head around it all. So instead of figuring out dinner and doing the right thing, I get frustrated, give up and we end up eating out of a box. ARUGH!
I have fed James a few things here and there. When he isn't napping, which usually falls around our dinner time, I give him what I think are "healthy" things for him to eat...homemade baked french fries, chicken, roast beef, vegetables.
It is a struggle and just one more thing I'm going to have to figure out for the health of my family, myself and most importantly my baby. This is when it matters most. Teaching him skills that he will use for the rest of his life and it scares me shitless.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Week 23 - Vacation from it all
Didn't journal. Didn't exercise (other than aerobics last week). Didn't even attend a meeting this weekend. I'm faltering again.
Don't know how much of it is my sadness of the passing of time. James is growing and developing in leaps and bounds right now. As soon as he hit that 9 month mark last week, he's learning a lot of new things. He has 5 teeth and can sit up all on his own. Crawl like a fiend. He's so close to walking on his own it is scary. I just sit and watch him thinking how quickly the time goes. I'm afraid I've wasted my time and his time and I haven't taught him all I should. Silly I know. But as I get closer and closer to having to leave him, I get sadder and sadder and I just want to hold him (which of course he is NOT interested in. He wants to squirm and walk and play). He plays independently now for long stretches of time. He is still as happy as can be. Loves books and flipping through the pages. He'll crawl over to his books and pull them all out and look at each one for half an hour.
Door....SWEET! I just got invited to a "How Can You Survive The End of the World" convention. Unless there are Zombies involved...SO NOT interested in learning about Jehovah.
Where was I? Oh yes, speaking of Zombies, the nightmares I was plagued with just after James was born are back. Worse this time. This time the Zombies actually got me. I woke up just in time to avoid being eaten alive. I slept under the blankets for the rest of the night. It is ridiculous really. A grown 30 year old woman being terrified of her nightmares to the point where she is convinced the world has ended outside her window. The world was disturbingly quiet however. Quieter than it should have been at 4:30 in the morning. Usually I can begin to hear the birds at that time. Even with the sun up, my unease hasn't left me. I guess it is my sub-conscious mind again, beginning to mourn my new life that I have come to know and love. It will all be over as of October 27th. I am not looking forward to the juggling it is going to have to take to live my new-new life. I have no model to go by. No example to follow. My Mom stayed at home with the kids. I feel like I will be robbing James by going back to work. But sadly, there is no other option. Unfortunately raising children as I am learning makes you so unsure of yourself to the point of tears. Am I feeding him right, am I doing the right thing by not putting him in daycare and letting my parents watch him? Am I taking advantage of my parents in asking them to take on this huge responsibility?
I've got so much going on in life and in my head. So much that still needs to be done around the house. August is going to be crazy nuts busy. The mortgage will be renewed and our refinanced money will be in. We'll be getting a new desperately needed roof, new windows, digging out the driveway and patio in back. All hopefully done by the time I have to go back. So much happening that eating right and watching my points has taken a back seat.
This week all I can hope for is to start small. Journal everything. I've put away my 3 month Journal for a while and will be using the weekly paper journal. Easier to carry around and remember to track.
Last week was my official break from it all. We ate out a lot. There were pizza and wings. McDonald's twice (okay, okay, I DID have salad both times for only 7 points), Taco Bell, Kelseys' with my Mom. A busy week. This week is going to be busier since this weekend there is two family BBQs (on the same day), a wedding shower, I'm looking forward to having all my friends over for lunch tomorrow...everyone who is currently on Maternity Leave and lunch with a friend Friday. Busy week. Thank goodness no baseball this week. I don't need that mental game on top of it all. Wish me luck...and sweeter dreams.
Don't know how much of it is my sadness of the passing of time. James is growing and developing in leaps and bounds right now. As soon as he hit that 9 month mark last week, he's learning a lot of new things. He has 5 teeth and can sit up all on his own. Crawl like a fiend. He's so close to walking on his own it is scary. I just sit and watch him thinking how quickly the time goes. I'm afraid I've wasted my time and his time and I haven't taught him all I should. Silly I know. But as I get closer and closer to having to leave him, I get sadder and sadder and I just want to hold him (which of course he is NOT interested in. He wants to squirm and walk and play). He plays independently now for long stretches of time. He is still as happy as can be. Loves books and flipping through the pages. He'll crawl over to his books and pull them all out and look at each one for half an hour.
Door....SWEET! I just got invited to a "How Can You Survive The End of the World" convention. Unless there are Zombies involved...SO NOT interested in learning about Jehovah.
Where was I? Oh yes, speaking of Zombies, the nightmares I was plagued with just after James was born are back. Worse this time. This time the Zombies actually got me. I woke up just in time to avoid being eaten alive. I slept under the blankets for the rest of the night. It is ridiculous really. A grown 30 year old woman being terrified of her nightmares to the point where she is convinced the world has ended outside her window. The world was disturbingly quiet however. Quieter than it should have been at 4:30 in the morning. Usually I can begin to hear the birds at that time. Even with the sun up, my unease hasn't left me. I guess it is my sub-conscious mind again, beginning to mourn my new life that I have come to know and love. It will all be over as of October 27th. I am not looking forward to the juggling it is going to have to take to live my new-new life. I have no model to go by. No example to follow. My Mom stayed at home with the kids. I feel like I will be robbing James by going back to work. But sadly, there is no other option. Unfortunately raising children as I am learning makes you so unsure of yourself to the point of tears. Am I feeding him right, am I doing the right thing by not putting him in daycare and letting my parents watch him? Am I taking advantage of my parents in asking them to take on this huge responsibility?
I've got so much going on in life and in my head. So much that still needs to be done around the house. August is going to be crazy nuts busy. The mortgage will be renewed and our refinanced money will be in. We'll be getting a new desperately needed roof, new windows, digging out the driveway and patio in back. All hopefully done by the time I have to go back. So much happening that eating right and watching my points has taken a back seat.
This week all I can hope for is to start small. Journal everything. I've put away my 3 month Journal for a while and will be using the weekly paper journal. Easier to carry around and remember to track.
Last week was my official break from it all. We ate out a lot. There were pizza and wings. McDonald's twice (okay, okay, I DID have salad both times for only 7 points), Taco Bell, Kelseys' with my Mom. A busy week. This week is going to be busier since this weekend there is two family BBQs (on the same day), a wedding shower, I'm looking forward to having all my friends over for lunch tomorrow...everyone who is currently on Maternity Leave and lunch with a friend Friday. Busy week. Thank goodness no baseball this week. I don't need that mental game on top of it all. Wish me luck...and sweeter dreams.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Week 22 - SUCCESS!
I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT! I REALLY REALLY DID IT!
I have a new key chain on my ring now. I've gotten rid of my old key chain with my goal and life time charms on it and replaced it with my BRAND NEW 10% Goal keyring. I'm so ecstatic! I finally got to 10% of my initial starting weight. I've now lost 19.4 pounds with Weight Watchers. 63 gone in total. 10% may not seem like a lot to people who haven't had the privilege of following the program. But for us in the cult of WWers...it means a lot.
I lost 1 pound last week after three weeks of chasing my first official goal with Weight Watchers. There was a horrible storm raging outside and just as I was about to be presented with my keyring, the power went out. As they finished with me, the power came back on. I was totally okay with that. The early Saturday morning meetings are full. Over 100 people on a good day. With the power off, the lights were out and no one could look at me. However, even in the dark the leader could tell I was getting emotional and even commented on it. How could I not? I had convinced myself that after a baby, that is the end of the body and weight you once had. I had enough people tell me that as well. To all of them I say, "Screw you...I'm doing it".
As I sit here writing this blog, waiting for James to wake up, I'm wearing one of my older size 7 skirts. I can't get too excited about it though. I probably shouldn't be. We are going to a memorial service today and I can't very well wear any of the clothes I have gotten over the past few months. They are all casual and I'd feel very disrespectful wearing them. So I've squeezed into a size 7 jean skirt...thank god for stretch fit and longer shirts. I can sit (comfortably!!!) in it so it'll do for now. I do feel a little bad for wearing denim to something like this...but have I mentioned...it is a 7?!?!?!?!
The weekend was all mine. Pizza and wings. A MooLatte from Dairy Queen. Pancakes for breakfast Sunday. Time to get back on the horse today and start journalling again.
Baseball is tomorrow. Haven't decided what I'm going to do yet as far as playing since I'm scared SHITLESS the more I think about it, the worse it gets. We'll see what happens tomorrow. Need to get over this fear or I'll never play again.
Aerobics tonight. Hopefully the ankle will be okay for bouncing and jumping around on it. Busy week ahead.
The weekend was all mine. Pizza and wings. A MooLatte from Dairy Queen. Pancakes for breakfast Sunday. Time to get back on the horse today and start journalling again.
Baseball is tomorrow. Haven't decided what I'm going to do yet as far as playing since I'm scared SHITLESS the more I think about it, the worse it gets. We'll see what happens tomorrow. Need to get over this fear or I'll never play again.
Aerobics tonight. Hopefully the ankle will be okay for bouncing and jumping around on it. Busy week ahead.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Week 22 - The Date
October 27th. That is my day to count down to. Back to work. I have mix emotions about going back. I've grown accustomed to my current new life. Fairly routine. James is an easy going, happy-go-lucky baby. When I go back to work, life will become hectic and more stressful and busy. I'm not looking forward to the aspect of leaving my baby for the majority of the day.
I am looking forward to a more structured day. No pantry at my beck and call. No arrowroots handy and ready. I'm especially looking forward to getting back to the gym at lunch.
This week has gone okay. I've been tracking everything again. I may not be right within my daily point range but I am writing it all down. We've had two softball games this week. I only played one and a half. I got hit again at the Wednesday's game. Left leg, above my ankle. This time it throbs worse than the last time. I'm now scared poopless. I've mentioned before that I enjoy playing baseball. It is the only activity I do currently that makes me relax and feel like my old self again. When I'm playing, I'm not Brad's wife, I'm not James' Mommy. I'm just another player on the field. I enjoy pitching. I enjoy the stress and the pressure. All I have to do is concentrate on the ball hitting the board. I enjoy friendly banter with the other team's batters and joking with my own teammates. I love getting up to bat. I love the concentration it takes on hitting the ball and trying to out run the throw to first. I'm free when I play. Now I am terrified. I am happy to take a ball off the knee like the first time or the leg like this time. It stings at first, then throbs then the best part, turns purple and blue and brown and yellow. I'll proudly wear my bruises like badges. I'm not a girly-girl by any definition of the word. However...once I get hit on the leg, in my head, every other ball hit after that is coming straight for my head. I'm terrified of getting hit in the eye socket. Very specific I know. I was able to pitch a few innings after getting hit. Even take my turn at bat. By the second game of the double header Wednesday night, the anxiety had built up so big in my head that I finally broke down and cried. I can't not play. That isn't an option. However, where else can I play? Part of the problem was I had a massively bad headache before the game and all day before playing. I took migraine relief pills followed by an energy drink trying to get rid of the pain. My reflexes probably weren't what they should have been normally. It wasn't an especially fast line drive. I should have gotten the leather on it or been able to dodge it. Too slow pokey joe.
I got to get over my fears. As it is I'm going to get shin pads. What can I wear on my head that won't get in the way of fielding but will protect me in case my reflexes aren't there?
Tomorrow is weigh in. Wish me luck for that elusive 10%!
I am looking forward to a more structured day. No pantry at my beck and call. No arrowroots handy and ready. I'm especially looking forward to getting back to the gym at lunch.
This week has gone okay. I've been tracking everything again. I may not be right within my daily point range but I am writing it all down. We've had two softball games this week. I only played one and a half. I got hit again at the Wednesday's game. Left leg, above my ankle. This time it throbs worse than the last time. I'm now scared poopless. I've mentioned before that I enjoy playing baseball. It is the only activity I do currently that makes me relax and feel like my old self again. When I'm playing, I'm not Brad's wife, I'm not James' Mommy. I'm just another player on the field. I enjoy pitching. I enjoy the stress and the pressure. All I have to do is concentrate on the ball hitting the board. I enjoy friendly banter with the other team's batters and joking with my own teammates. I love getting up to bat. I love the concentration it takes on hitting the ball and trying to out run the throw to first. I'm free when I play. Now I am terrified. I am happy to take a ball off the knee like the first time or the leg like this time. It stings at first, then throbs then the best part, turns purple and blue and brown and yellow. I'll proudly wear my bruises like badges. I'm not a girly-girl by any definition of the word. However...once I get hit on the leg, in my head, every other ball hit after that is coming straight for my head. I'm terrified of getting hit in the eye socket. Very specific I know. I was able to pitch a few innings after getting hit. Even take my turn at bat. By the second game of the double header Wednesday night, the anxiety had built up so big in my head that I finally broke down and cried. I can't not play. That isn't an option. However, where else can I play? Part of the problem was I had a massively bad headache before the game and all day before playing. I took migraine relief pills followed by an energy drink trying to get rid of the pain. My reflexes probably weren't what they should have been normally. It wasn't an especially fast line drive. I should have gotten the leather on it or been able to dodge it. Too slow pokey joe.
I got to get over my fears. As it is I'm going to get shin pads. What can I wear on my head that won't get in the way of fielding but will protect me in case my reflexes aren't there?
Tomorrow is weigh in. Wish me luck for that elusive 10%!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Week 22 (?) - Update Blog
Where to begin?
Let us start with Saturday's weigh in. I lost 1.2 this week. But it doesn't count. Previous week I gained 1.0 so TECHNICALLY I lost 0.2 this week. This upcoming Saturday's weigh in will be week number 3 that I am hoping to achieve Weight Watcher's first main goal of reaching my 10%. I was only 0.8 away from getting a new key chain...this week I'm going to do it. That will make an official 19.2 pounds lost at meetings. I don't *think* I can. I *KNOW* I can.
It has been a busy week so far and it is only Tuesday. Brad had a fire lit under his ass of which I am grateful. He's worked on the basement, started working on the bricks for around his garden (which have been sitting on my patio for a month), helped me take out my evergreen stumps in my front garden. We even managed to go down to the "It's Your Festival" at Gage Park. We made it to Babies R Us to pick up some baby gates (can someone please show me how to use these mother flarkers?) AND got groceries. This is not lazy. This is what I like. Keeping busy. Idle hands are the work of the devil you know.
Yesterday I had a lot of coffee, diet cola, crystal light and an iced coffee thrown in the mix. I was a little high strung and flying. I got so much done though. I think as I get closer and closer to work I get more and more anxious and nervous and worried. I don't want to leave James even if it is just going to be with my parents. I feel guilty now for asking them to watch them. They could have said no...but what if they felt they couldn't? They've already raised to kids. They are retired. This is a big responsibility. Crap, I look at my day and routine, it is busy I hardly ever sit down. When I'm not playing with James I'm either feeding him or walking him around the house. When he is napping I clean like a woman possessed. Yesterday for example I:
Let us start with Saturday's weigh in. I lost 1.2 this week. But it doesn't count. Previous week I gained 1.0 so TECHNICALLY I lost 0.2 this week. This upcoming Saturday's weigh in will be week number 3 that I am hoping to achieve Weight Watcher's first main goal of reaching my 10%. I was only 0.8 away from getting a new key chain...this week I'm going to do it. That will make an official 19.2 pounds lost at meetings. I don't *think* I can. I *KNOW* I can.
It has been a busy week so far and it is only Tuesday. Brad had a fire lit under his ass of which I am grateful. He's worked on the basement, started working on the bricks for around his garden (which have been sitting on my patio for a month), helped me take out my evergreen stumps in my front garden. We even managed to go down to the "It's Your Festival" at Gage Park. We made it to Babies R Us to pick up some baby gates (can someone please show me how to use these mother flarkers?) AND got groceries. This is not lazy. This is what I like. Keeping busy. Idle hands are the work of the devil you know.
Yesterday I had a lot of coffee, diet cola, crystal light and an iced coffee thrown in the mix. I was a little high strung and flying. I got so much done though. I think as I get closer and closer to work I get more and more anxious and nervous and worried. I don't want to leave James even if it is just going to be with my parents. I feel guilty now for asking them to watch them. They could have said no...but what if they felt they couldn't? They've already raised to kids. They are retired. This is a big responsibility. Crap, I look at my day and routine, it is busy I hardly ever sit down. When I'm not playing with James I'm either feeding him or walking him around the house. When he is napping I clean like a woman possessed. Yesterday for example I:
- stripped our bed completely
- washed - the mattress cover, all the pillows, the blanket (which I hung outside to dry for that oh so clean outdoor freshness) and the sheets
- dusted our bedroom - which would include the ceiling fan and pictures on the wall, removing any and all knickknacks from all dressers and surfaces for individual dusting)
- dusted the living room (again, removing any and all knickknacks from surfaces, taking a damp cloth to the couches for cat hair removal, ceiling fan)
- cleaned outside picture window, window in stairwell and side screen door
- cleaned windows in front storm door including gross dirty screen itself
- took down front ugly drapes to wash them and am debating the need to put them back up
- made bottles
- vacuumed everything and everywhere
Oh and to add to my 6 hours of cleaning yesterday (a possible 15 activity points) we had two softball games last night. I pitched every inning and made base every time but once. My quads are completely healed (Thank GOD) so I was able to give it my all in running the bases, sadly I am still slow as all hell...but then again, I was the last season I played and in shape. So I got a LOT of exercise last night. A possible 7 activity points for 2 hours of baseball.
Today I'm feeling it. I'm tired and groggy and my parents are coming over to help me with the floor. There is another game tomorrow. If I don't get my 10% this week there is seriously something wrong with me and I should just give it the fuck it.
Stay busy folks!
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Monday, July 06, 2009
Morning
1 serving(s) Shreddies 3
1/2 small banana(s) 0.5
3 cup(s) black coffee 0.5
Subtotal 4
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
1 tsp Honey mustard 0
1 slice(s) Mozzarella 1
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Subtotal 5.5
Evening
2 slickes Pizza Funghi - Quick-added food 10
Subtotal 10
Anytime
Tim Horton's Iced Coffee w/milk - Quick-added food 4
2 cup(s) Honey Bunches Of Oats 6
Subtotal 10
Food POINTS values total used 29.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
120 min softball 7
360 min cleaning 15
Activity POINTS values earned 22
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Week 23 - Quick Update
Last week at weigh in I gained 1 lb. So I'm back up to 177. Haven't been tracking as much as I should. I don't know if it is the summer block or just the emotions getting the better of me.
I've been feeling trapped and overwhelmed as of late. Doesn't help that I am left at home with a half done house, a cave for a laundry room (dark and extremely dirty) and left NO FRIGGING CAR SEAT. What if there is an emergency? My husband is too goddamn lazy to either switch the cars in the morning or put the car seat back in mine. Whoops...and there is the problem. There is a stain still in the marriage. I've eluded to it in the past. In me it is getting worse and worse the closer I get to work. The closer my return to work date gets (and to this point, I really don't know when exactly that will be, I have an inquiry into that at HR) the more stressed and overwhelmed I get. Things aren't getting done. I've finally given up on nagging and have taken to some of the projects myself. I'm currently in the process of removing some evergreens from the front of our house. I'm just waiting for the perfect weekend where I'm not doing anything to remove the stumps I created two weeks ago. With the help of my Father I am ceramic tiling my front entry way. I've ripped up the old damaged hardwood myself, gotten help to lay some plywood...next week we're tiling and I'm so excited for it. This was a project that we bought all the materials for three...four years ago. I manage to get a lot done as James sleeps. I do find it a little frustrating doing things in hour and a half stints though. I'm the kind of person who will sit for hours doing something...I don't like leaving things half done. Must do things start to finish with maybe a day in between. See? This bothers me. I am able to tile a frigging floor in a total of two weeks start to finish while my husband was laid off for four months and GOT NOTHING DONE. What the fuck? The more I think about it all, the angrier I get and I don't know how to talk to him without my temper getting in the way.
So once again, I am sidetracked from what I really want the most. I haven't been exercising...aerobics starts up again next week thank god...I haven't been watching what I should be eating. I'm just a ball of rage and emotion. Up until now I think I've been pretty patient and understanding. I've run out of patience and understanding. It wouldn't be so bad if he were helpful around the house. Picking up after himself. Putting his lunch bag in the closet after work, not on the kitchen table. Maybe do the laundry twice a week so I don't have to go down into the cave and see the mess that my lower house has become...a source of constant embarrassment. It wouldn't be so bad if he were to do the yard work. Best I see it, I do all the housework, yard work, baby stuff while he does the dishes and makes the bottles every other night. This is why I'm stressing about going back to work. Where in the hell am I going to find time to do everything if I'm working? Most of it I do during the day now. I don't want to do it on the weekend...I want to spend time with James as well.
I'm stuck between guilt of expecting more out of him even though he works, and pissed off because I know more will be expected out of me. I married a lazy, lazy man...who wasn't this lazy when we got married. I don't know what I did or when he stopped caring but I can't live like this. Something has got to give. Add to that my unhappiness with my body and weight...I'm a mess with no escape in sight. Yes...this would be my cry for help. I'm hurting inside and am trying to appear strong on the outside so that no ones knows anything is wrong but I'm not made of stone. I'm about to crack.
I've been feeling trapped and overwhelmed as of late. Doesn't help that I am left at home with a half done house, a cave for a laundry room (dark and extremely dirty) and left NO FRIGGING CAR SEAT. What if there is an emergency? My husband is too goddamn lazy to either switch the cars in the morning or put the car seat back in mine. Whoops...and there is the problem. There is a stain still in the marriage. I've eluded to it in the past. In me it is getting worse and worse the closer I get to work. The closer my return to work date gets (and to this point, I really don't know when exactly that will be, I have an inquiry into that at HR) the more stressed and overwhelmed I get. Things aren't getting done. I've finally given up on nagging and have taken to some of the projects myself. I'm currently in the process of removing some evergreens from the front of our house. I'm just waiting for the perfect weekend where I'm not doing anything to remove the stumps I created two weeks ago. With the help of my Father I am ceramic tiling my front entry way. I've ripped up the old damaged hardwood myself, gotten help to lay some plywood...next week we're tiling and I'm so excited for it. This was a project that we bought all the materials for three...four years ago. I manage to get a lot done as James sleeps. I do find it a little frustrating doing things in hour and a half stints though. I'm the kind of person who will sit for hours doing something...I don't like leaving things half done. Must do things start to finish with maybe a day in between. See? This bothers me. I am able to tile a frigging floor in a total of two weeks start to finish while my husband was laid off for four months and GOT NOTHING DONE. What the fuck? The more I think about it all, the angrier I get and I don't know how to talk to him without my temper getting in the way.
So once again, I am sidetracked from what I really want the most. I haven't been exercising...aerobics starts up again next week thank god...I haven't been watching what I should be eating. I'm just a ball of rage and emotion. Up until now I think I've been pretty patient and understanding. I've run out of patience and understanding. It wouldn't be so bad if he were helpful around the house. Picking up after himself. Putting his lunch bag in the closet after work, not on the kitchen table. Maybe do the laundry twice a week so I don't have to go down into the cave and see the mess that my lower house has become...a source of constant embarrassment. It wouldn't be so bad if he were to do the yard work. Best I see it, I do all the housework, yard work, baby stuff while he does the dishes and makes the bottles every other night. This is why I'm stressing about going back to work. Where in the hell am I going to find time to do everything if I'm working? Most of it I do during the day now. I don't want to do it on the weekend...I want to spend time with James as well.
I'm stuck between guilt of expecting more out of him even though he works, and pissed off because I know more will be expected out of me. I married a lazy, lazy man...who wasn't this lazy when we got married. I don't know what I did or when he stopped caring but I can't live like this. Something has got to give. Add to that my unhappiness with my body and weight...I'm a mess with no escape in sight. Yes...this would be my cry for help. I'm hurting inside and am trying to appear strong on the outside so that no ones knows anything is wrong but I'm not made of stone. I'm about to crack.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Week 21 - The Results Blog - I TOTALLY ROCK!
-3.4
I am totally awesome and stunned that I did this well this week. Lost 3.4! I'm 0.8 away from Weight Watcher's goal of 10%! That means I'll be able to replace my old key chain and start fresh! What an exciting time for me right now. Crunching the numbers I've lost a total of 62 pounds since October 11th, 2008. 18.2 since "officially" rejoining Weight Watchers. And I've done it all in a relatively short amount of time with only 26 more pounds to go. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and it is calling to me!
This past week I was met with plenty of challenges. I met them head on and came out the other side alive. At the party at my Grandfather's last night I did well. I didn't take any potato salad at all. Not a fan of it so why bother taking it if it isn't my favourite. A little tiny bit of macaroni salad. Two hot dogs...only one was on a bun, the other I just dipped in ketchup. MMmmm...hot dogs!
This past week I was met with plenty of challenges. I met them head on and came out the other side alive. At the party at my Grandfather's last night I did well. I didn't take any potato salad at all. Not a fan of it so why bother taking it if it isn't my favourite. A little tiny bit of macaroni salad. Two hot dogs...only one was on a bun, the other I just dipped in ketchup. MMmmm...hot dogs!
Four months left being at home. I'm going to miss it. I'm having trouble coming to terms with it. My Mom was a stay-at-home Mom and I'm nervous about the mechanics of it and finding time to do everything. Now I can clean while James is napping during the week. I've been trying to convince Brad to take James to swimming lessons Saturday mornings but he has yet to sign him up and I fear now it is too late for July classes. I'm coming to terms with certain issues in my life...not sure how I'm going to handle/solve them...slowly simmering though...slow slow burn that will be turning into a wild fire that will be spectacular. On the positive side? Four more months until I can get back to the gym.
Happy weekend!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Week 21 - Eating Out
First I'd like to thank "Who Am I" for posting a comment and suggestion a while back regarding my stressing about losing a point. She suggested looking over my daily journals and find something I could find a way of cutting down the point value. It never occurred to me to do that. Thank you! Your suggestion worked brilliantly! I had been eating a "fried" egg sandwich at lunch. I'd gotten out of the habit of the sandwich with a side of spinach "salad" because it was using too many of my points for lunch. I've started using egg whites instead. I can use three egg whites for 1 point. A bigger tastier sandwich for less point value! And now that that I've invested in Egg Beaters, I'm not wasting 1/2 the egg...since James wasn't too thrilled with mashed up yolk. We'll try again soon. Thanks! You saved me that point I've been missing.
I've had a busy week as I've previously mentioned. Usually I stress out about it, breaking for a routine that I can follow easily and prevents me from snacking and thinking too much about what I'm going to eat and when. It is all about finding the best possibly choices even at a not so good restaurant. I mentioned before Tuesday I had a Veggie Delight wrap from Subway with no cheese. 5 points (an extra point for the honey mustard...hey, I needed some taste!) instead of the 10 I would normally have had for a foot long turkey sub. It is lunch...gotta change my thinking, don't need a foot long at lunch.
Yesterday was a little more difficult. Mom and I were out most of the afternoon shopping. Mom and I love going to a "diner" for lunch. Before the baby we'd go for breakfast...now I just can't get my butt out the door in time. Besides, I like waiting until James wakes up from his morning nap before going anywhere. Gives me time to relax (and get dressed) in the morning. Diners aren't known for the healthiest of foods. I spent a long time before choosing what I'd have. I finally decided on a 1/2 club sandwich with a side of vegetable soup. Best I figure 2 points for the soup and 8 for the sandwich. Not bad considering normally I'd have a quesidilla or full club sandwich or western sandwich with a side of fries. Oh and of course the ever present diet cola.
Dinner...hee hee...it was a baseball night. I hadn't planned on playing last night. I honestly thought it was going to be rained out since the weather hasn't been the best in Southern Ontario as of late. So I made Brad rush. I stayed at my parents' house and he had to bring over my uniform and baby food after work. We were rushed and hungry so we decided on McDonald's. Riddle me this...how does one manage to have only 9 points at McDonalds and avoid feeling full of grease all at the same time? Get a Happy Meal! I'd forgotten all about my lunches while working in Toronto...I'd walk down the street to pick up either a Mandarin Orange Salad or a Happy Meal. Plus...you get a toy...life is good. 4 McNuggets (4 points) and small fries (5 pts) diet coke...you've got yourself an okay meal. Yey me! Now if only I could get rid of this fear that the ball is going right for my right eye socket after every pitch, I'd be a happy girl. Gah...you get hit by one ball and that's all you can think about for the rest of the season...and unfortunately it is effecting my performance "on the mound".
Tonight is a party at my Grandfather's retirement home. Plus it is his birthday. So the family is going there for a BBQ...this will be a challenge for me since I've been having issue with my will power and portion control lately. Tomorrow maybe a family BBQ with the in laws...same issues there. I just have to remind myself that both sides of family know how much weight I gained with James and that I'm a Weight Watchers cultist. They'll be watching me eat...even if it isn't true...going in with that mentality will help to keep me in check.
(Ps...yeah I know softball isn't really 7 points of activity...especially when you suck and need a pinch runner...Thanks Karyn!)
Happy weekend all.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Morning
3/4 cup(s) Quaker Life Oat Bran Cereal 2
1 large banana(s) 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 1/2 tbsp Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing 1
1 item(s) Veggie Delite Sub 4
Subtotal 5
Evening
Whole Chicken Leg - Quick-added food 6
1 cup(s) cooked brown rice 4
Subtotal 10
Anytime
Lrg Iced Coffee w/Milk - Quick-added food 2
1 serving(s) Crackers 2
1 serving(s) Animal crackers 2
Subtotal 6
Food POINTS values total used 25
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Morning
3/4 cup(s) Quaker Life Oat Bran Cereal 2
1 large banana(s) 2
4c Herbal Tea - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) vegetable Soup 2
1/2 item(s) club sandwich 7.5
Subtotal 9.5
Evening
1 small French Fries 5
Happy Meal Sized Diet Coke - Quick-added food 0
4 pieces Chicken McNuggets, Small 4
Subtotal 9
Anytime
2 item(s) English muffin(s), any type 5
2 tbsp peanut butter 4.5
2 tbsp Strawberry Spreadable Fruit 1.5
Subtotal 11
Food POINTS values total used 33.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
120 min softball 7
Activity POINTS values earned 7
I've had a busy week as I've previously mentioned. Usually I stress out about it, breaking for a routine that I can follow easily and prevents me from snacking and thinking too much about what I'm going to eat and when. It is all about finding the best possibly choices even at a not so good restaurant. I mentioned before Tuesday I had a Veggie Delight wrap from Subway with no cheese. 5 points (an extra point for the honey mustard...hey, I needed some taste!) instead of the 10 I would normally have had for a foot long turkey sub. It is lunch...gotta change my thinking, don't need a foot long at lunch.
Yesterday was a little more difficult. Mom and I were out most of the afternoon shopping. Mom and I love going to a "diner" for lunch. Before the baby we'd go for breakfast...now I just can't get my butt out the door in time. Besides, I like waiting until James wakes up from his morning nap before going anywhere. Gives me time to relax (and get dressed) in the morning. Diners aren't known for the healthiest of foods. I spent a long time before choosing what I'd have. I finally decided on a 1/2 club sandwich with a side of vegetable soup. Best I figure 2 points for the soup and 8 for the sandwich. Not bad considering normally I'd have a quesidilla or full club sandwich or western sandwich with a side of fries. Oh and of course the ever present diet cola.
Dinner...hee hee...it was a baseball night. I hadn't planned on playing last night. I honestly thought it was going to be rained out since the weather hasn't been the best in Southern Ontario as of late. So I made Brad rush. I stayed at my parents' house and he had to bring over my uniform and baby food after work. We were rushed and hungry so we decided on McDonald's. Riddle me this...how does one manage to have only 9 points at McDonalds and avoid feeling full of grease all at the same time? Get a Happy Meal! I'd forgotten all about my lunches while working in Toronto...I'd walk down the street to pick up either a Mandarin Orange Salad or a Happy Meal. Plus...you get a toy...life is good. 4 McNuggets (4 points) and small fries (5 pts) diet coke...you've got yourself an okay meal. Yey me! Now if only I could get rid of this fear that the ball is going right for my right eye socket after every pitch, I'd be a happy girl. Gah...you get hit by one ball and that's all you can think about for the rest of the season...and unfortunately it is effecting my performance "on the mound".
Tonight is a party at my Grandfather's retirement home. Plus it is his birthday. So the family is going there for a BBQ...this will be a challenge for me since I've been having issue with my will power and portion control lately. Tomorrow maybe a family BBQ with the in laws...same issues there. I just have to remind myself that both sides of family know how much weight I gained with James and that I'm a Weight Watchers cultist. They'll be watching me eat...even if it isn't true...going in with that mentality will help to keep me in check.
(Ps...yeah I know softball isn't really 7 points of activity...especially when you suck and need a pinch runner...Thanks Karyn!)
Happy weekend all.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Morning
3/4 cup(s) Quaker Life Oat Bran Cereal 2
1 large banana(s) 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 1/2 tbsp Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing 1
1 item(s) Veggie Delite Sub 4
Subtotal 5
Evening
Whole Chicken Leg - Quick-added food 6
1 cup(s) cooked brown rice 4
Subtotal 10
Anytime
Lrg Iced Coffee w/Milk - Quick-added food 2
1 serving(s) Crackers 2
1 serving(s) Animal crackers 2
Subtotal 6
Food POINTS values total used 25
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Morning
3/4 cup(s) Quaker Life Oat Bran Cereal 2
1 large banana(s) 2
4c Herbal Tea - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 cup(s) vegetable Soup 2
1/2 item(s) club sandwich 7.5
Subtotal 9.5
Evening
1 small French Fries 5
Happy Meal Sized Diet Coke - Quick-added food 0
4 pieces Chicken McNuggets, Small 4
Subtotal 9
Anytime
2 item(s) English muffin(s), any type 5
2 tbsp peanut butter 4.5
2 tbsp Strawberry Spreadable Fruit 1.5
Subtotal 11
Food POINTS values total used 33.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
120 min softball 7
Activity POINTS values earned 7
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Week 21 - Playing it by Ear
I'm journalling this week. At times too late. But I am journalling. I've been at my parents' house soon to be three days this week but have been doing good while there. Yesterday there was a Ritz cracker incident but I came out of it okay.
Lunch was a Veggie Delight wrap from Subway with no cheese and we changed it up a little bit with some honey mustard. Mmmmm....sooo good! Didn't even miss the meat and got in some vegetables.
Then yesterday I went for coffee with friends and didn't get a latte like I normally would. I ordered an herbal tea. With no caffeine. Blueberry tea. Quite nice. Baby steps but baby sets in the right direction right?
Dinner has been going well this week and had been planned out in advance. Monday night we ate at my parents. Ended up having two hamburgers once again even though I only planned on one. Tuesday we had whole chicken legs with roasted asparagus and potatoes. I've got to use a little less olive oil. I'll get it right eventually. Yesterday was whole chicken legs again with brown rice. Doing good, doing good.
Two and a half more days until weigh in...hopefully I can keep this up. I like our home scale MUCH better. Before going to bed last night I was 175...why after eating and drinking all day do I weigh less than I do on a Saturday morning before eating? I don't get it.
Happy Thursday!
Lunch was a Veggie Delight wrap from Subway with no cheese and we changed it up a little bit with some honey mustard. Mmmmm....sooo good! Didn't even miss the meat and got in some vegetables.
Then yesterday I went for coffee with friends and didn't get a latte like I normally would. I ordered an herbal tea. With no caffeine. Blueberry tea. Quite nice. Baby steps but baby sets in the right direction right?
Dinner has been going well this week and had been planned out in advance. Monday night we ate at my parents. Ended up having two hamburgers once again even though I only planned on one. Tuesday we had whole chicken legs with roasted asparagus and potatoes. I've got to use a little less olive oil. I'll get it right eventually. Yesterday was whole chicken legs again with brown rice. Doing good, doing good.
Two and a half more days until weigh in...hopefully I can keep this up. I like our home scale MUCH better. Before going to bed last night I was 175...why after eating and drinking all day do I weigh less than I do on a Saturday morning before eating? I don't get it.
Happy Thursday!
Monday, June 15, 2009
Week 20 - The Results Blog
I'm up 0.4 this week. But I am accepting of that on two accounts. These aren't excuses. They are me coming to terms with things.
1. I didn't journal last week and let my eating get the better of me. I cannot keep turning to food when I'm emotional. Bad bad bad. Bad. Time for a Kim shopping trip again I think. I am stressed to the max and need a day away. But I have nothing to do. Sucks.
2. I lost a point. When the middle number of your weight changes, so does your daily point allotment. It usually takes me a bit of adjusting to figure out where I can cut back. I am looking at my breakfast. I'll take out the yogurt (sometimes glass of milk) and just add more coffee. Hmmm...or rather stop the banana on the cereal to keep in the serving of dairy and add more coffee. Either way, greasy sweats or not...I'm adding more coffee. Just can't function with out it.
We have food in the house again. I tried to make a conscious effort on lower point, better for you foods while shopping. We bought most of the food from the fresh food section and hardly any from the frozen food section. Desperately trying to get away from processed. It is so hard without a weekly meal plan. In fact, as I'm writing this, I am realizing my plan for tonight is already screwed. We were going to have bbqed whole chicken legs, potatoes and onions in foil on the bbq and roasted asparagus in the oven....and then it hit me. We're out of propane. And I don't do propane. Poop.
See...? There's always something!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Morning
Weight Watchers Brownie Bar - Quick-added food 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Chocolate Caramel Just 1 pt Bar - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 3
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1/2 cup(s) Sugar-Free Cherry 0
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
Kraft Cheese Slice - Quick-added food 2
Diet Pepsi Max - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
2 Spinach Tortillas - Quick-added food 7
1 boneless Skinless Chicken Breast - Quick-added food 3
1/8 cup(s) fat-free sour cream 0.5
1/2 oz cheese - Quick-added food 2
Subtotal 12.5
Anytime
3 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 2
1/2 cup(s) Peanut Butter Chocolate Persuasion Ice Cream 6
Subtotal 8
Food POINTS values total used 29.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise 30 min walking, leisure 1
Activity POINTS values earned 1
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Morning
3/4 cup(s) Quaker Life Oat Bran Cereal 2
1 large banana(s) 2
1 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1
Subtotal 5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
5 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2.5
Kraft Cheese Slice - Quick-added food 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
Diet Pepsi Max - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 6.5
Evening
2 item(s) hamburger bun(s) 6.5
2 burger(s) Tuna burger, 98% fat free 4
1/2 oz Mild marbled cheddar cheese 1.5
Subtotal 12
Anytime
Brownie Bar - Quick-added food 2
Chocolate Caramel 1pt Bars - Quick-added food 2
2 cup(s) Cinnamon Toast Crunch 7
Subtotal 11
Food POINTS values total used 34.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
90 min gardening, hedging 5
Activity POINTS values earned 5
1. I didn't journal last week and let my eating get the better of me. I cannot keep turning to food when I'm emotional. Bad bad bad. Bad. Time for a Kim shopping trip again I think. I am stressed to the max and need a day away. But I have nothing to do. Sucks.
2. I lost a point. When the middle number of your weight changes, so does your daily point allotment. It usually takes me a bit of adjusting to figure out where I can cut back. I am looking at my breakfast. I'll take out the yogurt (sometimes glass of milk) and just add more coffee. Hmmm...or rather stop the banana on the cereal to keep in the serving of dairy and add more coffee. Either way, greasy sweats or not...I'm adding more coffee. Just can't function with out it.
We have food in the house again. I tried to make a conscious effort on lower point, better for you foods while shopping. We bought most of the food from the fresh food section and hardly any from the frozen food section. Desperately trying to get away from processed. It is so hard without a weekly meal plan. In fact, as I'm writing this, I am realizing my plan for tonight is already screwed. We were going to have bbqed whole chicken legs, potatoes and onions in foil on the bbq and roasted asparagus in the oven....and then it hit me. We're out of propane. And I don't do propane. Poop.
See...? There's always something!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Morning
Weight Watchers Brownie Bar - Quick-added food 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Chocolate Caramel Just 1 pt Bar - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 3
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1/2 cup(s) Sugar-Free Cherry 0
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
Kraft Cheese Slice - Quick-added food 2
Diet Pepsi Max - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 6
Evening
2 Spinach Tortillas - Quick-added food 7
1 boneless Skinless Chicken Breast - Quick-added food 3
1/8 cup(s) fat-free sour cream 0.5
1/2 oz cheese - Quick-added food 2
Subtotal 12.5
Anytime
3 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 2
1/2 cup(s) Peanut Butter Chocolate Persuasion Ice Cream 6
Subtotal 8
Food POINTS values total used 29.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise 30 min walking, leisure 1
Activity POINTS values earned 1
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Morning
3/4 cup(s) Quaker Life Oat Bran Cereal 2
1 large banana(s) 2
1 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1
Subtotal 5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
5 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2.5
Kraft Cheese Slice - Quick-added food 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
Diet Pepsi Max - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 6.5
Evening
2 item(s) hamburger bun(s) 6.5
2 burger(s) Tuna burger, 98% fat free 4
1/2 oz Mild marbled cheddar cheese 1.5
Subtotal 12
Anytime
Brownie Bar - Quick-added food 2
Chocolate Caramel 1pt Bars - Quick-added food 2
2 cup(s) Cinnamon Toast Crunch 7
Subtotal 11
Food POINTS values total used 34.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
90 min gardening, hedging 5
Activity POINTS values earned 5
Friday, June 12, 2009
Week 20 - Unmemorable
This week kind of got away from me. I have been journalling but without much enthusiasm. Haven't spent much time at the computer so I have e-mailed my food journal buddies nor have I written my blog. When you have an unmemorable week, it is hard to come up with things to write about.
I do know it has been stressful for no other reason than I think too much. The 8 months at home are starting to get to me. Wednesday and Thursday I went for a walk. Wednesday's walk was to clear my head and relieve some of my inner tension. Yesterday's walk was purely to drop some papers off at the bank...but an hour walk is an hour walk right?
Have learned that on baseball days it isn't a good idea to clean the house, go for a walk and NOT drink coffee. I was practically falling asleep in the parking lot. Luckily I drank Brad's energy drink....and couldn't sleep last night.
The house is empty of most healthy non processed foods so finding things to eat for breakfast and lunch has been challenging. I think it has actually helped me this time. I've had to be more creative and get away from the usual Shredded Wheat and yogurt blah blah blah.
Not going to bother posting my journal since I haven't updated my on-line one at all this week and my time is precious when James is napping.
Happy weekend everyone. Be good!
I do know it has been stressful for no other reason than I think too much. The 8 months at home are starting to get to me. Wednesday and Thursday I went for a walk. Wednesday's walk was to clear my head and relieve some of my inner tension. Yesterday's walk was purely to drop some papers off at the bank...but an hour walk is an hour walk right?
Have learned that on baseball days it isn't a good idea to clean the house, go for a walk and NOT drink coffee. I was practically falling asleep in the parking lot. Luckily I drank Brad's energy drink....and couldn't sleep last night.
The house is empty of most healthy non processed foods so finding things to eat for breakfast and lunch has been challenging. I think it has actually helped me this time. I've had to be more creative and get away from the usual Shredded Wheat and yogurt blah blah blah.
Not going to bother posting my journal since I haven't updated my on-line one at all this week and my time is precious when James is napping.
Happy weekend everyone. Be good!
Monday, June 8, 2009
Week 20 - NOT at the Zoo :(
Gah. What a waste of a vacation day for my poor husband. We're obviously NOT at the zoo. With expected showers and thunder storms for today, we weren't chancing it. Besides. It is rather cold. Maybe I can convince the men in my life for a walk down by the Harbour Queen. Not at all with ulterior motives since there is a Timothy's Coffee Pub there as well.
I've found a way to get in some milk AND caffeine without hating that I am drinking away my points. Homemade latte. Seems obvious right? I just always assumed that it was too difficult to make a latte. Almost as good as my Second Cup lattes (but not up to par with Starbucks). We bought dark roast coffee and it tastes like ass IMHO. What do you do with strong coffee? You make lemonade! Er...or you get the idea. 1 cup of strong hot coffee, 1 cup of hot milk (first I attempted it in the microwave...it boiled over and made a hell of a mess. Next tried it on the stove and burnt the bottom of the pan...so the perfect cup is in the middle somewhere). In large mug add milk to coffee (so far 2 points) then add in 1tbsp of Quik Chocolate Syrup for 1 point. And VOILA! 3 point Mocha Latte! Much cheaper, accessible and tastier than going out for one. I'm so smart! S-M-R-T!
That was about the only highlight of the food journal weekend. Busy day Saturday. Boring day Sunday which leads to over eating for me.
Here's the journals. Lost a point so have to adjust. And MUST MUST MUST track this week and stay on program. While I may not have been an angel this past weekend, I once again journalled EVERYTHING. That is key. ALWAYS journal even if you think you've screwed your day (and week) up. WRITE IT DOWN. It really does help me stay in the proper mind set. I've had weeks where I've had a bad weekend, didn't write it down and I keep up that kind of momentum for the rest of the week. Last time it took me three whole weeks to get tracking again. Don't do that to yourself. Always write it down.
Have a great day everyone!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Morning
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 item(s) Foot Long 14
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 14
Evening
6 oz cooked lean beef steak 7.5
Medium Potato - Quick-added food 3
Subtotal 10.5
Anytime
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
2 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1.5
Coffee Toffee Twisty Frosty - Quick-added food 12 <-----NOT WORTH IT. Spend the money and extra points and get a frappicino if you are craving something icecream and coffee like.
Subtotal 15.5
Food POINTS values total used 44
Food POINTS values remaining 0
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
Chocolate Syrup - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 6
Midday
2 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 4
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
Subtotal 6
Evening
2 slice(s) cooked lean pork 4.5
2 cup(s) potato, red, white 4.5
1 cup(s) canned green peas 2
Subtotal 11
Anytime
2 piece(s) pineapple upside-down cake (2 1/2 inch square) 11 <---- Brad baked...how could I not?
24 item(s) tortilla chips 6
1/2 cup(s) salsa 0
Subtotal 17
Food POINTS values total used 40
Food POINTS values remaining 0
I've found a way to get in some milk AND caffeine without hating that I am drinking away my points. Homemade latte. Seems obvious right? I just always assumed that it was too difficult to make a latte. Almost as good as my Second Cup lattes (but not up to par with Starbucks). We bought dark roast coffee and it tastes like ass IMHO. What do you do with strong coffee? You make lemonade! Er...or you get the idea. 1 cup of strong hot coffee, 1 cup of hot milk (first I attempted it in the microwave...it boiled over and made a hell of a mess. Next tried it on the stove and burnt the bottom of the pan...so the perfect cup is in the middle somewhere). In large mug add milk to coffee (so far 2 points) then add in 1tbsp of Quik Chocolate Syrup for 1 point. And VOILA! 3 point Mocha Latte! Much cheaper, accessible and tastier than going out for one. I'm so smart! S-M-R-T!
That was about the only highlight of the food journal weekend. Busy day Saturday. Boring day Sunday which leads to over eating for me.
Here's the journals. Lost a point so have to adjust. And MUST MUST MUST track this week and stay on program. While I may not have been an angel this past weekend, I once again journalled EVERYTHING. That is key. ALWAYS journal even if you think you've screwed your day (and week) up. WRITE IT DOWN. It really does help me stay in the proper mind set. I've had weeks where I've had a bad weekend, didn't write it down and I keep up that kind of momentum for the rest of the week. Last time it took me three whole weeks to get tracking again. Don't do that to yourself. Always write it down.
Have a great day everyone!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Morning
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
Subtotal 4
Midday
1 item(s) Foot Long 14
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 14
Evening
6 oz cooked lean beef steak 7.5
Medium Potato - Quick-added food 3
Subtotal 10.5
Anytime
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
2 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1.5
Coffee Toffee Twisty Frosty - Quick-added food 12 <-----NOT WORTH IT. Spend the money and extra points and get a frappicino if you are craving something icecream and coffee like.
Subtotal 15.5
Food POINTS values total used 44
Food POINTS values remaining 0
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
Chocolate Syrup - Quick-added food 1
Subtotal 6
Midday
2 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 4
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
Subtotal 6
Evening
2 slice(s) cooked lean pork 4.5
2 cup(s) potato, red, white 4.5
1 cup(s) canned green peas 2
Subtotal 11
Anytime
2 piece(s) pineapple upside-down cake (2 1/2 inch square) 11 <---- Brad baked...how could I not?
24 item(s) tortilla chips 6
1/2 cup(s) salsa 0
Subtotal 17
Food POINTS values total used 40
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Week 19 - The RESULTS Blog
-3.2!!
If there were a way to make that number flash and blink and dance I would. This week I managed to lose 3.2. There are however a few asterisks involved with this week's results.
1. I missed weighing in last week. So this is actually a two week result.
2. I didn't have a very good week prior to this weigh in so I may see the damage at this coming Saturday's weigh in.
3. It is in my nature to diminish my accomplishments by saying yes...but. Why must I do that to myself?
So my weight is now officially out of the 180's and I'm tipping the scales at 179! Great news for me! I now lose a point a day though. I must now stay within 23 daily points. Crap. I was having enough trouble with 24.
Crunching the numbers I've now lost at total of 59 pounds since October 11, 2008. I have 29 more to go. 26 if you want to get technical and go back to where I was pre-pregnancy. This number (29) seems a lot easier than the 32 I was stuck at forever.
The body certainly doesn't look (or feel) the same as it did before. I've been trying to remember what my body looked like the first time before I joined Weight Watchers. Did my belly button of that folded over line, lived in look? Will my tummy go flatish again? Will my arms get toned again? Will my butt get rounded again rather than have these flat spots? Will my freaking thighs stop rubbing together? I remember the first time around when it dawned on my that my thighs no longer rubbed when I walked to the office from the subway station. The next day I wore a skirt without nylons (middle of the summer, MAN I was grateful) and I smiled the entire way. That was a moment when I knew I could to this. I'm still waiting for that to happen.
I'll get there. In due time. Patience...
Crunching the numbers I've now lost at total of 59 pounds since October 11, 2008. I have 29 more to go. 26 if you want to get technical and go back to where I was pre-pregnancy. This number (29) seems a lot easier than the 32 I was stuck at forever.
The body certainly doesn't look (or feel) the same as it did before. I've been trying to remember what my body looked like the first time before I joined Weight Watchers. Did my belly button of that folded over line, lived in look? Will my tummy go flatish again? Will my arms get toned again? Will my butt get rounded again rather than have these flat spots? Will my freaking thighs stop rubbing together? I remember the first time around when it dawned on my that my thighs no longer rubbed when I walked to the office from the subway station. The next day I wore a skirt without nylons (middle of the summer, MAN I was grateful) and I smiled the entire way. That was a moment when I knew I could to this. I'm still waiting for that to happen.
I'll get there. In due time. Patience...
Friday, June 5, 2009
Week 19 - Icing Up
It finally happened. Got it done and over the way early in the season. I got hit. I got hit hard. Right in the knee cap. Being a pitcher on a softball team, you have to expect and accept the fact that sooner or later you are going to take a line drive up the middle to a body part. All I ask is that I walk away each game with my teeth intact and my face unscathed. Hasn't turned purple yet. I have a feeling like the line drive to my forearm two years ago this one won't be turning pretty colours. Too deep. Now I can put the fear of being hit aside and focus on hitting the plate!
I hope it doesn't get too sore. I'm sitting here icing it up again. Brad has taken Monday off and we're taking James to the zoo. I hope a) the weather is nice and b) I can walk it.
I'm looking forward to going to the zoo. I think (and hope) James will love it. I know he's young still (soon enough to be 8 months) but he loves animals. He squeals in delight every time Coffee or Norris comes into the room. When outside and a stray cat walks by he loves it. Watches birds and flaps his arms (not because he knows this is what birds do...because that is what he does when he is excited). I'm also looking forward to the exercise. All day walking...or for a few hours at least. Now just keep your fingers crossed for me that the weather is nice.
I almost manage to stay right on point range last night. If it weren't for the dumbass working the Mr. Sub drive thu I would have. I ordered a Turkey sub on Whole Wheat with no cheese or onions with lots of pickles and mustard. I somehow ended up with a Turkey Sub (yay!) on cheese bread WITH cheese (no onions...yay! Good for you!) with lots of Black Olives (YUCKY) and Ranch sauce. DUMBASS! So extra points for the cheese, cheese bread and ranch dressing. Frig. Couldn't go back and complain because we got 'em before the game and ate them after. Lesson learned. Just wait until after. Play hungry.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Morning
1 large banana(s) 2
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 5
Midday
Orange Chicken - Quick-added food 4
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 6.5
Evening
Gross Sub that dumbass at Mr. Sub screwed up - Quick-added food 14
Subtotal 14
Anytime
2 serving(s) Rockstar Energy Drink - Light Vanilla Roast 2.5
Subtotal 2.5
Food POINTS values total used 28
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
90 min softball 5
Activity POINTS values earned 5
I hope it doesn't get too sore. I'm sitting here icing it up again. Brad has taken Monday off and we're taking James to the zoo. I hope a) the weather is nice and b) I can walk it.
I'm looking forward to going to the zoo. I think (and hope) James will love it. I know he's young still (soon enough to be 8 months) but he loves animals. He squeals in delight every time Coffee or Norris comes into the room. When outside and a stray cat walks by he loves it. Watches birds and flaps his arms (not because he knows this is what birds do...because that is what he does when he is excited). I'm also looking forward to the exercise. All day walking...or for a few hours at least. Now just keep your fingers crossed for me that the weather is nice.
I almost manage to stay right on point range last night. If it weren't for the dumbass working the Mr. Sub drive thu I would have. I ordered a Turkey sub on Whole Wheat with no cheese or onions with lots of pickles and mustard. I somehow ended up with a Turkey Sub (yay!) on cheese bread WITH cheese (no onions...yay! Good for you!) with lots of Black Olives (YUCKY) and Ranch sauce. DUMBASS! So extra points for the cheese, cheese bread and ranch dressing. Frig. Couldn't go back and complain because we got 'em before the game and ate them after. Lesson learned. Just wait until after. Play hungry.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Morning
1 large banana(s) 2
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 5
Midday
Orange Chicken - Quick-added food 4
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 6.5
Evening
Gross Sub that dumbass at Mr. Sub screwed up - Quick-added food 14
Subtotal 14
Anytime
2 serving(s) Rockstar Energy Drink - Light Vanilla Roast 2.5
Subtotal 2.5
Food POINTS values total used 28
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
90 min softball 5
Activity POINTS values earned 5
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Week 19 - Remaining Positive
Okay. So I'm over my flex points AND 30 activity points by 18.5 points for the entire week...not that anyone counting (er ha ha) but that's an extra 83.5 points I've over eaten. 83.5 points. Where did it go? I don't recall eating one thing this week and thinking...man...that was a lot of points but SO worth it. Even my Pecan Mudslide after playing four games of softball in one day wasn't worth it. I was too freaking tired to enjoy it.
Time to spin it into a positive. Yes, I'm horribly horribly over points. But wait, I know exactly how horribly over points I am and I know exactly what I've eaten each day this week. I've written every single solitary thing down that has passed these lips. It would have been easy enough for me to say screw it. I'm not writing that. What's the point? Think of it this way...if I hadn't written it all down I'd be lying to myself by saying, "Why did I gain that much? My week wasn't that bad." I know I'd have said this...I've done it many times before. Then I would have blamed the gain on being bloated and it being a couple days before that special time of the month. I would have continued on lying to myself next week too, feeling sorry for myself. Telling myself I am a failure and that this stupid plan isn't working. I would have lied and I would have believed it. I can't now. I have it all written down. The thing is Weight Watchers works. I works awesomely. Millions of people who've lost weight all over the world are living proof that Weight Watchers works. Look at me. I had lost 32 pounds previously and had kept it off for 5 years. That is proof it works. But...you have to do the work. I will do the work. I did it last time without a shred of exercise. I can and WILL do this again. I had an off week. It is behind me. Time to get back at it with a vengeance.
Note to self...Thursdays suck for trying to get James to have a long nap. Snotty baby or not. Can't sleep through Garbage trucks, Recycling Trucks, Green Bin trucks AND just for fun a goddamn street sweeper today FUCK!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 3
Midday
Orange Chicken Lean Cuisine - Quick-added food 4
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 6
Evening
4 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 5
2 pattie(s) cooked ground turkey (Club House Sloppy Joe mix) 9.5
Subtotal 14.5
Anytime
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Medium Banana 2
Subtotal 0.5
Food POINTS values total used 26
Food POINTS values remaining +2
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Time to spin it into a positive. Yes, I'm horribly horribly over points. But wait, I know exactly how horribly over points I am and I know exactly what I've eaten each day this week. I've written every single solitary thing down that has passed these lips. It would have been easy enough for me to say screw it. I'm not writing that. What's the point? Think of it this way...if I hadn't written it all down I'd be lying to myself by saying, "Why did I gain that much? My week wasn't that bad." I know I'd have said this...I've done it many times before. Then I would have blamed the gain on being bloated and it being a couple days before that special time of the month. I would have continued on lying to myself next week too, feeling sorry for myself. Telling myself I am a failure and that this stupid plan isn't working. I would have lied and I would have believed it. I can't now. I have it all written down. The thing is Weight Watchers works. I works awesomely. Millions of people who've lost weight all over the world are living proof that Weight Watchers works. Look at me. I had lost 32 pounds previously and had kept it off for 5 years. That is proof it works. But...you have to do the work. I will do the work. I did it last time without a shred of exercise. I can and WILL do this again. I had an off week. It is behind me. Time to get back at it with a vengeance.
Note to self...Thursdays suck for trying to get James to have a long nap. Snotty baby or not. Can't sleep through Garbage trucks, Recycling Trucks, Green Bin trucks AND just for fun a goddamn street sweeper today FUCK!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 3
Midday
Orange Chicken Lean Cuisine - Quick-added food 4
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 6
Evening
4 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 5
2 pattie(s) cooked ground turkey (Club House Sloppy Joe mix) 9.5
Subtotal 14.5
Anytime
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Medium Banana 2
Subtotal 0.5
Food POINTS values total used 26
Food POINTS values remaining +2
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Week 19 - Still having a heck of a time.
Just can't get my head around things this week. Brad was home sick yesterday and something as simple as having him around and it not feeling like a "normal day" was enough to throw me off. I'm fully expecting a gain for this week. Plus I'm bloated and have only just started drinking water to get rid of the sodium and bloat. Still really tired. When I finally got James down for a nap yesterday everyone in the house slept until almost 4:30. Guess we're all really tired. I can't even get up the energy to go for a walk this week. James and I skipped out on Mother Goose today since we're both not feeling 100% and I didn't want to get the other Mothers and Babies sick too. I don't want to be "that guy".
Planning dinner now what have I got in the house? Wish me luck. This is getting hard.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
1 slice(s) Singles American pasteurized prepared cheese 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
1 cup(s) Italian Style Wedding Soup 2
Subtotal 8
Evening
6 oz cooked pork backribs, lean and fat 17
1 large potato, baked 3
Subtotal 20
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 30.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Planning dinner now what have I got in the house? Wish me luck. This is getting hard.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
1 slice(s) Singles American pasteurized prepared cheese 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
1 cup(s) Italian Style Wedding Soup 2
Subtotal 8
Evening
6 oz cooked pork backribs, lean and fat 17
1 large potato, baked 3
Subtotal 20
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 30.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Week 19 - Capable of Salvaging?
The good news? I am journalling. The bad news? I'm -15 points in the hole this week (technically only day 4) including using my 25 gained activity points. Oops.
So my killer week last week of being good, staying within points and journalling like a mad woman isn't going to be worth a hill of beans to me.
Why I wonder can't I stay on program for more than a week straight? This week I have been tired and sick. That shouldn't mean that I can't eat well. Even though I told myself yesterday I wasn't going to do it...we had frozen pizza and wings for dinner. I only had one slice of the pizza. The good news is that junk is now out of the house. No more frozen pizzas to fall back on. Last grocery day I picked up the things I would put on a homemade pizza. Now I just have to make the dough. No problem! I am going to start thinking of what is for dinner right now. Brad called in sick to work so I should have an easier time cooking without trying to figure our dinner out, cook it and feed James all at the same time.
Here's the past three days journals. I really didn't think they were that bad at the time. Lesson learned. Even if busy take the time to work out the points. I had my books with me...I don't know why I didn't keep track. Live and learn.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Morning
2 cup(s) Honey Bunches Of Oats With Almonds 6.5
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 cup(s) orange juice, chilled, includes from concentrate 2
1 tbsp jam 1
Subtotal 9.5
Midday
1/2 cup(s) scrambled eggs 5
1 slice(s) cooked lean ham 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 tsp margarine 1
1 tbsp peanut butter 2
Subtotal 12
Evening
3 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 3.5
5 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2.5
1 serving(s) Rockstar Energy Drink - Light Vanilla Roast 1
2 Slices Frozen Pizza - Quick-added food 10
Subtotal 17
Anytime
1 serving(s) Pecan Mudslide 16
Subtotal 16
Food POINTS values total used 54.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
300 min softball 18
Activity POINTS values earned 18
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Morning
2 cup(s) Organic honey bunches of oats honey roasted 6
Lemon Bun - Quick-added food 6
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 12
Midday
1 serving(s) French Fries 9
1 serving(s) Chicken Nuggets 6
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 15
Evening
1 cup(s) canned green peas 2
6 oz cooked trimmed beef round steak or roast 7.5
1/2 cup(s) canned beef gravy 1.5
1 cup(s) mashed potatoes 4.5
Subtotal 15.5
Anytime
Whole Wheat Bun - Quick-added food 3
Turkey - Quick-added food 2
Havartti Cheese - Quick-added food 3
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 10
Food POINTS values total used 52.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
120 min softball 7
Activity POINTS values earned 7
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, June 01, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
8 fl oz Low acid orange juice 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
Whole Wheat Bun - Quick-added food 3
2 oz havarti cheese 5
5 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2.5
Subtotal 10.5
Evening
10 item(s) Honey Garlic Chicken Wings 12
1 Slice Deluxe Frozen Pizza - Quick-added food 6
Subtotal 18
Anytime
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
6 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 4
Subtotal 6
Food POINTS values total used 40
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
So my killer week last week of being good, staying within points and journalling like a mad woman isn't going to be worth a hill of beans to me.
Why I wonder can't I stay on program for more than a week straight? This week I have been tired and sick. That shouldn't mean that I can't eat well. Even though I told myself yesterday I wasn't going to do it...we had frozen pizza and wings for dinner. I only had one slice of the pizza. The good news is that junk is now out of the house. No more frozen pizzas to fall back on. Last grocery day I picked up the things I would put on a homemade pizza. Now I just have to make the dough. No problem! I am going to start thinking of what is for dinner right now. Brad called in sick to work so I should have an easier time cooking without trying to figure our dinner out, cook it and feed James all at the same time.
Here's the past three days journals. I really didn't think they were that bad at the time. Lesson learned. Even if busy take the time to work out the points. I had my books with me...I don't know why I didn't keep track. Live and learn.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Morning
2 cup(s) Honey Bunches Of Oats With Almonds 6.5
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
1 cup(s) orange juice, chilled, includes from concentrate 2
1 tbsp jam 1
Subtotal 9.5
Midday
1/2 cup(s) scrambled eggs 5
1 slice(s) cooked lean ham 2
2 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 2
1 tsp margarine 1
1 tbsp peanut butter 2
Subtotal 12
Evening
3 slice(s) whole-wheat bread 3.5
5 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2.5
1 serving(s) Rockstar Energy Drink - Light Vanilla Roast 1
2 Slices Frozen Pizza - Quick-added food 10
Subtotal 17
Anytime
1 serving(s) Pecan Mudslide 16
Subtotal 16
Food POINTS values total used 54.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
300 min softball 18
Activity POINTS values earned 18
POINTS® Tracker entries
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Morning
2 cup(s) Organic honey bunches of oats honey roasted 6
Lemon Bun - Quick-added food 6
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 12
Midday
1 serving(s) French Fries 9
1 serving(s) Chicken Nuggets 6
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 15
Evening
1 cup(s) canned green peas 2
6 oz cooked trimmed beef round steak or roast 7.5
1/2 cup(s) canned beef gravy 1.5
1 cup(s) mashed potatoes 4.5
Subtotal 15.5
Anytime
Whole Wheat Bun - Quick-added food 3
Turkey - Quick-added food 2
Havartti Cheese - Quick-added food 3
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
Subtotal 10
Food POINTS values total used 52.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
120 min softball 7
Activity POINTS values earned 7
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, June 01, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
8 fl oz Low acid orange juice 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
Whole Wheat Bun - Quick-added food 3
2 oz havarti cheese 5
5 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2.5
Subtotal 10.5
Evening
10 item(s) Honey Garlic Chicken Wings 12
1 Slice Deluxe Frozen Pizza - Quick-added food 6
Subtotal 18
Anytime
1 bar(s) Oats & chocolate 2
6 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 4
Subtotal 6
Food POINTS values total used 40
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise
No entries for exercise.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Week 19 - Sick Sore and Tired - but worth it!
Unfortunately didn't make it into Weight Watchers for a weigh in this weekend. Too much going on. Baseball tournament weekends are busy. So that means I'm going to have to be on my best behaviour for this week too if I want to make sure I get the credit and the reward of having an "on" week last week. Gah. Being forced into these things suck.
The weekend itself went good. Made the best food choices I could given the circumstances. Didn't have any beer or wings. Didn't have any of the BBQ at the beer tent. I only slipped after Saturday was over and being dead tired and hungry it was *MY* idea to get ice cream at Dairy Queen for dinner. I haven't looked up the points yet for my Pecan Mudslide but I have a feeling it isn't going to be pretty.
I'm out of shape. There is no denying that now. The very first game Friday night at my very first at bat (I'm 3rd in the order...so pretty early on in the freaking game) I managed to somehow pull both my quads on my very first hit running to first. This unfortunately made me pretty much useless for the rest of the tournament running wise. Fielding I wasn't running for normally easily caught short pop flies and there was no trying for any extra bases. When I made it to first I'm ashamed to say I had to resort to a pinch runner. HOW EMBARRASSING. I will be stretching before games from this point forward.
Right now I'm trying to remember exactly what I've eaten this past weekend so that I can track it. I will record on it and today's journals tomorrow.
James, Brad and I are all sick. Who knew baby germs would be contagious. Huh. So I'm still tire and sore and now sick. Should be a challenge for me in that I'm going to want to eat comfort food or processed food since it is quick and easy to make when you don't feel up to cooking. Maybe chicken and couscous tonight for dinner.
Congratulations once again Lisa on the baby this past weekend. You can't imagine how excited I am for you! Our little boys are going to be the bestest of friends!!!! YAY!!!!!! Love ya and take one day at a time
The weekend itself went good. Made the best food choices I could given the circumstances. Didn't have any beer or wings. Didn't have any of the BBQ at the beer tent. I only slipped after Saturday was over and being dead tired and hungry it was *MY* idea to get ice cream at Dairy Queen for dinner. I haven't looked up the points yet for my Pecan Mudslide but I have a feeling it isn't going to be pretty.
I'm out of shape. There is no denying that now. The very first game Friday night at my very first at bat (I'm 3rd in the order...so pretty early on in the freaking game) I managed to somehow pull both my quads on my very first hit running to first. This unfortunately made me pretty much useless for the rest of the tournament running wise. Fielding I wasn't running for normally easily caught short pop flies and there was no trying for any extra bases. When I made it to first I'm ashamed to say I had to resort to a pinch runner. HOW EMBARRASSING. I will be stretching before games from this point forward.
Right now I'm trying to remember exactly what I've eaten this past weekend so that I can track it. I will record on it and today's journals tomorrow.
James, Brad and I are all sick. Who knew baby germs would be contagious. Huh. So I'm still tire and sore and now sick. Should be a challenge for me in that I'm going to want to eat comfort food or processed food since it is quick and easy to make when you don't feel up to cooking. Maybe chicken and couscous tonight for dinner.
Congratulations once again Lisa on the baby this past weekend. You can't imagine how excited I am for you! Our little boys are going to be the bestest of friends!!!! YAY!!!!!! Love ya and take one day at a time
Friday, May 29, 2009
Week 18 - Being Forced into Activity!
Stupid rain didn't let up and the game was cancelled last night. Stupid rain. Now it is supposed to rain Saturday. Good thing I like playing in mud puddles. Hmmm...better bring extra shoes. Don't want to get my cleats all muddy.
On the baby front I won't be sitting down to play with James anymore. He has figured out walking. Not on his own yet. At only 7 1/2 months he is running around the main floor of the house! Time to baby proof, get things out of his reach and install baby gates. We spent all day yesterday exploring and examining things he'd previously only was able to see from a distance. The poor cats. They weren't too sure of him when he was just sitting there reaching for him. Now that he is practically mobile and is able to chase them...as we spend the better half of yesterday doing...they are terrified of them. Norris is getting his fair share of attention and likes being chased. Coffee...not so much. My lower back is a little sore from hunching over. My hamstrings and inner thighs however are getting the workout of their lives. Lunges all day. Woo-hoo. My little boy is growing up...and fast. I think he forgot all about crawling!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 6
Midday
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
Lean Cuisine Orange Chicken - Quick-added food 4
Diet Ginger Ale - Quick-added food 0
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 item(s) Sour Cream And Chives Potato 7
1/2 large serving(s) Chili 3
Bucket o'Diet Coke - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 10
Anytime
5 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 3.5
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 27
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
On the baby front I won't be sitting down to play with James anymore. He has figured out walking. Not on his own yet. At only 7 1/2 months he is running around the main floor of the house! Time to baby proof, get things out of his reach and install baby gates. We spent all day yesterday exploring and examining things he'd previously only was able to see from a distance. The poor cats. They weren't too sure of him when he was just sitting there reaching for him. Now that he is practically mobile and is able to chase them...as we spend the better half of yesterday doing...they are terrified of them. Norris is getting his fair share of attention and likes being chased. Coffee...not so much. My lower back is a little sore from hunching over. My hamstrings and inner thighs however are getting the workout of their lives. Lunges all day. Woo-hoo. My little boy is growing up...and fast. I think he forgot all about crawling!
POINTS® Tracker entries
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Morning
1 cup(s) Multi-Grain Cheerios Plus 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 6
Midday
1 item(s) whole hard-boiled egg(s) 2
Lean Cuisine Orange Chicken - Quick-added food 4
Diet Ginger Ale - Quick-added food 0
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 item(s) Sour Cream And Chives Potato 7
1/2 large serving(s) Chili 3
Bucket o'Diet Coke - Quick-added food 0
Subtotal 10
Anytime
5 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 3.5
Subtotal 3.5
Food POINTS values total used 27
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Week 18 - Rain rain, go AWAY!
Stupid rain. Stupid fog. I had made a promise to myself I'd get out walking at least three days this week. I know I won't melt in the rain. I know that James has a weather guard. I just plan don't like getting wet. Have enough hair issues as it is with out the added moisture. See...I have excuses for EVERYTHING ;)
Plus it is the weekend of baseball. Starting (hopefully) with tonight. Double header tonight, a game tomorrow. Four games Saturday. Life is good. Supposed to rain for tonight and tomorrow. Stupid rain. I WANT TO PLAY DARNNIT! After a season of sitting out I'm ready to go! I'm a little disappointed my parents won't be able to come to the games. Which means James won't see Mommy and Daddy playing. Just as well. The bench gets a little rowdy and the girls dirty. No one needs to hear that. I'm so excited for the tournament otherwise. Just what the doctor ordered! Too bad none of the parks we play at have playground equipment.
Yesterday was filled with processed food unfortunately. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine. Low in points but high in sodium. Dinner I did the best I could with what we had. Didn't want to cop out and make the frozen pizza. I can really only afford to eat two slices which isn't really filling. I really must pick up fresh ingredients and make my own dough in the bread maker. Starting grocery list now as I type. So I made chicken fingers (not the low fat kind...why do we buy these things?) and periogies. Not too bad if you stick to serving sizes. Wasn't hungry after and didn't snack at night so I must be doing something right.
Tonight is an early game and I hate having a full stomach while playing. So it is Tuna sandwiches and boiled eggs for dinner...mmmmm...protien...plus I enjoy making Brad (our first baseman) stinky smelly with the farts...poor opposing bat catcher...sorry! My bad...is that underhanded of me? ;)
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
1 serving(s) Lean Cuisine Italian Cheese Ravioli 5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Subtotal 7
Evening
3 No Name Chicken Fingers - Quick-added food 6
8 No Name Potato and Cheddar Perogies - Quick-added food 9
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 15
Anytime
1 large banana(s) 2
1 slices pineapple 0.5
Subtotal 2.5
Food POINTS values total used 28
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Plus it is the weekend of baseball. Starting (hopefully) with tonight. Double header tonight, a game tomorrow. Four games Saturday. Life is good. Supposed to rain for tonight and tomorrow. Stupid rain. I WANT TO PLAY DARNNIT! After a season of sitting out I'm ready to go! I'm a little disappointed my parents won't be able to come to the games. Which means James won't see Mommy and Daddy playing. Just as well. The bench gets a little rowdy and the girls dirty. No one needs to hear that. I'm so excited for the tournament otherwise. Just what the doctor ordered! Too bad none of the parks we play at have playground equipment.
Yesterday was filled with processed food unfortunately. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine. Low in points but high in sodium. Dinner I did the best I could with what we had. Didn't want to cop out and make the frozen pizza. I can really only afford to eat two slices which isn't really filling. I really must pick up fresh ingredients and make my own dough in the bread maker. Starting grocery list now as I type. So I made chicken fingers (not the low fat kind...why do we buy these things?) and periogies. Not too bad if you stick to serving sizes. Wasn't hungry after and didn't snack at night so I must be doing something right.
Tonight is an early game and I hate having a full stomach while playing. So it is Tuna sandwiches and boiled eggs for dinner...mmmmm...protien...plus I enjoy making Brad (our first baseman) stinky smelly with the farts...poor opposing bat catcher...sorry! My bad...is that underhanded of me? ;)
POINTS® Tracker entries
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
1 serving(s) Lean Cuisine Italian Cheese Ravioli 5
2 serving(s) Source Yogurt 1.5
32 fl oz Sugar Free Raspberry Ice 0.5
Subtotal 7
Evening
3 No Name Chicken Fingers - Quick-added food 6
8 No Name Potato and Cheddar Perogies - Quick-added food 9
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
Subtotal 15
Anytime
1 large banana(s) 2
1 slices pineapple 0.5
Subtotal 2.5
Food POINTS values total used 28
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Week 18 - Feel Good about Yourself
I'm still amazed at what small changes will do to make yourself feel better...about everything. There is a saying at the end of my Weight Watchers meeting "Nothing tastes as good as being in control feels". This week I am learning it is the truth. After James was asleep last night I was offered a fudgecicle. I was already one point over for the day and a fudgecicle is only two points. What's being only 3 points over when I've got flex points left right? I said no and it felt really good. Being only 3 points over leads to being 10 points over very very quickly and when you're only 3 points over each and every day, it adds up. So I said no and I felt good about it.
Along with my new clothes I bought new headbands for my hair. Now that I am done with losing my hair after having James, hair is growing back. The new growth is of course around my face. Since I have curly hair, these fine hairs just don't look good. So with the help of a head band I'm hiding them and once again, feeling better about myself in the process.
Feeling good about myself lead me to taking initative with the house. I cleaned the bathroom last night. I will admit I'm a little obsessive about my bathroom. It takes me an hour to clean a 10 x 8 room. I take a sponge soaked in Pine sol to the toilet. Let it sit then rinse it off. Last night I was in such a groove and the OCD set in and found myself steam cleaning my floor grout. It is a small thing. No one but me notices if my floor grout is white or not but it is important to me. So now it is done. James had a bath and I even managed to stay up until 11:00pm! See...feeling better about yourself is important. It leads to a better mood and a better life.
I'm slowly learning to do things for myself and change my way of thinking. I can't keep mourning the loss of my old life. It really wasn't all that exciting anyway. I can't keep telling myself I miss certain things. I have to refocus my thinking and focus on all the new things I have now that I didn't have before. I've said it many times before. I don't know what I did before in the morning. There is no feeling in this world than going into your baby's room in the morning to have them smile up at you. At that moment in time you are the only person in their world and their eyes are filled with such a pure love that you've never seen before. And that my friends is the BEST part of parenthood.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slices Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
1 slice(s) Singles American pasteurized prepared cheese 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
1 slices pineapple 0.5
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 cup(s) cooked brown rice 4
1/2 cup(s) Peas And Carrots 1
5 oz cooked lean boneless pork chop 5.5
3 tsp canola oil 3.5
Subtotal 14
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Along with my new clothes I bought new headbands for my hair. Now that I am done with losing my hair after having James, hair is growing back. The new growth is of course around my face. Since I have curly hair, these fine hairs just don't look good. So with the help of a head band I'm hiding them and once again, feeling better about myself in the process.
Feeling good about myself lead me to taking initative with the house. I cleaned the bathroom last night. I will admit I'm a little obsessive about my bathroom. It takes me an hour to clean a 10 x 8 room. I take a sponge soaked in Pine sol to the toilet. Let it sit then rinse it off. Last night I was in such a groove and the OCD set in and found myself steam cleaning my floor grout. It is a small thing. No one but me notices if my floor grout is white or not but it is important to me. So now it is done. James had a bath and I even managed to stay up until 11:00pm! See...feeling better about yourself is important. It leads to a better mood and a better life.
I'm slowly learning to do things for myself and change my way of thinking. I can't keep mourning the loss of my old life. It really wasn't all that exciting anyway. I can't keep telling myself I miss certain things. I have to refocus my thinking and focus on all the new things I have now that I didn't have before. I've said it many times before. I don't know what I did before in the morning. There is no feeling in this world than going into your baby's room in the morning to have them smile up at you. At that moment in time you are the only person in their world and their eyes are filled with such a pure love that you've never seen before. And that my friends is the BEST part of parenthood.
POINTS® Tracker entries
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
1 tsp Spoonable brown 0
1 cup(s) black coffee 0
Subtotal 3.5
Midday
2 slices Wonder Wheat Bread - Quick-added food 3
1 slice(s) Singles American pasteurized prepared cheese 2
1 tsp Classic yellow mustard 0
1 slices pineapple 0.5
1 serving(s) Sugar Free Peach Iced Tea Mix 0
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
4 slice(s) turkey breast lunch meat (3-1/2 square) 2
Subtotal 7.5
Evening
1 cup(s) cooked brown rice 4
1/2 cup(s) Peas And Carrots 1
5 oz cooked lean boneless pork chop 5.5
3 tsp canola oil 3.5
Subtotal 14
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Week 18 - Overwhelmed by Support
I had a good day after all yesterday. I had a lot to get off my chest blogging helped a lot. Friends can't know what is going on in your head unless you tell them and they may begin to think they've done something wrong. It isn't the case at all. I just need some time alone to find myself and my way again. The e-mails and facebook postings on my wall with suggestions from friends make me realize I'm not alone in this even though at times I couldn't feel more alone in the world.
Yesterday ended up shopping and buying some new clothes. Today I'm sitting here in a size 11 jean capris (yay Reitman's with a wide variety of sizes!). Sure it gives me a little bit of a muffin top in my belly area but I suppose in time that will be taken care of. Nothing a nice new longer tee shirt can't cover up! So I got 4 new summer shirts...the tank tops of summers past will be demoted to sleeping in until I can get back to work and weight training...besides my new post-pregnant skin is burning like a SOB in the sun. Not that I was a tanned goddess before. Previously I came in to shades, Caseper and Extra Cripsy. Now the theme of the summer looks like either freckled or Extra extra crispy. Nice. I HATE SUNSCREEN! So sticky and smelly. But...I digress. Also bought three new pairs of pants. Two capris and one pair of shorts. Got to be prepared for all eventualities. Couldn't find any yoga pants for baseball. The search for that continues. Maybe WalMart or Zellers will be more helpful.
Food wise I like to think I did okay. I ended up at my parents so when shopping my Mom could watch James while I tried on clothes. Dad ended up offering to watch James while we went out. We waited until after noon so I could feed the monkey and we left. Mom hadn't had lunch yet (neither had I for that matter) so she suggested McDonald's in Walmart. Moment of panic. McDonald's in Walmarts SUCK. They don't offer a full menu. No salads. I couldn't find the menu for happy meals. So I think I did the best I could. I had two Fajitas and a diet Coke. Passed on the fries. 8 points for lunch. Not too bad considering normally I'd just have a combo and say fuck the day. Minor slip up with an Iced Coffee from Tim Horton's (4 points with cream). Note to self. Next time ask for it with Milk instead. For a medium it reduces the point value to 2.
Hopefully I can keep this up all week. Monkey is awake...
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, May 25, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 CHicken Fajitas McDonald's - Quick-added food 8
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Med. Tim Horton's Iced Coffee (w/cream) - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 13
Evening
1/2 chicken - Quick-added food 3
White Flour Tortilla - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 7
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
Yesterday ended up shopping and buying some new clothes. Today I'm sitting here in a size 11 jean capris (yay Reitman's with a wide variety of sizes!). Sure it gives me a little bit of a muffin top in my belly area but I suppose in time that will be taken care of. Nothing a nice new longer tee shirt can't cover up! So I got 4 new summer shirts...the tank tops of summers past will be demoted to sleeping in until I can get back to work and weight training...besides my new post-pregnant skin is burning like a SOB in the sun. Not that I was a tanned goddess before. Previously I came in to shades, Caseper and Extra Cripsy. Now the theme of the summer looks like either freckled or Extra extra crispy. Nice. I HATE SUNSCREEN! So sticky and smelly. But...I digress. Also bought three new pairs of pants. Two capris and one pair of shorts. Got to be prepared for all eventualities. Couldn't find any yoga pants for baseball. The search for that continues. Maybe WalMart or Zellers will be more helpful.
Food wise I like to think I did okay. I ended up at my parents so when shopping my Mom could watch James while I tried on clothes. Dad ended up offering to watch James while we went out. We waited until after noon so I could feed the monkey and we left. Mom hadn't had lunch yet (neither had I for that matter) so she suggested McDonald's in Walmart. Moment of panic. McDonald's in Walmarts SUCK. They don't offer a full menu. No salads. I couldn't find the menu for happy meals. So I think I did the best I could. I had two Fajitas and a diet Coke. Passed on the fries. 8 points for lunch. Not too bad considering normally I'd just have a combo and say fuck the day. Minor slip up with an Iced Coffee from Tim Horton's (4 points with cream). Note to self. Next time ask for it with Milk instead. For a medium it reduces the point value to 2.
Hopefully I can keep this up all week. Monkey is awake...
POINTS® Tracker entries
Monday, May 25, 2009
Morning
2/3 cup(s) The Original Shredded Wheat, spoon-size 1.5
1 large banana(s) 2
1 cup(s) low-fat milk 2
Subtotal 5.5
Midday
2 CHicken Fajitas McDonald's - Quick-added food 8
8 fl oz Diet coke 0
1 serving(s) Mr. Christie Arrowroot Cookie 1
Med. Tim Horton's Iced Coffee (w/cream) - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 13
Evening
1/2 chicken - Quick-added food 3
White Flour Tortilla - Quick-added food 4
Subtotal 7
Anytime
No entries for this meal time.
Subtotal 0
Food POINTS values total used 25.5
Food POINTS values remaining 0
Exercise No entries for exercise.
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